Walking In Both Worlds

As we move into the next phase of our evolution, awareness can be harsh. Like a glaring spotlight shining into a dark room. Our first thought may be, “How did I miss this one?” All of a sudden, things become obvious, and it leaves room for being hard on oneself. Please don’t beat yourself up. No need for that.

Awareness only dawns when we are ready for it. When we have built enough skills, and are surrounded by the right people (which may be no one). You didn’t know what you didn’t know, so you can’t hold your old self accountable for past unconscious actions.“Do the best you can until you know better. Then when you know better, do better.” ~Maya Angelou

Be gentle with yourself, and let the awareness seep in slowly. You won’t be able to return to your past levels of unconscious behavior once the light hits your eyes, so don’t worry about that, either. Just sit with the new level of awareness, this new knowledge, and let your very cells absorb it. Never underestimate awareness. It changes you, on every level, completely organically.

We are so conditioned to “do”, rather than “be”. When we get a new understanding, first we berate ourselves for not seeing it sooner, then we storm off to make changes in our habit patterns… new diet, new study, new something to do. I am suggesting you give it some time to sink in first. Yes, habits will change, but instead of making change, just allow change. It will be faster and easier that way. Give it two weeks. If you aren’t seeing anything happen in two weeks, then go for it… take action. Until then, let evolution occur naturally.

Just reading a few word can trigger deep remembering. Let it. A conversation can present a whole new outlook. Let it. Epiphanies can fall out of the sky. Let them. Allow yourself to receive new information, and allow it to change you. “Intelligence is the ability to adapt to change.” ~ Stephen Hawking 

Yes, this is another step in dissolving the ego stories. We used to think our circumstances were a given, but as it turns out, they were just stories. Stories can change. Remember that. Being stubbornly fixed will no longer serve you. It’s time to expand our ideas of normal, in every aspect of our lives. Try to live, as much as you can, in awe of the possibilities. Instead of “why didn’t it work out like I planned?” use “this will be better than I had planned.” Your Higher Self has way better plans than your human mind could imagine.

So, for now, just let the awareness seep in. Let it move inside your body, and make organic changes. As always, the awareness may be of a psychological nature, but it is also stored physically. Detox is just part of the process. Drink lots of water, as you allow yourself to change. Be gentle in your awareness.

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First, I want to tell you a story about how the Universe is always conspiring in your favor, even when it seems otherwise.

Last week, I was bringing in wood for the fire, when a poorly stacked piece jumped off the pile, and landed directly on my foot. I could feel the injury growing, so I screamed to dissipate the energy (yes, it really works). Even after that, I had the nauseating feeling of a broken bone. This wasn’t good.

I already struggle with walking due to a neurological issue, and a broken foot would seriously complicate my life. I quickly went through blame and anger, then onto options for living with a break. It didn’t take long to reach the only reasonable solution: healing is the only option.

This all happened quickly, maybe 20 minutes. I got my ice pack, hobbled to the couch, and took off my slipper to reveal the already black, blue, and spreading bruise. I applied the cold, and spent the next 30 minutes mentally repeating with every single breath ‘healing is the only option‘. When I was done, the pain had stopped, the bruise was smaller, and I could wiggle all my toes.

Then the epiphany hit… this was the answer, not just for my foot, but my whole life. And not just for me, but for each individual, as well as the collective. Healing is the only option.

Then the symbology started… we spend so much time and energy “trying” to manifest something, that we’ve missed the simplicity. We think manifesting takes great effort and emotion, and usually ends up looking like a toddler having a tantrum (I want!). In reality, it’s more like driving a car. You have to be aware of where you want to go, and make the appropriate turns to get there, but it isn’t an emotional effort. You don’t plead, or demand the can turn left – you just turn. Same thing. Healing is the only option.

When life happens, and you get a flat tire or run out of gas, it may be inconvenient, but you address the issue and keep driving. Both driving and living require awareness to get you to your destination. When you notice your awareness slipping, just get your focus back on track.

For yogis, the goal is to be aware of every breath. My goal is to be aware of every thought. I’m sure those two are linked… complete awareness. It’s good to have a goal. Something to strive for.

So for yourself, and the collective, always return your wandering mind to one thought: healing is the only option. Love heals all, so really, love is the only option. Find a personal mantra that resonates with you, and we will all benefit.

See? The Universe is always leaving a trail of bread crumbs, even when it looks like misfortune. With everything that happens, know it’s happening for you, not to you. Let’s do this… together. Healing is the only option.

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This energy just isn’t messing around. So strong! I’m going to just mention a few tips, and include some links that may be helpful.

Consume lightly – Not just food, but also entertainment and interactions. Put off anything heavy or dramatic until next week.

Stay grounded & rested – Spend time outside & take a nap. This is a time of integration, not pushing the boundaries.

Let go of the past – New timelines are starting up, and the past will be popping in to see if you really want something different. It’s just checking, and it’s ok to be different now. Let yourself evolve.

The ego likes to stay in known territory, even when you would rather let go of old patterns. Let go anyway. This mass awakening will bring many insights and possibilities. Take a chance. Remember to stay in your power. You have more than you think. Always seek balance within. It’s a moving target, so keep moving. And above all, keep questioning your beliefs. Know Thyself.

Be kind to yourself, others, and mostly your body. This is a physical ascension process, and it isn’t an easy thing for any of us. Exciting, but not easy. Please feel free to look over some of my pages on this site. Not the archived posts (more time sensitive), but the pages at the top. The pages have more broad subject matter. It’s free, and my hope is that it will inspire (or at least ease) your journey. We’re all in this together. Here we go!

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Integrity happens when your thoughts, words and deeds are in agreement. When we take this one step further, we get alignment. The catch is you can be aligned with your ego or your soul. This is the heaven and hell polarity split. Many people are pretty good about their integrity, meaning their thoughts, words, and actions agree, but the question becomes: Who are they agreeing with?

The ego is an illusory fraction of ourselves, and illusions are fading fast. Quite rightly, the ego is afraid of its own destruction. Fears are running really high at the moment, as the ego constructs are falling. The ego simply isn’t being supported anymore. That game has run its course. Letting it go will be much less painful than hanging on. Really.

How do you identify the ego? It’s the one that acts from fear. My ego prefers anger to fear, but it’s a derivative. There are really only two basic platforms to operate from: fear or love. Every emotion we have can be traced back to one of those two states. Fear always contracts, and love always expands. When you think of something, feel how your body reacts… think of a loved one, and feel the relaxing and expanding sensation. Then think of politics, and feel the physical contraction. Hierarchy is an ego power construct, and will always cause discomfort, on some level.

Ego death is never a fun process, and grieving is appropriate. Sometimes it is a series of small deaths (of beliefs), sometimes it’s all at once. You just don’t know you’re living in a house of cards until they fall. Just know it is part of the journey, and many have gone before you, and lived to tell the tale. That said, it is indeed a necessary process for human evolution. Plus, it really is pretty amazing on the other side of it.

The soul is always love-based and expansive. The goal isn’t to ignore the ego, but to integrate it, as you align with your soul. Yes, you need to vote, and be as involved with politics as you are called to be, but keep checking to be sure you’re aligned within. If you can’t just do your civic duty and recenter yourself, it may be time to meditate or take a walk. Everyone gets caught up in the world from time to time. That’s totally normal. Just don’t live there. Always take time to align with your eternal self.

Why? Because your Higher Self is descending into your body. If you are full to the top with ego, there is going to be a mess when that ego gets displaced. If you are consciously (and constantly) making room, your Higher Self can fit into your life more easily. I wouldn’t say it’s “easy” for any of us, but it will be decidedly more difficult for the ego-bound. It’s happening either way… evolution happens to us all. Just know you can make it easier on yourself by aligning on a soul level.

Let your thoughts change. Let your beliefs soften. For goodness sake, turn off the TV news. Look within. Spend more time with wonder than judgment. Be in the world, not of it. Still function here, but always return your gaze inward. The outer illusion is crumbling, while the inner reality is blooming. Align with the future. Align with your own soul.

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I wrote this piece for my next book, but it keeps ringing in my head. Apparently, it wants to be shared now. Please note that ALL the chakras are equal, and need to be open for proper health and functioning. This is just my observation of the extreme emphasis some put on the sacral (2nd).

When we think about creativity, we automatically envision painting or singing or dancing or some other form of art. The word “creation” might smack with Divinity, or some origin story. In the spiritual community, creativity is generally associated with the sacral (2nd) chakra, along with sex, and some muddy darkness that can’t quite be defined. I want to take you on a journey of possibility, to reconsider these ideas. As usual, take what’s helpful, and leave the rest.

Unconscious creation is how nature exists. Growing a baby doesn’t take conscious thought, it just happens. Plants grow. Animals procreate. Nature happens. What if the second chakra is just about creation of physical life? That energy would control the hormones and genetic expression, with the primary goal of keeping the cycle of life going. It is a vital function not to be understated, but it is a subconscious physical process. Karma and childhood conditioning are stored as cellular information, therefore also part of the subconscious.

The art we associate with “creativity” is always a conscious expression, because it requires a conscious decision to share it. I’m not saying all art is high vibration, just that it doesn’t enter the world without our applied will. People make art from both Light (Higher Mind) and Dark (ego) inspirations, but it requires conscious effort either way. This is a throat (5th) chakra function. The energy of creation may flow through the 2nd, but human creativity flows through the 5th.

Physical creation is essential, both for new life, and for healing. It requires our support only in giving it an environment to flourish, not it any direction of how to complete a process. The body has its own wisdom. In fact, the subconscious system runs best if we don’t try to consciously dictate and control its workings. Shadow (ego) work brings subconscious beliefs into the light of consciousness to be reevaluated, and that bit is necessary for spiritual evolution, but the body is fully capable of healing itself, given the opportunity.

So if the physical has its very own system of creation, that frees the conscious mind to explore creativity. Every word you speak, every step you dance, every piece of music you sing or play, every kind of art, even every interaction, flows through your 5th chakra of expression. Being fully aware of this fact lets your creative energy flow freely out to the world. Creativity isn’t limited to art; your very energy changes the world around you.

Think about this a bit… What if we really are creators in training? This doesn’t have anything to do with the 2nd chakra (or sex), because nature has that one covered. What if people are looking to creation (2nd chakra) for their connection to creativity (5th chakra)? What if fulfillment is only found in our own expression of creativity? What if the only part of our very life force we are responsible for is our unique expression? Humans are unique to nature because we aren’t just animals; we also have access to the Higher Mind. Combining those two results in the ego, which takes some management, but our focus needs to be on integrating the Higher Mind, not playing as the animal.

Another thing this brings up for me is how strange people’s energy becomes when their lifestyle centers on sex. This would include sex addiction, promiscuity, pornography, and various sex-based systems. Is the constant emphasis on the 2nd chakra also empowering the subconscious ego? Is the obsession with the 2nd chakra an attempt to touch the power of creation (nature)? Is it to avoid their own power of conscious creativity? I imagine it’s different for everyone. Please don’t misunderstand, sex is perfectly normal, and an open 2nd chakra is essential to health, but all of that can be done within reasonable boundaries, and without special emphasis. Some folks are just spending a whole lot of time there, and I’m exploring the possible reasons.

It seems to me, the happiest people are those who are creating something. We all need to spend more time creating. I don’t mean do it for a living; I mean do it for a life. Be it a painting or a community garden, when people let creative energy flow through them into the world, everyone wins. Divinity flows through us as creativity. Creativity is a 5th charka thing. Our throat chakra gives us our conscious expression, which is how creators learn how to create.

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Not only is it that time of year (in the Northern Hemisphere), but ego patterns are falling like the leaves. Ego death is a real thing. Doing it in layers is much softer than all at once, but it is still a loss of a fundamental piece of who you thought you were.

It’s okay to mourn this loss, each time it occurs. The grieving process is much smoother once you admit you’re in it. A loss of part of your personality can hit just as hard as the loss of any relationship. Death of the ego is still a death. Grieve all you need to, then go about rebuilding.

The thing with loss is that we don’t like change. Heading into the unknown is even worse. Even if it isn’t scary, it’s a lot of work. You actually have to think about choices, not just run on autopilot. You actually have to decide who you want to be, not just rely on “this is just who I am” programming. It’s a big deal, I know. Just know you aren’t alone… many are going through this, and those who have already been there are showing up to guide.

Sidenote on guides… no one can do this for you. People who guide just offer a reference point, and some suggestions to assist your process. The work is all yours. I am all for groups and paths and guides, but just be aware no one can “fix” you, because you aren’t broken. You are evolving.

After you get through the haze of loss, you will need to spend some time figuring out who you want to be, then acting that way. Who do you admire? Who do you avoid? You will be with you for the rest of your life, so be the person you want to be around. Don’t like the grumpy Aunt at the holiday dinner? Observe and remove those actions and words from your personality. Love the happy shoe shine guy? Find the parts of his personality you can add to your own. Now is the time for these changes. You have a clean slate.

The personality is always less fixed than we usually understand, but when huge pieces die off, we don’t have to work so hard at releasing old patterns. I know the immediate response to these changes is, “Quick, get the old show running again! I want something familiar!” That just isn’t even an option anymore. You can reduce your own suffering by knowing that the old is just gone, grieving its loss, and moving toward the new.

Once you get to accepting that evolution only moves forward, then you can enjoy the creation bit. You actually get to choose personality traits! That’s so amazing! You get to decide who to be, and be that with every action, word, and thought. It amazes me how many people dislike their parents, and then act just like them. This is a perfectly normal unconscious behavior, but now we get conscious choice in some pretty fundamental areas.

Along with humans guides, remember your etheric team is also with you. Your Higher Self is excited to have the ego move aside a bit to allow it to more fully come into body. Light body activation is going great. The Higher Realms are really excited, as are the Elemental Kingdoms. You are loved, supported, and appreciated. You’re doing great!

And always remember to be gentle with yourself, and others. Even though it’s going really well, ascension isn’t an easy path. Reach out and get the support you need. Accept support, and give support. We all in this together. You’re never alone, even as you embrace death.

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Dissonance: lack of agreement, the dissonance between the truth and what people want to believe, especially inconsistency between the beliefs one holds or between one’s actions and one’s beliefs 

The theme for 2019 is The Gathering, where soul families come together. The only problem is how many people are still living from the ego instead of the soul. The parts of the soul family that have really been doing their inner work for the last several years almost have super-powers right now. Their ability to pull the planet up to the next level is at an all time high, and some will definitely feel dragged along behind the bus.

Please remember no one is actually aiming to drag you to the next level kicking and screaming. Those leading the way have their gaze firmly fixed inward and upward, not at all on outside attachments, including other people. Also remember that your soul desperately wants to grow and evolve, it is only the ego objecting to the change. Any discomfort in your reality right now is caused by the dissonance between your ego and your soul.

If you have been doing the work and life still hurts, this is a time of clearing for proper alignment. This could look like relationships ending, physical disturbances, or financial problems. The very best thing to do is to step back and say, “Maybe this is for me,” instead of “Why is this happening to me?” The Universe is always conspiring in your favor, no matter how it looks on the outside. Stay out of victim mentality, and allow yourself to release what no longer serves you.

As we near this soul family reunion, keep in mind that souls only recognize each other by soul vibration. Ego stories serve as masks to your true light. As you align your ego and your soul, life just gets easier due to lower friction caused by dissonance. If your soul has a very carefree energy, but your chosen beliefs are very dogmatic, then there will be a bigger gulf to span than a dogmatic ego and very serious soul energy. I can easily see some of those with the greatest dissonance having sever health issues right now.

That isn’t to say that all health issues are caused by dissonance. I live very closely to my soul vibration, and I had a pretty dramatic heart event last week. I really thought it was the big one, told my significant other my final wishes, took an aspirin and went to bed. I was actually a bit surprised when I woke up in the morning. Wasn’t planning on it. It must have been a clearing of old cellular debris. The point is, I had the option to panic or release. Follow your inner guidance, as usual.

So, where are you living out of alignment with your soul? Only you know the answer to that, because souls are unique. Check your sense of self-identification. Are you identified as an outer reality? We all identify to outer stuff, but I’m talking about to vs. as. “I am working as a pilot” vs. “I am a pilot.” Completely different orientation to the situation. Be in the world, not of it. This goes for jobs, relationships, physical attributes, hobbies, and pretty much everything in 3D reality.

Live in alignment with your soul. Ego realities are dissolving, and attachment to them will only cause pain. The pain of dissonance.

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Apparently, ‘as above, so below’ applies to more than I gave it credit for. I’m not a fan of the term ‘energy protection’, because it is based in fear and polarity, but ‘energy awareness’ is always a good thing. I used to spend a ton of effort to protect my energy, now it seems there’s a new angle.

A friend of mine brought to my attention that not all of her ascension symptoms were authentic. She knew this because when she would feel an energy wave come in, she would say “I will only receive true ascension energies for my highest good, anything else must leave my field,” and sometimes this stopped the download. I tried it myself last night, and sure enough, many of the ‘symptoms’ cleared. Even the ringing in my ears stopped. I can’t even remember the last time I heard silence.

Some ringing tones resumed, but much quieter and different frequency. I again asked for only true ascension codes, and this time nothing changed. The point being, just like our in current world of information, you need to fact check. Don’t get caught up in the cosmic battle of good and evil, because that’s just an extension of polarity and fear. Just be aware of your own power to deny what isn’t for your highest good, and use that power. Free will is so important.

Think of this as energy awareness and hygiene. I was going to insert a link to my page on energy hygiene, and realized I don’t have one. What? How did I miss that topic? Guess there’s some writing to be done. Anyway, energy hygiene is of major importance. This means some kind of daily flush and fill, along with periodic cord cuttings, and maybe even removal of more ingrained stuff. As needed, seek help with the bigger stuff. Learn to do a flush and fill on your own, and make it part of your daily routine.

Flush & Fill – Some do this in the shower in the morning, others during meditation, others outside. Basically, you ground down into the heart of Gaia, then ground up into the heart of Source (Father Sky, the sun, God), let those two energies meet in your heart and surround you in a bubble, then circulate though your body and field. Ask to release all old energy, and refill with energy from Source and Gaia. Keep this up until the energy flows smoothly and easily. This brings your attention to stuck spots, and keeps everything moving and fresh. The visual I get is one of those circulating pet water bowls, opposed to a dirty, stagnant one.

Keep up on your own energy. Really get to know yourself, so you know when something foreign tries to enter. And even if the foreign thing seems like an ascension code, be ready to fact check… “I will only receive true ascension energies for my highest good, anything else must leave my field.” Always learning. Who would have thought there is energetic fake news?

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2018 just keeps shifting faster and faster, with something totally unexpected at every turn. I’m not saying we’re done, by any means, but the firehose effect is decreasing, finally. Since the equinox about three weeks ago, we’ve experienced some pretty major timeline shifts, and are now starting down our new trajectory. Again.

The reason for the intensity is actually a good one: the more people who actively join in raising consciousness, the faster it happens, thereby awakening others who then add to the momentum, and so on. The level of intensity and change is a good thing, yet still not comfortable on any level. Please take care of your body… it really is doing the most changing, and needs to be supported.

Even if nothing major has changed in your life, it is completely normal to feel disoriented and lost after all that timeline jumping. Things are going to start changing in a practical way in the next year, but right now there is a sense of confusion. That’s fine. Even my body feels confused, because along with timelines moving, there were some abrupt shifts in the electromagnetic field, resulting in vertigo and nausea. Not much fun.

Take a few days to recover. Be kind and gentle to yourself. Take time to adjust to this new trajectory. Keep your focus small… clean out a file drawer, read a book, work in the garden, watch an inspirational documentary. Personally, I’ve been avoiding electronics and reading or watching anything heavy. Not on purpose, just by following my gut feelings. It’s like my body is deciding what it needs without much input from my mind.

The theme for 2019 is The Gathering, when soul tribes unite. (I would love to tell you more, but it hasn’t come in yet.) Getting as many of us as possible on intersecting timelines was part of this last push. It doesn’t mean someone can’t level-up later, nor does it mean your whole group is ready right now, but many of us are in place for new soul family adventures. Keep in mind that soul groups recognize each other from a place of soul vibration, not from ego stories. Finding your tribe does not mean finding a bunch of people who agree with your opinions. In fact, opinion tends to be the gateway drug to the ego. Live from your soul, so the others can find you.

I have had both grief over losing my old life, and excitement at starting the new, all without any outer changes thus far. I know it’s easier said than done, but try to embrace change. There will be much more coming. Be brave as you start over… whatever that looks like.

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As we continue the journey to unity consciousness, with ever increasing speed, it is more noticeable than ever that we are no longer alone and separate. This is both good and bad, and definitely uncomfortable. If you have a tendency to internalize every emotion that drifts into your awareness, now is a great time to stop. Most sensitives (or empaths) have learned how to shield themselves from the emotions of other individuals, but now we are talking about joining the collective. It’s a whole new skill set here.

Joining the collective does not mean losing your individuality. It does, however, mean losing the illusions of the ego. Think of it like this… to be a global citizen, you have to see the value of every other person, regardless of race, religion, or geography, but you are also aware that everyone (including you) has unique gifts to offer. The only thing being lost is feeling superior (based on race, religion, geography), which is just an illusion of the ego. This isn’t a loss of individuality, this is gain of intrinsic value. Individuals supporting the whole, in their own unique way.

I have spent most of the last decade working at the level of collective consciousness, so I’ve at least got some awareness of the process. Still, my skills are constantly growing and shifting, to accommodate the current level of ascension. I say skills, but honestly, it’s more like coping mechanisms. Very little has remained relevant, except this: It’s not yours, so don’t try to fit it into your story. The very worst thing you can do is to make it personal, because we hang on so tightly to our baggage. Let it go.

Yes, you will still feel the waves of whatever the world is experiencing, but if you just feel it and let it go, it passes quickly. For example, earlier this week I was overwhelmed by a feeling of failure, like I was a major disappointment to myself, my friends, and even God. This is definitely not one of my personal scripts, but the feeling engulfed me. All I could do was be present with it – feel it, cry, and let it go. It was only about five minutes before it shifted, and it came through again later that day, for about as long, then it was gone. It moved quickly because I didn’t internalize it, and try to make a story to justify it. Just feel it, and let it go. It isn’t yours.

Conversely, if it is yours to deal with, it will keep coming up. Things are being uncovered on the personal level, as well. This Unity thing is easier on everyone if we each face our own shadows. This also helps you discern what is your and what isn’t. Know Thyself. Awareness is always the way forward.

Time is also extra-bendy as we become one consciousness. For some, things are moving way too fast, for others it’s a waiting game. It’s all a matter of ascending at a speed that will allow maximum inclusion. That start-stop feeling is just the collective merging, and again, it’s not personal. Keep moving in your own life, even if group projects seem to get delayed. Still do what you need to support your own evolution, and your body. If frustration sets in, go for a walk.

Let your coping skills evolve. They are changing quite regularly. At one point, baths were really helpful for me, then they started making my feet swell. At one point, sunlight was very healing for me, then I started needing a nap if I spent more than a few minutes outside. My diet has changed. My supplements have changed. Our bodies are changing, so adjust your practices accordingly. Support your body. Remember to give the same changing support to your mind and emotions. Forget habit – everyday is new.

Support and celebrate your individual self, as we become One.

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