Becoming Nothing

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Who am I without my stories? Without my attachments? Without my wounds? I think I am about to find out, as we all are. September 2022 has been strange and it just keeps getting stranger. I keep trying to focus enough to write a post, only to decide it really doesn’t matter, anyway.

This isn’t apathy or withdrawal, it’s more like observer presence. Like I am watching a scripted movie, so it won’t matter what warnings I yell at the screen. We are where we are, and personal choice makes little difference, at this point. We can have a little influence over our own journey, and we are still responsible for the energy we put into the world, but the main plot is already in action.

I’m not at all saying we’re powerless in our own lives. Greatly loving and supporting the body is crucial at this point. I ask my body what it needs several times each day. I want to build a supportive partnership, and unity consciousness starts within. As within, so without. So, our choices still matter a great deal for the quality of our own journey… just not much else.

When the queen died my first thought was, “There’s no turning back now.” She was the linchpin holding the old paradigm together. I know there are all kinds of theories about the “evil” of the monarchy, but that’s not at all what I’m talking about. A single woman held a course for the whole planet for 70+ years. That’s pretty impressive. Now, we are evolving beyond the old paradigm, and the major players must change. This will happen faster than we think, as Queen Elizabeth II really was the glue holding it all together. We are all this powerful, if we could only stay focused.

The queen’s death was also a symbolic ending of many 3D stories. Many outdated archetypes are also leaving the dance floor. The problem I’m having (and I’m sure I’m not alone) is that new archetypes haven’t arrived yet. The only ideas I really resonate with are freedom, liberation, joy, and equality. I have no idea how that will look, but I am doing my best to embody those ideals. Again, this is all internal between my body and my higher self. The symbiotic relationship of incarnation.

I don’t really have much else to say. If you are feeling the strangeness, just know you aren’t alone. Care for your body like the frightened animal it is. Be ready to forgive and release the past at a whole new level. This is what we came to hold space for.


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Worth and Value

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I was having a discussion yesterday about self-worth and determining worth in the world. They are very different things, and upon examination, I think I have found where the confusion lies. First off, either detach the word “worth” from anything external (money, popularity, other people’s opinions, etc.) or find a different word that you can use to represent internal energy.

Worth is inherent. Your soul is always worthy of any exterior happiness, just by being. You never have to earn worth, nor can you work hard to get more. It’s just there. Every breath we take fills us all equally with the loving energy of existence.

Value, on the other hand, is about external interaction. You can use your free will to better yourself, or tear down others. You can choose to be a health nut or a hedonist. You get to decide what energy you bring to the world. Do you bring love or fear? Do you bring anger or peace? Do you leave people feeling hopeful or dismal? Most importantly, are you aware of the energy you spread?

Here’s where I think the sticky part happens: On some level we all want to live up to our potential, so when we choose a lower value option, our self-worth suffers. We forget that worth is independent of our choices and mistakes. We forget that we can choose differently, to bring our value closer to our potential. We forget that we can always make different choices, while our worth is unaffected.

Just because most of the world is familiar with these two people, let’s look at Barack Obama and Donald Trump. I can feel the buttons being pushed. I really need you to step away from politics, policies, and party lines. I am only using these people as examples because most of us are familiar with their personalities, or public display of energy. I don’t care who you voted for. That said, even thinking about Trump likely caused a visceral reaction, either pro or con. Trump’s energy is very triggering. Obama (not necessarily his politics) is naturally more calming.

Without either one being right or wrong, can you feel how completely different their energies are? Try this exercise with people in your own circle. Feel how some people leave you feeling refreshed, while others leave you feeling drained? You may love them all, but they bring different energy to the party. That’s value. They are all worthy (internal) of the best love and life have to offer, but their value (external) lies in the energy they spread.

Don’t misunderstand me – we all have bad days. You are totally allowed to feel what you feel. The value is in how you express the feeling. Do you say, “I’m angry today, I need to be alone,” or do you say, “You make me angry!” Throwing your baggage at someone is always a choice. If you are in a toxic relationship, it is your responsibility to leave, rather than blame.

Just a note on frequency – like attracts like. It’s hard to tell what kind of energy we are spreading, because we are always with us. Sometimes it’s best to look at our circle to see where we are. Are you surrounded by narcissists or addicts? It doesn’t mean you are one, but it does mean something you carry resonates with that level of existence. I used to attract addicts of all sorts until I cleared the victim mentality from my field. I still love my addicted friends, but we aren’t as close (without setting new boundaries).

When I have a low-value day, my worth is still intact. Really spend some time pondering the difference. If you understood your worth is a given, who would you be? What kind of energy would you spread in the world? What habits would you keep, and what would you change? We can make all kinds of choices about how our value impacts the world, but we are always worthy.


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Thought Experiment

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Don’t you love how synchronicity brings ideas into your field, and they coalesce to form all new patterns? New to me, at least. Not even new information, just a different take on things; a new understanding. This is why I love personal development – never a dull moment in personal growth! It’s difficult to keep me challenged, but the layers of the human psyche are endlessly amazing.

I need to start with a bit of framework. The Mystery Schools (and now science) tells us that the world is just a hologram. Physical reality stems from consciousness, not the other way around. The Mystery Schools say, “Life is a circle where the center is everywhere and the circumference is nowhere,” while science says all reality is subjective. If we are all the center of our own subjective reality, then who’s driving this crazy train? Only one possible answer: we are. You are wholly and completely responsible for your personal experience. Eventually, and with a few exceptions.

The “eventually” part is about inner work, or shadow work. It takes some directed effort to wrestle yourself out of the cocoon of victim mentality you were born into. The exceptions are disruptions to the physical brain – actual physical blocks to thinking, like Alzheimer’s or schizophrenia.

We are usually led to spiritual development because the pain of life gets too heavy. We generally go into it like religion, with some heavy wish-fulfillment (heaven) and vengeance (hell / karma) desires. We soon find that “being good” doesn’t improve our lot, and judging others as “bad” doesn’t let us gleefully watch their karmic repercussions. At some point we decide we want to be the best version of ourselves, just because that’s who we want to be. Poof! Then the layers peel back more quickly. If you are ready for a personal deep-dive, I recommend The Gene Keys. That stuff is pure magic.

From this level of reality we can change the physical world. Why? Because we have all that extra room in our minds. Instead of wasting brain power on fear and judgement, we can use that extra focus on directing energy in the physical realm. Remember, every level is a valid place to be, so it perfectly okay to be thinking, “Well, that’s all fine and dandy, but my circumstances are special!” For perspective, I’m in a wheelchair due to a neurological disorder, and I plan to use myself as a guinea pig. Everyone reaches a new level in their own time… even if we wish it happened faster.

Here’s the fun part… what if all this inner work is just to clear out enough space to focus the brain? What if it was never about fixing something, or being good enough? What if the suffering that started us on this path was just a reminder to leave the cocoon? I’m not in any way saying anyone can bypass the messy part and go straight to focusing the mind. Please, dear Goddess, don’t spiritual bypass. I’m just saying that the real reason for “doing the work” may be much more significant than just feeling better psychologically. Not that feeling better in your own skin isn’t a great reason, I just like to push the boundaries. Gotta have a hobby.

We have plenty of distractions, and left unattended our thoughts usually revert to any number of less-than-optimal patterns. I think judgement (self or other) and fear are the two most common. Interesting how social media and news push both those buttons. When we manage to master the chatter of the monkey-mind, we can program something new. When I say “master the monkey-mind” I really mean retrain it to think more productive thoughts. That means a lot of thought interruption and redirection. You can do it. I have faith.

So, this takes us one step further than my usual “mind your mind” platform. I am suggesting that focused thought can change physical matter. I know this idea isn’t new, but I believe it is now more widely available than ever before. I also believe that changing physical reality with the focused mind is great training for creator beings, such as ourselves. We are working directly with the plasma that creates physical reality. Maybe the sun is sending new codes. Maybe the energy is just light enough to allow this to happen. Maybe this is all a thought experiment. Maybe we leveled up on the game we’re playing. Whatever the reason, I just want to see what we’re capable of. Remember to have fun out there!


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Bazinga!

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Know what really fascinates me about the Mandela Effect? The fact that some part of our consciousness remembers other timelines. That’s wild! Some part of me remembers a different reality, almost like realities are interchangeable… Why wouldn’t they be? Linear time and a lonely singular reality are both just imaginary. Oh wait! That may be a spoiler alert for some. Just something to ponder.

I am re-watching “The Big Bang Theory”, and the past month has felt very much like the scene with a sleep deprived Sheldon in the ball pit, popping up to say “Bazinga” as a show of humorous ‘can’t catch me’. This feeling will continue, and likely intensify, until mid-August, 2022. I highly recommend you treat it as a game, instead of the frustrating act of trying to catch a changing timeline. Some days reality is shifting so fast I feel like I’m jumping rope with timelines. There’s a lot of sleep involved with this. Well, short naps, anyway.

What I grew-up hearing about the local weather seems appropriate here: “Don’t like the weather? Give it 15 minutes. It’ll change.” If your current reality is uncomfortable, just be open to the possibility it will be different soon. The mind wants things to be stable and predictable, but right now is a really difficult time to hold things still. Let it go, let it flow. Life is moving, and hanging on will only result in being dragged.

To clearly see the amazing timeline leaps watch the world of science and technology. I am currently listening to “A New Science of Heaven” by Robert Temple. This book basically unifies science and mysticism. The study of plasma goes back to 1887, but all of a sudden, the pieces have fallen into place for a whole new outlook. This kind of shift is happening a lot. Just look away from the re-runs on the world stage to see the exciting new stuff.

Another fun one is a short film by Quantum Gravity Research called “What Is Reality?” This is stuff I had to study the Merkaba teachings for a decade to figure out, and now it is explained by science in 30 minutes. How cool is that?!?

I am also waking up before the dog barks at a noise, and reaching for my phone right as a text comes in. I used to experience these things on-and-off, but now it’s just on. There’s a lot going on out there. We are living in a time ruled by epiphany and synchronicity. Prepare to unify with your own higher dimensions… like there’s a way to prepare for a thing like that. Just love yourself and go with the flow. You got this.


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Finding Integrity

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It has been an intense time for epiphanies. I probably brought some of that on myself by meditating on what I need to change to get on the highest timeline for my life. Turns out, I need to use my words. Oh, the irony. I learn a lot from watching other people, so I want to share this piece of my journey in the hope it will spark something in you.

My definition of “integrity” is when thoughts, words, and deeds are all aligned. Many people have a disconnect between their words and their deeds – lots of talk with no action. I’m good there; if I say it, it’s going to happen. The place I was out of whack was between my thoughts and my words. I was working under the assumption that my thoughts were only in my head, thus totally under my control. In reality, my thoughts were there to guide me, and needed to be taken seriously.

For example, I have been accused (really by only one person, now that I think of it) of being too rigid and controlling. In an effort to be more “easy going” I have fallen into a pattern of saying, “No worries,” when I really mean, “I’ll get over it, but please don’t make it a habit.” If people are under the impression that I don’t mind a certain behavior, of course they are going to make it a habit.

This new habit they are displaying, which I don’t like but have voiced no objection to, becomes tiresome and unsustainable. Eventually, I just leave the situation. I find myself alone (again), which is my personal flavor of self-sabotage. My self-sabotage is directly caused by my lack of communication. Again, the irony!

The other piece of this puzzle comes from projecting my needs. I thrive when I feel secure in my relationships, so I strive to make others feel secure. For me, security means consistency, dependability, and emotional responsibility (not throwing their baggage at me). Security may not be a issue for others in my life, and providing it definitely doesn’t guarantee it will be returned.

Additionally, providing others with an environment of safety and security, without boundaries and expectation, usually results in a lack of growth. We all grow faster when we are less comfortable, or at least challenged to meet a mark. By not verbalizing my needs, I am basically hurting people around me. I have seen people get more and more destructive in search of a boundary. I really should have learned this lesson before now. Most of this is information I already had, but this is the first time it came into a strait line to my own self-sabotage. The layers of human psychology are fascinating!

For the first day of this revelation I was a bit shell-shocked, with no idea of how to proceed. It has now been 48 hours, and it feels totally natural to say what I actually mean. I think awareness was the important part, not implementation. The point being, just sit with your revelations for a bit, and they will work themselves into your reality. It only takes effort if you resist. All these shift are just bringing us into personal integrity.


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Unshakable

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The world stage is crazy, and going to get worse. Why? Some of our reality is just breaking down, but also those in power are experimenting with human emotion, specifically to stay in power. Don’t fall for it. Humans are easily led if they can be kept in fear. Anger is a step up from fear, but it is a long way from the vibration of love.

As we know, this ascension thing is happening either way. The only choice now is how hard we want to make it. Do we want the pain brought on by the dissonance between the vibration of fear and the vibration of love? Or do we want to make that transition easier by actively bringing ourselves toward the frequency of love? To be honest, the human body can’t hold both frequencies. If you plan to live through this decade (and many won’t), keep your focus on the higher frequency of love. It’s where we’re going.

If you are new to shadow work, this can sound like denial. Bliss bunny stuff. It’s the opposite, actually. It takes a true spiritual warrior to look at the headlines and sill keep their heart open. Compassion is really just observing, with love, from a distance. If I can see you heading for a fall, and still love you while holding the knowledge that you have the strength to get through it – that’s compassion. Try it with the world stage. It isn’t an easy task.

For an example, let’s say some thugs start stirring trouble in your neighborhood. The knee-jerk reaction might be to share guard duty with your neighbors. Now you have a bunch of angry or scared people trying to defend a space. (I keep getting a visual of someone wearing a cooking pot for a helmet and a trash can lid for a shield.) Another option would be neighborhood training in a martial art. If you have a group of black belts walking the streets, the thugs will move on. I am not advocating denial, I’m asking you to become a black belt.

I’m not saying you won’t still feel the waves from the collective. The wave of anger yesterday was like a rip tide. Feel it and move through it, don’t get sucked in and drown. Even the human heart grid flickered a bit. Now it’s our job to strengthen the heart grid once more. We will. I’m not worried, I’ve been doing this for a while. More importantly, your own experience depends on how quickly you can guide yourself through each rough patch.

I’d guess that the adjustments to both abortion rights and gun control in the USA was carefully timed to try to put as many (from both political parties) into fear as possible. This timing was probably chosen because tomorrow (June 28, 2022) we start about six weeks of intense karma clearing. Karma is just repeating a behavior based on frequency. Those that are still trying to run the matrix of control would love for us to choose to keep our own frequency low enough to keep the old karma (of fear and oppression) in play. If you allow yourself to be open, even a little, karma will be leaving your system rapidly. All you have to do is stay out of fear. Fear closes the cellular doors where all the old stuff is trying to leave.

Here are some short writings that may be helpful:
To identify and change victim mentality, READ THIS
To look at personal power, READ THIS
To check out esoteric power, READ THIS
To become a Ninja, READ THIS
My website, www.WalkingInBothWorlds.com has many pages, like those above, that are free and available to all. Please share whatever you wish. If it jogs someone’s memory about the path they came to walk, then my time was well-spent.

None of us is perfect, and we can always improve, so just start where you are. Every effort towards self-mastery will be greatly rewarded in the coming weeks. We are supported in this journey like never before. Like I have said many times, ascension (evolution) is happening either way; might as well make the most of it. Let’s see how far we can go!


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And We’re Off!

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From nothing to everything in the blink of an eye. I’ve been flat on the couch for most of June 2022, but my body feels like it finally integrated the physical upgrades. Almost everyone I know has been plagued with complications, delays, and detours. It makes me think of the words my first grade teacher said so often to me – “Wait for the class.” I have spent much of my life waiting for the world to catch up, so I knew what was happening, but it’s still hard. Never fear, the wait is over! At least for now.

It will seem like the next two months will fly by. In a blink of the eye it will be late August. For those who have been waiting, it will come as a relief. For those already feeling like they are hanging by a thread, this acceleration will hopefully redirect their attention inwards and to self-care. Be kind to everyone. We will all feel the fast and furious changes.

If you aren’t feeling the speed yet, it will come by June solstice. Enjoy your last bit of down time. Then it will feel like a water slide – fun but fast. The new energy will wash over us all. It’s up to your perception to see it as a water park or a fire hose.

I feel like I will finally be shown my next step. With the timeline shifting every three days, it has been impossible to pick a direction. Wait for the class. But now, it feels like a solid experience, at least for a few months.

For those worried about the state of the world, please question where you are getting your guidance. The only source you should be listing to is the Source within. When I get quiet and meditate, I can feel the joy of Gaia, the strength of the human heart grid, and the support of my invisible team. If you are getting something else, ask your ego to step aside so you can connect directly with Source. I’m not talking about denial. The world stage is a hot mess, for sure. I’m talking about discernment. Get your intel from where it matters, or the stress will be overwhelming.

Two coping skills stand out for this passage: remember to rest and be careful what you wish for.

After all this waiting it can feel freeing to go full steam ahead. Your body is still integrating and updating. Be sure to listen to your body, and give it what it needs. Take breaks. Be patient. We are only incarnate at the invitation of our body. Death is not an enemy, but life is only available through the host body. Be a good guest.

Be careful what you wish for, because you’ll probably get it. Be willing to change goals as soon as you figure out this isn’t what you actually want. Lessons will abound, but will only stay as long as you need them. If you are immediately aware of a misstep, just change direction. For those practiced in going with the flow this will be easy. For those more hard-headed this may be tough. The lessons will escalate until you get the message. This isn’t personal, it’s only to move us quickly to the higher timeline. As my Guides have had to remind me way too many times, “This isn’t about you.”

Enjoy this ride. I feel like life will resume a reasonable pace in September. We’ll see. Always an adventure on planet Earth!


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Energy Update May 27, 2022

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We make plans and the gods laugh. Kind of the story of my life, but it has been accentuated since the March equinox. Every time I think I finally have a path, more timelines collapse and my plans fall apart. While I know this is just bringing us all to the highest timeline, it’s frustrating. I used to take little detours to keep myself busy while I waited for the collective, but that’s no longer an option. No more detours. I don’t mean partying for the weekend, I mean getting a new certification in something. I spent a lot of time just keeping myself busy. No more detours. Apparently, it’s showtime.

The physical symptoms are also interesting. My spleen hurts and I’m eating much less. I’m one of those people who lose weight quickly, but my weight hasn’t changed. I’m also seeing sparkles and geometry. Not with my inner eye, actually in my physical vision. Distracting. My blood pressure has lowered considerably in the last week, which is a good thing, but I’m not doing anything to cause it. My body feels great internally, but I’m tired. I am sleeping great, which is a welcomed change. Remember, I’m a little before the wave and we are all unique, so if your experience is different it’s perfect for you.

Emotionally, I am generally happy, with little sparks of anger. Anger was my default setting for many years, so I think it is just washing out of my system. Don’t be surprised if your default emotion pops up for no reason. Don’t give it a place to live by attaching a story, just let it flow right on through. It feels like an emotional car wash. Clumps of dirt you didn’t know were even there come flying out of the cracks before disappearing in the suds.

Know what else is weird? My link to astrology seems to be shifting. I used to be able to actually feel the planets do their thing, and now that connection is off. To clarify, I don’t follow astrology and then think I feel a shift. I feel a shift, then have to look up why. It looks like this: Something changed. Feels like Jupiter. (Digs around on the internet.) Yep, Jupiter just changed signs. I still feel Jupiter and solar stuff, but not much else. This past eclipse gateway hasn’t really ended for me. The whole solar system is shifting, or at least our connection to it.

I have been playing with manifesting in this new energy. It seems we have left both manifesting (making stuff happen using personal will) and magnetizing (pulling experience toward us using heart coherence). It seems that we are getting closer to actual creation, which utilizes focused mind, heart coherence, and sound. I’m still working out the sound piece. For now, I’m tapping into my heart, then focusing my energy on a place in my body. The shift is almost immediate. If I “did” anything to lower my blood pressure, it was this technique. I was focusing on the brain stem. Give it a go for yourself.

Epiphanies have been a big thing, but if I don’t act on them right away they vanish. Even just putting them in writing holds them down a bit. Grounding things right now takes effort. This is not normal for me. Time is a mess, as we all know. If it weren’t for my phone displaying the day and date, I’d be lost.

Meditation is overwhelming, rather than relaxing. The sheer amount of information coming in is exhausting. I usually give up after just a few minutes because of over-stimulation. Meditation feels more like a rave. So much going on, I can’t take it all in. Images, colors, and words. Enlightenment through a fire hose. I’m sure this is at least part of the reason I feel exhausted and sleep so deeply right now. I (ego me) have to be out of the way to receive all these memos.

If you have coping tools for any of the above, or just wish to add to this list, please do so in the comments. We are all a piece to each other’s puzzle. I find pieces of remembrance all over the place. My favorite this week is from Rob Brezsny’s Free Will Astrology: “The universe always gives you what you need when you need it. But are you willing to give the universe what it needs when it needs it?” Share the magic that only you carry.


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Well, This Is Fun

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We really need a font reserved for sarcasm. I feel the dark, sarcastic side of my Scorpio humor is lost in the written word. Probably for the best.

I’m not having any fun at all. The timelines are collapsing so fast I feel nauseous and scared. I never feel scared. Fear and I don’t usually have a relationship beyond an occasional nod. The weather is joining in this circus with wind so strong it could rip away a whole reality. In fact, I think it is. Gaia herself is shifting into a different timeline, and the whole Elemental kingdom is making way. Fanfare and fear. Lovely.

I do have the strong feeling this will pass soon, and we will all be walking a slightly (or greatly) different path. I know that this is just the in-between phase of becoming. I have moved through this part several times on my individual journey, but it’s much more impressive as a collective… and as a planet. I suspect we’ll be doing this again at the next eclipse gateway this fall.

This note is just to let you know you aren’t alone. Even those of us who do this anchoring bit on a regular basis are having a rough go of it right now. The incoming energy is intense and insistent. No more ignoring stuff. The alarm clock went off years ago, and those who insisted on staying asleep now get the bucket of cold water poured on their heads. Of course, those anchoring this energy get to feel it.

There are breaks built-in. Yesterday, I spent several hours floating in bliss, before being pummeled again. Physically, I feel much healing and many changes. I have a lot of hip pain, and what feels like new glands around my hips, ribs, and pelvis. My nervous system is doing amazingly well, and I feel a second (etheric) heart, which has been intermittent since 2017. Brain fog and clarity come and go. My current coping mechanism is audio books. Being read to is quite calming. Sandra Walter has a great YouTube video about coping with this energy.

I’m enjoying the breaks, wondering at the physical changes, and mostly bracing for impact as each new wave hits. I would imagine that my personal trials will be over about the time this really starts to affect the world stage. Probably a good summer to stay away from the news and get outside. Feel the Earth. She feels like She is being freed from a long dormant period. This is what we came for (though I have to question our sanity). Feels like a “hold my beer…” kind of moment. But still, I’m quite sure we’ve got this!


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Energy Update April 19, 2022

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Do you feel slightly removed from reality? So do I. “Slightly” is an understatement. In the past week, I have been ricocheting between being totally self-involved and wondering if I still exist on this plane. I’ve heard of people who weren’t aware they died and just kept going… It has been that strange. People still interact with me, so I assume I am still alive, but I am clearing out my extra belongings and updating my will, just in case.

Last night in dreamtime I was working all night. It has been a while since I’ve been busy all night. I was helping to balance both the collective and a few individuals, while major archetypes were changing or being removed. I remember telling someone, “It’s okay, that’s just the fear being removed from the collective. It isn’t you, you’re fine.” All night was spent calming energy down as layers of programming was removed, like blankets from a bed. After you remove a blanket, the lower layers need to be smoothed out. My job was the smoothing. There was a lot of smoothing.

Since the March equinox, I have felt much like the center piece of a merry-go-round, anchoring the whole thing to the ground while everything spins around me. I occasionally have to take ginger for the motion sickness. This is one of those days. I am exhausted and queasy. Along with that, the current ascension symptoms are affecting my eyesight, my liver, my memory (and I generally have a fantastic memory) and my hips. I’m basically fasting every other day due to nausea or digestive slowness. You aren’t alone.

Time outside, even just looking at a tree, helps immensely with grounding (relieves the motion sickness). Epsom salt baths ease hip pain. In general, drink plenty of water and go with the energy flow. Go when it feels right, and rest when it feels right. When you are in a rest mode you are holding space for Gaia herself. Resting is vital, for many reasons.

The sense I get is that we are moving toward a singular unified timeline, which means many people are being shuffled around as the multiple timelines merge. They will go from their current (ending) reality to the nearest sustainable timeline… Until that one is ready for collapse, then they will be moved yet again. If your life isn’t moving much, you’re already on one of the last timelines to merge with the one Unity line. For some this means relocation, changes in job, or changes is relationships. For others (like me) it is more about refining what’s already there (new paint, cleaning out closets). For now. 2022 is just warming up.

Prioritize self-care and go with the flow. With layers of matrix programming (conditioning) being removed, the new reality can seem both liberating and terrifying. Things aren’t the way they were sold to us. Forget what you thought you knew, and be ready to process brand new information, both personal and collective. All we can really do is open our minds and enjoy the ride. We got this!


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