Assimilating New Information

Intelligence is the ability to adapt to change.”Stephen Hawking

So much information coming in. Some is quite obvious, some is so subtle, it’s almost undetectable. The only underlying theme is that it is all self-knowledge. A flood of knowing yourself in new ways.

Some of the information seems totally new, while other parts seem like the same game on a whole new level. Life is a spiral, and we continually see things from new perspectives, but this experience is much faster. Like watching your life review on fast forward. So much, all at once!

This is probably tied to liner time changing, and the magnetic poles shifting. As the planet does her thing, we are swept up with her. The nice part is that a critical mass has been preparing for this since 2012, or longer. Anyone reading this has done inner preparation. All we really need to do at this point is stay open. Spend as much time as you can feeling your open heart. Maybe just check-in with yourself throughout your day, to be sure you’re open. An open heart will guide you.

Dreams have been vivid – pay attention. Synchronicity abounds – pay attention. Both old and new paths are surfacing – pay attention. All this information is coming in so we can see the patterns, and make a choice. Right now, the choice is on the mental level. Come January 2020, we will be asked to take steps. Use the new information to prepare mentally, so the steps will be easier.

On a human level, this energy is intense! Yes, there is a background bliss which has been lovely. There is also nausea every time the magnetic poles shift. Lots of physical pain in the arms and sinuses, as we upgrade our 5th & 6th chakras. Earlier this week, there was a huge wave of emotion, so big I can’t even tell you which emotion. Time is both dragging on, and speeding by. On a human level, it’s just not comfortable.

My best advice is to return to your heart and the present moment, whenever possible. Staying heart-based and present will keep you above the fray. Whenever you feel overwhelmed or lost, return to your heart and the now. At this point, we just need to be open and receive the messages. Just listen, and contemplate what you’ve discovered about yourself. A good (short) read has been gifted to us from Sandra Walter HERE.

Of course, this is also playing out on the world stage. As above so below; as within so without. Try to keep away from the outer noise, and keep turning your focus inward. The fastest way to heal the world is to heal yourself. Be gentle with yourself, as you assimilate the new.


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* Entitlement *

This subject has been confusing and elusive to me. Only this week has it made sense, and only when viewed through the lens of old archetypes. At least to me. This is the mystical view, and you (as always) can feel free to dismiss it and go with your own explanation. Just sit with the energy and ideas, and see what rings true for you.

We must start in the past, when polarity was so extreme we had to divide life into gender roles. Men were the providers, and took great pride in that role. The ability to support your family, and fix things around the house was a great thing. Women were the homemakers, and took great pride in that role. Keeping the house tidy, raising children, and keeping everyone healthy and well fed was a great thing. The point being, both parties wanted to do their role, and do it well. This started to break down about a hundred years ago.

Fast-forward to the early 2000’s, the age of entitlement. Men generally despise going to work and financially supporting a family. Women want to do as little as possible with home and kids, while being financially supported. No one wants to do the old role, yet they all expect others to carry the burden of living. Maybe we are just trying to live in expired archetypes. With Unity Consciousness returning, each of us is responsible for balancing these energies within. It seems very isolated at first, but when these balanced people find each other, miracles can happen.

This also leads me to the idea of toxic masculinity. Again, this isn’t a gender issue, it’s about our inner energies. Your feminine is your body, and your masculine is your Higher Mind (not the ego mind). Collectively, we have slipped from our Higher Mind to our ego mind (monkey mind), and our bodies are paying for it. Remember Dax from the show Deep Space Nine? That character was a symbiotic being that could get transplanted into a new host body, but kept the wisdom she had collected in her thousands of years. That’s basically what I’m saying. Your body is not an amusement park. Your body supports your physical life, and you need to support its health in return.

Having slipped into the ego mind, and the mind being our masculine energy (free will), we have collectively decided to go with the masculine shadow of the eternal child. We all want to run about and have fun, while someone else cares and provides for us. Both men and women are living this shadow, not all but many. Ask yourself if you are happy to do the work of living, or if everything seems burdensome. Even when we drop the concept of money and jobs, there will still be growing and harvesting food, raising children, and a multitude of other tasks.

Shout out to my Mom – She always gave thanks for the washing machine, because our ancestors did laundry by beating the clothes on rocks in the river. I remember that every time I do laundry.

If you honestly think life should be a permanent vacation, you are totally living in the shadows. If you think the chores of life are drudgery and you want a full-time staff to do them for you, you are living in the shadows. If you are expecting someone to save you from your life, you are living in the shadows. The incoming message is simple: Grow Up! We must master our own thoughts, before evolution can work its magic. Taking care of your own body and surroundings is the first step. Well, second step… the first step is being honest with yourself about when you feel entitled, and whiny about living.

This all kind of sounds like everyone is an island, all alone in the world. It’s quite the opposite. You are, however, all alone in your mind. Only you know what’s going on in there, and only you can change it. We must each be empowered from the inside, so we can attract other empowered beings. This is where Unity Consciousness steps in. Instead of the polarity of gender roles, we are headed towards empowered communities.

Does this mean you need to be more independent? Only mentally. We all have friends and partners to help us with life, and that’s as it should be. What I’m saying is mind your Mind. Check the story you’re living. Anytime you want to escape or be saved, look at the shadow belief you are running. This is Mastery level stuff, so be sure to observe your thoughts without judgement. Just knowing what’s driving you can change everything.

No one really wants to be an eternal child, but most of us haven’t even looked at the other options. Dig deep. Dissolve your own sense of entitlement.


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* Fractal Reality *

These posts come to me from the ether somewhere. I feel like they are broadcast to all, but a few of us pick up the message more strongly, so I pass it on as best I can. Once in a while, the very secrets of creation come streaming in. I used to worry about publicly sharing this secret information, but then I realized two things… 1) The time for secrets is over, and 2) If  someone isn’t ready to receive, they don’t hear me anyway. The Mystery Teachings really do require the eyes to see, and the ears to hear. So let’s create some reality, shall we?

I love it when old information is presented in a new way. It’s all symbol and metaphor, but some symbols are just easier to understand. The Mystery Schools teach that reality is holographic… you can cut off a corner, and still see the whole picture within the piece. I can mentally grasp it, but it never seemed natural to me. A few days ago, I got the image of all reality as a fractal. That one feels easier to me. While this concept can be applied at any level, I’m going to focus on the physical. After all, changing the physical world is what we’re after.

Imagine a fractal. The spiraling arms represent both the micro (molecules), and the macro (universes). Your Higher Mind is the center, where it all springs from. As all Divinity, the center is everywhere, and the circumference is nowhere. We are each the defining force in our own fractal. When our thoughts are untrained, and just repeating old input (monkey mind), The fractal just keeps repeating in the same way, both micro and macro.

Here’s the crazy part… we get to change the pattern by focusing the Higher Mind. This can be done by will (lower magic), or by love (higher magic). Thoughts are electric, and emotions are magnetic. If we use our will to constantly redirect our thoughts to love, the result is magnetically attracting that vibration into our field.

I know this seems overwhelming on a grand scale, so we’re just going to focus on our own body. Every chance you get, redirect the conversation to love. If you don’t like your body, figure out why. If your body has addiction issues, get it help. Treat your body as a dear friend, who has always been there for you. Because it has. Your body is the only reason you get to exist, and create, in the physical realm. The more loving dialog you have with your body, the easier it becomes to change physical reality. Your own body is the key.

Motivation matters. Are you avoiding alcohol because you should, or because you love your liver? Doing (or avoiding) things because you are following a list is just dogma. Dogma is just a belief system, and not grounded in the physical plane. Acting out of love is where the power lies. Do you avoid leaving your dog in a hot car because you might get in trouble, or because you want the animal to be safe and comfortable? How much of what you do for your own body is motivated by love?

This is where the shadow work comes in. Figure out your own stories that keep you from self-love. I’m not taking about body image, or indulging base desires, I mean real love. Real support. Unconditional stuff. Your body naturally strives for health. Your Higher Mind naturally wants to be in body. Loving and supporting our body is our natural state. If you aren’t there, and many aren’t, your work is to figure out why, and fix it. Changing the physical world requires changing our relationship to it, starting with our host body.

We all know that as each person awakens, it affects the collective. This is totally true, but grounding it in the physical plane requires a physical connection. What if your self-talk is heard, stored, and repeated in your cells? What if the patterns you create spiral out into the multiverse? What if you can change the shape of your fractal at anytime, by redefining your relationship to your body? As with any change it takes time and practice to become permanent. It’s worth it.

Your relationship with your own body can show you, with great clarity, where you are on the spiritual path. When we change the game from “amusement park” to complete support, we change everything. The whole world goes from selfish to selfless, in a heartbeat. Greed and hierarchy have no place in a world of loving cooperation. The Masculine (mind), and the Feminine (body) come into perfect unison, as they were meant to be. This is where we’ll effect the macro of our planet. This is how we change fractal reality.


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* Personality Continuum *

We can no longer look at the world through the lens of polarity. No more black and white, only shades of grey. Are you ready to release the absolutes? Are you ready to explore the immense in-between possibilities? The world becomes much larger when there is endless possibility, rather than two basic options. Navigating this is what I want to explore.

Some will try to use this concept as a justification to support their hedonism. “If nothing is really “bad”, then anything I do is “good”, right?” I’m coming at it from the other end. We always have access to a better version of ourselves. Nature wants to grow, expand, and evolve. If you don’t, it is your responsibility to figure out why, and address the issue. Absolute personal accountability. Be where you are, without judgement, but keep moving.

It used to be easier to think of human potential as layers: body, ego, Spirit. At this point in time, people are waking up rapidly, and the ego can fluctuate wildly. Gone are the days of spending an entire lifetime with one, basic, unchanging personality. It is now easier (for me, at least) to think of the human experience as a continuum. Instead of a light side and a dark side, we have access to all the options between. Our personality continuum can be visualized as a rainbow – we can vibrate at either end of the spectrum, or anywhere in between.

The key is figuring out where you spend the majority of your time, and how quickly you bounce back after you fall to lower vibrations. We all fall. Want proof? Just stub your toe on the way to the bathroom at 2 in the morning… That’ll throw you right into anger and blame, I don’t care who you are. The question is, how long do you let yourself stay there? Everyone falls, but some bounce right back up. Returning to your current set-point is natural. And it helps you discover what your set-point is.

Where do you spend most of your time? Angry? Happy? Checked out? Afraid? We each have access to the full range. It’s a matter of focus, and practice, to keep us moving in the direction we want to go. This is about mental mastery. You drive your whole reality with the stories you dwell on. Choose the ones that support who you want to become.

Now we are going to flip this around, to choose our inner circle of friends. This has nothing to do with judgement, only discernment. The difference is this: judgement says things are wrong, where discernment says things are wrong for me. I have friends who are addicts, and others at various levels of narcissism. I can love them where they’re at on their path, while still knowing I need to keep a certain amount of distance for me to walk my own path. Boundaries are essential. You will have a greater capacity for love, if you take steps to keep your field clear. Spend time around people you want to become.

When looking at others, evaluate their actions. It doesn’t matter that you can see the sparkly light of their soul. It doesn’t matter that they speak of how they would be if some circumstance were different. The ego personality (vibration level set-point) is shown in the actions. The level of personal awareness is shown by their daily activities. People are right where they’re willing to be, and no one can change them. Change is entirely internal. Trying to change others isn’t loving. It leaves one feeling judged, while the other feels frustrated. Knowing when to leave is an art.

Also remember, we can only know others as deeply as we know ourselves. We can only love others as deeply as we love ourselves. We can only see others as deeply as we see ourselves. Know yourself, so you can know others. Remember to reverse this also. Others can only know, love, see you as deeply as they can with themselves. Don’t be taken off guard when someone doesn’t give you the love they can’t give themselves. Just because you really see deeply, doesn’t mean the people around you have done the inner work to reciprocate. They are doing their best from where they are, but don’t assume they are operating at your level.

Looking at this continuum gives us another way to see ourselves, and others. We can challenge ourselves to reach new heights, at a gradual pace, without judgement of right and wrong. We can honestly evaluate our circle of friends. We can walk in the world with more awareness, which is the point of the game. It’s okay to change and grow, at any speed. It’s okay to leave people where they are on their path, to grow at their own pace. The more people who are consciously evolving, the smoother the path becomes for others to follow. The biggest service you can offer to the world is your own growth. Explore your own personality continuum.


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* Finding the Inner Door *

Once upon a time, a long time ago, humanity fell from unity to polarity and separation. This greatly limited our ability to hold our natural dual energy, and it had to be divided by gender. Women held the feminine energy, while men held the masculine energy. There is much discussion as to why this happened. I am less concerned with the past, and more interested with the present reunification taking place. Now, each of us is capable, and responsible, of holding both polarities, regardless of gender.

Way back when we fell into polarity, women held the space for the physical body, and a nurturing environment. Men held the space for the higher mind, and new action in the world. This worked well at first, but in a world of polarity, a shadow side is inevitable. The greatest feminine shadows are victimization and manipulation. The greatest masculine shadows are abusiveness and immaturity (eternal child). We each hold the scars of all four  shadows in our subconscious.

Eventually, men looked to women for a connection to the physical world, and for nurturing. It devolved into needing a prostitute, or a mother. The value of women was reduced to sexual appeal, or homemaking skills. Women looked to men to make all the decisions, and all the money. It devolved into needing a sugar daddy to give all power to (no one really wants another’s power, it’s heavy). The value of a man was reduced to a paycheck, and carrying all the responsibility.

This is no longer about gender roles, though some still try to play these out. At this point in time, it’s about addressing the shadows of both polarities within. Are you viewing your own body as weak, or only worth something if it looks a certain way, or gives you pleasure? Do you use your mind only to get ahead, and your self-worth is dependent on monetary gain? Is your own mind (free will) abusive to your own body, or are they true partners? The world is out of kilter, and we change it by addressing our own imbalances.

A friend of mine was expressing concern about men finding their hearts. I explained that most of my work is with men. We decided that men and women just find their hearts in different ways. Naturally, this got me thinking about those differences, and how to describe them in the simplest way (because that’s what my brain does in its spare time).

Once upon a time, this could be divided into gender. Not anymore. For almost 200 years we have been unifying our dual energies, and now every one of us holds both masculine and feminine. Now, we fast forward to the present day, where this polarity is becoming inner unity. For this discussion, when I say “men”, I mean masculine energy, electric, outward, yang. When I say “women”, I mean feminine energy, magnetic, inward, yin. This isn’t about gender (anymore). I know many women with excessive masculine energy, and many men with excessive feminine energy. Only you know which energy is stronger for you. Please remember this has absolutely nothing to do with gender or sexual expression, at this point in time. Think in terms of energy.

After all that context, on to finding the inner door… We find it through balancing the two polarities within, so it’s about knowing where you are currently, and finding a path to strengthen the opposite pole.

From the feminine – This side is highly familiar with the body, physical nature, and using physical sensations as guidance. From here, the path to balance is using the mind to rewrite and consciously create new stories. Instead of feeling something in the body (emotion or intuition) and automatically attaching an old story (“I must feel this way because…”), try letting the body give information without jumping to conclusions about what it means. In other words, add in a pause for analytical thought. Still fully feel, but think about the story you keep replaying. You are in complete control of your stories. The stories you had probably served a purpose at one point, but they may be outdated. It’s okay to think about what you feel.

From the masculine – This side is highly familiar with the mind, taking action, and strategy. From here, the path to balance is through body awareness. Use yoga, tai chi, or conscious breathing to begin a dialog with your body. Something gentle (not working out), where you begin to sense your body’s input. Really pay attention to the sensations of the body when you are in emotional situations. Allow yourself to physically feel where these sensations are in the body (tingling head, tight chest, etc.). Physically feeling emotions can be disorienting at first, and your reaction may be to jump back to mental evaluation. Just remember these sensations have always been there, it is only your awareness of them that’s new. It’s good to know what your body feels, that’s how we get most of our intuition.

Most of us have moments at each pole, and the path back is always balance. We all have both the strengths, and the shadows, of each. Awareness is what matters. As both energies find balance within, it opens the door for inner Divine Union (body & Higher Self), which is the whole point of this game. While the feminine woke up first, I think the masculine will wake up faster. The heart can be found through either the emotions or the mind, you just have to bring in some balance. Race you to the inner door…


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* Pro Tips *

I know there’s a lot going on out there, and there isn’t a ton of practical guidance. At some point, most of your guidance comes from within. That said, we all still need a little support sometimes, so I want to share some of my own tools that help me find clarity. They all still rely on awareness, so these tips are for folks who have developed the skill of observation, both of self and others. Hopefully, these tips will smooth your unique journey.

Listen to your intuition – Seems simple, but how do you know if it’s intuition or ego? It helps to figure out what part of your head got the message, and what it sounded or looked like. Exercise: Pick a single-syllable, non-emotional word, like book or chair. Close your eyes, and say this word silently. Notice the sound (or color, or sensation). Now say the word only in the front of your head. Then only in the back. Then one side at a time. Notice how it changes in tone, or visual, or whatever. Practice this everyday. When a story pops in that you know for sure is your ego, what area does it come from? This one takes practice, but it’s a useful tool.

Follow your gut feeling – The problem here is your feelings may be drastically different before, during, and after an encounter. Be really aware of your feelings at each stage. If you feel great, almost special, when you are with someone, then horrible afterward (like coming off a drug), then something is terribly wrong. If you feel horrible when they go, yet still long for their return, please consider there may be some serious codependency, or an entity, at work. Maybe both; they aren’t mutually exclusive. People and situations that are truly good for you leave a blissful, or at least happy, feeling in their wake. Really pay attention to how you feel after an encounter.

Just open your heart – It’s not a light switch; hearts open when they are ready. You can, however, make a supportive environment for your open heart. You can also create the chemical cocktail of emotion to encourage openness. Creating the environment includes practicing gratitude daily, breathing consciously, and being present. The emotional chemicals can be stirred by thinking of things that bring you joy, or even watching joyful videos. Why do you think so many people watch video clips of cats, dogs, or baby animals? It creates chemicals that relax us, and open us to love. Do, think, or watch whatever opens you, and feel how the body feels in that state. As you practice this, it creates a path to your heart, and leaves an invitation.

Heed advice from trusted friends – I am a total ask-hole (the asshole who asks for advice, then doesn’t take it). For this one, you have to be really aware of where your friends are operating from. I have friends who are very mental, and friends who are very intuitive, and several other options in between. I listen to each (I really do listen), then I decide which style of thinking suits my current situation. I then compare their solution to my own intuition, and make a choice. I’m not ignoring your input, it just might not be in line with my goals for the situation. Listen to those that care about you, but only you know what’s best for your path.

Listen to your body – There’s a good deal of trial and error here. Two big things: actively build a positive dialog with your body, and respond when you get a message. Be sure you speak to your body the same way you want to be spoken to. When someone tells me, “You suck, and you look like crap! Do better, and suck it up, Buttercup!” they just won’t get my full effort. On the other hand, if they say, “Are you okay? You have my full support to heal. Let me know what you need.” then I will be all in. Your thoughts and words matter more than I can say. And once your body asks for something, just do it, even if it’s not part of your routine. More sleep? More water? A steak? A handful of grapes? Respond to its requests, and thank it every chance you get.

View your life from the observer mind – The thing here is we can only observe briefly. There are several levels of ego mind, so use the observer to choose an ego level. For example, I love to reframe everything to “this is happening for me”, and that’s just refining the ego. The observer mind only observes. If there is any hint of self-judgement, right and wrong, then you are still in the ego. The observer mind watches without preference. It’s a great place to go to choose the ego response you want, but you still have to choose an ego response. Do I throw a fit, or do I laugh at myself? Is this situation happening to me, or for me? Do I get wrapped up in the past/future, or do I focus on the current moment? The ego is essential, but moldable. The observer mind gives you the pause to make a choice.

Doing these things on a regular basis raises our awareness, allowing us to make choices that support our best timeline experience. If you have other tips and tricks, please share them in the comments section. We are all on this crazy ride together, so let’s help each other any way we can!


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Clearing Cobwebs

So much clearing! So much integration! So much going on! From an energetic standpoint, it’s amazing out there. From a physical standpoint, it’s exhausting. Emotionally, it seems to be quite a roller coaster. The trick is to clear as much as you can, as quickly as possible, so you can return to the amazing energetics. The nice part is old stuff is ready to move, you just have to release it.

I’ve written endlessly about not holding on to old stories, and this is more of the same, except faster. In my life, I was faced with a trigger of people “not showing up” (flakey people). I followed that trigger, through many layers, to my birth. There were complications and my Mom’s life was at risk, so when I popped out, instead of “welcome to the family!” I got whisked away to an incubator for 24 hours, while they worked on Mom. This became a running theme in my life… everything works out, but if it’s important, I’m on my own.

You don’t need to know the origin event, but the themes in your life are up for examination. At this point, just bringing them to full awareness, and deciding to discard them, is enough. I decided that I have learned I am fully capable of succeeding on my own, and I no longer have to do it that way. That was a great story, and now I am ready to have a story of mutual support. It’s that simple, but you must own the original story, sit with it and fully feel it, then release it with love.

Why is feeling it so important? Cellular memory. Fully experiencing an emotion is a physical process. It acts like a key, opening the cells to release what was stored. If it isn’t released, it just keeps repeating. So yes, this can get emotionally messy. The other option is to keep it bottled up, and just keep finding the same nouns (persons, places, things). Your choice. Neither way is “wrong”. Rip the bandage off and move on, or just let it fester uncomfortably. I personally find more distress in long-term low-level suffering than just a really bad day (or month, or year). Each to their own.

On a physical level, it’s this same thing. Strange symptoms of past illness or injury are showing up to be released. For example, last night I started coughing. I’m not sick, nor do I have allergies, but in the middle of the night I had this rattling cough. I could feel the remnants of childhood pneumonia breaking loose. I’m totally fine today. The point is, let things move. You know when you actually need a doctor. If it’s quick, just thank your body for clearing it out.

How can you ease this process? Energetic hygiene seems to be the ticket. I recommend breathing through the chakras. Take at least three deep breaths per chakra, with the intention of clearing. Keep the energy in your body moving… visualization, hot baths, walks, etc. Just really support “out with the old, in with the new”.

The flow is happening, we are just removing personal blocks. On that note, anyone choosing to stay stuck will really start to feel the pressure of the incoming energies. It isn’t personal in any way, it’s just evolution. We are designed to be a free-flowing conduit. Stories of the ego try to build a container. Containers can overflow or burst. This is why it is recommended that we remove old stories, as soon as we see them. Remember, changing the noun (person, place, or thing) doesn’t change the story. Changing the story is an internal process. Mental mastery. Awareness is everything.

And once again, please be kind to your body. This physical ascension process is extremely taxing. Your body is doing an amazing job with all this detox. Be kind to your liver. Please eat organic whole foods, and avoid processed sugar. Drugs, alcohol, and fast food (think chemical shit storm) are completely out. Be a good guest to the body hosting your consciousness. Your body is your feminine expression, while your mind is your masculine. It is personal misogyny to make choices that hurt the body. Stop beating yourself up.

Also, be kind to yourself emotionally and mentally. Once you know better, do better, but forgive yourself for prior missteps. We are all learning, we are all growing. As long as you keep personally evolving, you’re right on track. Be kind to yourself. Your invisible team is always supporting you, and they are so proud and excited! We got this! Keep clearing the cobwebs…


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Peripheral Epiphanies

You know how sometimes you glimpse something at the edge of your vision, but when you look right at it, it’s gone? It’s just like that, only with personal psychology (shadows). Things keep coming up that seem familiar, but somehow less invasive. These patterns are being gently brought to our attention so we can consciously choose whether or not to continue with them. They aren’t as triggering as they once were, so now we can see them from a distance, and pick a path. A beautiful combination of awareness and clarity.

Another nice thing happening right now is all the mirror help from others. Even more than usual, if I miss the subtle signs, I’m surrounded by people and situations that make it impossible to miss. The trick here is to always return to your own psychology. No blaming. It really is all about your own inner work, and what you are either attracting, or tolerating, around you.

For example, I’m not triggered by misogyny. I know it’s out there, occasionally I meet someone with those views, but they never linger. I am, however, triggered by flakiness. When I am suddenly surrounded by people who don’t follow through on their word, I am forced to look at what is going on inside me. My list includes: Being impeccable with my own word, my respect for other’s time, abandonment issues (by not knowing if I can count on others), control issues, and not trusting in life’s timing. I’m sure there’s more, but you get the point. Then I need to look at what I’m doing, as well as what I’m tolerating. Your boundaries are always as important as your behavior.

Side note – I attended a talk by Sandra Walter in May, and of all the amazing information presented, this part sticks with me: “An oversoul consists of about 350,000 human lives, so generally I’m just talking to a room full of me.” I love that. Lee Harris says we pay others to be outer demonstrations of ourself. I love that, too. Nothing is happening to you, it’s all happening for you. All of it. Blaming only takes away your own power to change.

Along with these amazing epiphanies comes a clarity of where these paths lead. Do I want a reality based on the mental plane? Once I reach the core issue, do I release it, or keep it? There is no right or wrong, this is just a push to make a conscious choice. This is just the subconscious bubbling up to the light. You must look at it directly, but then you get to choose if it’s worth keeping. No one is judging you. Just be fully aware of what you’re choosing.

Denial, delusion, and avoidance will be pretty rough now now. If you are one of those people with a selective memory, or a penchant for people-pleasing then this might get pretty rough. The object of the game is to reveal our own hidden psychology, and the signs will continue to get bigger until they are acknowledged. This is not the time to pretend it will just blow over. Don’t be afraid of your own dark, it just wants to be brought to light.

After you identify the core issue, imagine what life feels like if you release it, and also what it feels like to keep it. One of those options will feel better in your body. For me, one way always relaxes and opens my body. Don’t think about the process of change, that’s never pleasant. Just think about the other side of the change. That lets me know if the change is worth it. You may also want to review the last post, What’s Driving You?

Remember that we are all connected, and we are returning to Unity Consciousness. The people around you are just fragments of yourself, asking to be healed. You can’t “inflict a healing” on others, but you can heal yourself, thus affecting the whole group. That really angry driver that just honked at you, might be begging for you to address your own anger, or to walk away from abuse. We heal each other when we heal ourselves.

Pay attention. These peripheral epiphanies are paving the way to our new selves.


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What’s Driving You?

After an intense week of merging fragmented timelines, you may be feeling the exhaustion and disorientation. It’s totally normal. Rest and relax, and really contemplate your recent experiences. Dig deep, and take an honest look at what has come up for you. Now is the time to move consciously. Meaning, no more reactionary ego-based decisions, only actual choices, utilizing free will and awareness.

As many teachings tell us, there are really only two motivators – love and fear. In other words, spirit and ego. The many options of timelines have basically been reduced to these two. Are you driven by love, or by fear? Only you know, so it’s important that you are honest with yourself on this one. Many times, the same action can be driven by either, and it’s the driving force that matters here. That driving force is where your vibrational set point is, and will attract situations to reflect it.

Are you exercising because your body wants to move, or because you’re afraid to be overweight? Are you eating differently to support your health, or because you need to go with the crowd? Are you with your partner because you are both supportive and growing, or are you afraid to be alone? Are you doing charity work to build a better society, or are you afraid of going to hell? Look at every part of your life, and find the true motivator.

I’m a big fan of “fake it until you make it”, and there is absolutely nothing wrong with using that as a stepping stone. Be where you are, without self-judgement. All I’m asking is enough introspection to find out where you really are. It’s never fun to think you are doing all the “right” things, and everything still seems to be getting harder. Fear-based realities will continue to struggle.

Running away from something is completely different than running toward something. Knowing what you “don’t want” or what you “should do” is truly valuable information. It’s an absolutely essential step in finding your personal power. And eventually, you shift to what you do want, and what you love to do. That’s what we’re shooting for. If fear wasn’t part of the equation, how would your life look? Location? Job? Partner? What really sparks your heart?

I’m not asking you to run out and make all these changes today, but I do have a fun homework assignment. Everyday, for at least two weeks, spend 5-10 minutes imagining your perfect life. Don’t think about any practical restrictions, and really feel this space. This brings you into the heart vibration we’re looking for. If what you imagine isn’t even in this reality, I don’t care. Just settle into your body, and daydream perfection. Feel it. 

After you are comfortable with this exercise, notice who and what is different from your real life. Another way to do this, would be to introduce people or situations into your daydream, and see how the feeling changes. Only do this step when you are really comfortable with the feeling of “perfection”. This will help you use your body signals to discern your best path forward. We are trained to ignore our intuition. This exercise helps to remind you of your inner signals.

Look at everything in your life with brutal honesty. Contemplate your motivations. Then feel into the body, for the support of your intuition. Use both faculties, in equal measure. This your own inner balance of masculine and feminine energies. The answers lie within. Only you know what drives you.


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That Strange Pull

There are so many different levels of ascension going on right now, it’s hard to find a common theme. Some are in the messy work of transmuting karma at an accelerated rate, others are starting to understand and develop intuition, while a few are sprinting towards the next step of human evolution. The only common theme is that strange pull towards your own next step. We are all feeling it. It’s an almost magnetic force, drawing us into the future.

All I can recommend is to follow it. Follow the strange pull of your soul.

If you are being pulled by karma, then it will become quite apparent very quickly. This isn’t bad, it’s just showing you what needs healed for you to keep evolving. Look at the mess straight on, eyes open, and get whatever help you need to stop repeating old patterns. It’s just a wake-up call. Warning: the situation will get worse until you face it. This encourages awareness, and brings personal responsibility and power. It is a needed step. We all go through it at some point. Freedom requires awareness.

This karmic stage is marked by victim mentality, fear, anger and blame. Everything wrong in the world seems to be due to outer situations or people. “I would be happy, if only X were different.” The point of this step is to awaken you to the fact that it all lies within. Everything outside you is merely a reflection of what’s inside you. The ONLY thing you can change is yourself, then the outer world reflects that change.  It brings the power, and responsibility, back where it belongs… in you.

If you are being pulled by intuition, then it will be more of a refinement of your skill set. This stage is about learning to discern intuition from ego. If you think you are following your intuition, but things end poorly, then it wasn’t your intuition. This is about learning which signals are from your body and soul, and which signals are from ego stories and addiction. It’s a lot of trial and error at first, but the feedback is almost instant. Be gentle with yourself. You are learning discernment.

You start to really understand the correlation between your inner world, and the outer. You see how judging yourself attracts judgmental people. It’s like your inner voice is quite obviously demonstrated in your outer world. Not the world stage, but your own circle of people. It’s easier if you take this step lightly, and just make a fun game of changing the inner to see what shifts in the outer. This step is moving from personal power to co-creation with the Universe.

If you are being pulled toward the next step, it’s your soul family pulling you in. I got the guidance six months ago I would be moving. All of a sudden, in the course of a month, I know the town, started packing, and have plenty of support to make it happen. When I meditate, I feel my soul family around me, most of whom I haven’t met yet (in this life). Inter-dimensional connection is heightened. Telepathy is heightened. It’s getting weird, even for me. That’s saying something.

This is an exercise in mastery level awareness. It’s still a learning curve, believe me. It takes a lot to be aware of your every passing thought, knowing it might be overheard by the telepathically sensitive. It requires a whole new level of self-love, to produce a loving aura. At the same time, there’s no other choice, because the pull to evolve is so strong.

If you are being pulled to the couch for a nap, consider it sacred rest. This is a physical ascension process, and your primary job is to support the body. There are times when I feel a sudden wave of exhaustion, and I think, “But I still have a list of stuff I want to get done!” And in reply I hear, “Or you could do your primary job.” Embodiment is the whole point. Integration is the whole point. That’s what we are really doing here, not the “life stuff” we put so much emphasis on.

Sidenote – Just as crystals are programmable, crystalline DNA is programmable. Be careful what you think and say to your body. It’s listening, in a whole new way.

And these aren’t clear-cut stages. You don’t graduate to never again dealing with karma, but it does take less energy and time. These are just waves – where the bulk of your time and focus are. They are fluid, and we are all at different points. Be where you are, without judgement, and keep moving forward.

So, here are my coping skills:
Mantra – Everything happens for me. This event was perfectly orchestrated to show me something important.
Observer Mind – Step outside my own drama to observe what I’m being shown.
Body Love – I speak lovingly to my body whenever I can – at least before bed.

Follow that strange pull of the soul. Evolution calls.


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