Becoming One

As we continue the journey to unity consciousness, with ever increasing speed, it is more noticeable than ever that we are no longer alone and separate. This is both good and bad, and definitely uncomfortable. If you have a tendency to internalize every emotion that drifts into your awareness, now is a great time to stop. Most sensitives (or empaths) have learned how to shield themselves from the emotions of other individuals, but now we are talking about joining the collective. It’s a whole new skill set here.

Joining the collective does not mean losing your individuality. It does, however, mean losing the illusions of the ego. Think of it like this… to be a global citizen, you have to see the value of every other person, regardless of race, religion, or geography, but you are also aware that everyone (including you) has unique gifts to offer. The only thing being lost is feeling superior (based on race, religion, geography), which is just an illusion of the ego. This isn’t a loss of individuality, this is gain of intrinsic value. Individuals supporting the whole, in their own unique way.

I have spent most of the last decade working at the level of collective consciousness, so I’ve at least got some awareness of the process. Still, my skills are constantly growing and shifting, to accommodate the current level of ascension. I say skills, but honestly, it’s more like coping mechanisms. Very little has remained relevant, except this: It’s not yours, so don’t try to fit it into your story. The very worst thing you can do is to make it personal, because we hang on so tightly to our baggage. Let it go.

Yes, you will still feel the waves of whatever the world is experiencing, but if you just feel it and let it go, it passes quickly. For example, earlier this week I was overwhelmed by a feeling of failure, like I was a major disappointment to myself, my friends, and even God. This is definitely not one of my personal scripts, but the feeling engulfed me. All I could do was be present with it – feel it, cry, and let it go. It was only about five minutes before it shifted, and it came through again later that day, for about as long, then it was gone. It moved quickly because I didn’t internalize it, and try to make a story to justify it. Just feel it, and let it go. It isn’t yours.

Conversely, if it is yours to deal with, it will keep coming up. Things are being uncovered on the personal level, as well. This Unity thing is easier on everyone if we each face our own shadows. This also helps you discern what is your and what isn’t. Know Thyself. Awareness is always the way forward.

Time is also extra-bendy as we become one consciousness. For some, things are moving way too fast, for others it’s a waiting game. It’s all a matter of ascending at a speed that will allow maximum inclusion. That start-stop feeling is just the collective merging, and again, it’s not personal. Keep moving in your own life, even if group projects seem to get delayed. Still do what you need to support your own evolution, and your body. If frustration sets in, go for a walk.

Let your coping skills evolve. They are changing quite regularly. At one point, baths were really helpful for me, then they started making my feet swell. At one point, sunlight was very healing for me, then I started needing a nap if I spent more than a few minutes outside. My diet has changed. My supplements have changed. Our bodies are changing, so adjust your practices accordingly. Support your body. Remember to give the same changing support to your mind and emotions. Forget habit – everyday is new.

Support and celebrate your individual self, as we become One.


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Universal Archetypes and Soul Groups

I’m really more of a doer than a dreamer. I’ve been in a holding pattern for a couple weeks already, and it’s been even worse the past few days. I’m not having fun here. I’m trying to focus on the blissful lightness of this energy, visualize my fabulous future, count by blessings, and relax into the moment, but truth be told… I’d like to “do” something, as well.

I keep asking myself what I need, and keep getting nothing back. Great. And I’ve been getting more and more obnoxious about facts, which I’m sure is just delightful to be around. Then today, I finally got the drift that these things may be related somehow. I can be pretty slow sometimes.

Before we go on, let’s look at universal archetypes. These are just really big energies (almost archangelic) packed into a concept humans can kind of grasp, like Truth, Justice, Sacredness, Beauty and others. These are living universal energies, not just words. Some people agreed (pre-incarnation) to carry an archetype or two with them, to ground the energy here on Earth. I bring Truth and Faith. I know those words are heavily used in religion, but the energy of them is totally different. It’s more like Transparency and Trust.

So, my personal holding pattern is to let these universal energies sink in and ground. This is also why I’ve been overly sensitive to half-truths. After these archetypes settle, we can get back to “doing” in our daily lives. Whew! Having these energies embodied will also allow for gathering our soul tribes. Yay!!! I know many of us have been eager for this stage. But here’s the catch… your vibe attracts your tribe, so if you want to connect from the soul, you have to live from the soul.

Only you know how much of your soul is buried behind social norms. Only you know if your life is expressed as a soul, or as an expectation placed upon you. Only you know if you are more wounded or healed, and which place you act from. Soul groups will start gathering soon, based on soul vibration. Those still living from unconscious wounds will continue to draw in people and experiences that mirror that level of existence. That’s what we call karma.

So, there’s a lot going on out there, even if we just have to sit still and wait for its completion. Really focus on the highs and on self-love. For me, it’s hard to remember the Universe has its own agenda for its own evolution, and sometimes I’m just the witness. I never doubt it will all work out in the end. I have Faith.


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Supporting Your Evolution

Almost everyone writing about ascension has mentioned how important it is to support the body right now, but no one is giving much detail on what that means. This is probably because we are all so different, and while one needs a nap, someone else needs to go for a walk. It is definitely an exercise in discernment, and developing a much deeper dialog with your own body.

That said, I like details, and it really helps me to know what others are doing. Not so I can do the same thing, but it lends context, and also tends to give me leads on my own physical journey. I want to share some of my own experiences, only to get you thinking about yours.  In Chinese medicine, I tend to run hot and dry, with my liver being the biggest issue. What works for me obviously won’t work for everyone. More than ever, take what is helpful and leave the rest.

This is only my personal experience. In no way is this intended to treat or diagnose anyone else.

Diet – My diet jumps around with what my body wants. My body, not my cravings (of which I have very few). I never eat fast food or soda, and it’s rare that I have alcohol (like twice a year). I eat organic, minimally processed food, and avoid anything they didn’t make 100 years ago. My body requires meat, and I am careful to buy only humanely treated animal products. Supplements are really helpful for me. My current favorites are: Daily liver support by NOW Foods, two kinds of drops and a skin gel by Cellfood,               L-glutamine by Jarrow, and mind care by Himalaya. Even eating very cleanly, I find supplementation to be necessary. The food available at this point just isn’t as nutrient dense as it needs to be. It has been quite obvious to me that I need to focus on healing the gut. It is probably the first brain, not the second.

Exercise – My body needs some kind of movement daily. I am disabled, and sometimes all I can manage is gentle stretching, or ten minutes on the chi machine, but I need to move. There are definitely times during the day when my body demands I lie still, flat on my back, and if I listen right away I feel amazing in about 5 minutes. Also, there are times that I feel an urge to breathe deeply and consciously, so I do, and again feel amazing in just a few minutes. Being aware of the body’s needs is half the battle, complying is the other half. Sometimes its need pop up in the middle of other chores, and I am learning to prioritize the body.

Mind – We tend to think of our brain as separate from our body, but it isn’t. The Higher Mind (observer consciousness) is a separate thing, but that isn’t the part concerned with entertainment, and ego thoughts. Like the rest of my body, I’m selective about my regular intake. I currently have a little more leeway here, occasionally watching an action movie or a drama, but I stay away from horror and suspense because they actually hurt physically. I can feel the chemicals of emotion and adrenaline flood my body. Not a fan. For my regular diet, I prefer comedies or documentaries. Gaia has some great spiritual and health documentaries.

Spiritual Development – I meditate daily, and connect with my Guides often. I also firmly believe we are always either in a state of growth or decay, as change is the only constant. Because of this idea, and to avoid dogma in my life, I learn a new spiritual path every year or two. I pick up pieces that I keep (like my Merkaba training), but I enjoy different perspectives on spirituality. This year, I’m doing the Gene Keys Golden Path, and it has been amazing for me. I am planning to explore their other offerings next year. And I am also practicing connecting with nature in a new way. Just sitting outside, and being fully present. It’s also been a great experience.

My Pups – This is a planetary ascension, not just a human one. I support my dogs with Ever Pup supplement, and also liver support from Herb Pharm. I don’t have cats or other animals, so I don’t know what is safe and helpful for them. Do some research, and support your fur-babies. I’m sure plants could use a little something, also.

So, that was a glimpse into the amount of support this process is calling for. Ascension is happening either way, but it is much more comfortable if you are supporting the process. This means everything is a deliberate choice… no more auto-pilot through life. Be aware, and make choices that support your evolution.


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Early in my spiritual development (teens & 20s) I had two very formative experiences: my Grandma’s memorial service, and reading a study on behavior of the elderly. Both of which brought my attention to who I am in the world, and the emotional mark I leave, both for myself and others.

After Grandma died, we had a memorial service at her church. People all said the nice things that you would expect, but the thing that stood out for me was they actually meant it. Grandma had affected their lives in such a way that people were truly expressing how grateful they were to know her. I was 18, and wondered what people would say about me if I suddenly died. Uh-oh. Guess I have some work to do…

A few years later, I read a study trying to determine if people got nicer or meaner as they aged. Know what they found? People become more themselves as they age, which explains why some get nicer and some get meaner. In my personal experience, this is also true with brain injury (like stroke) and disease (Alzheimer’s). Whatever aspect of their personality they have spent time developing (consciously or unconsciously) comes to the forefront.

The good news is that your personality isn’t fixed. Just like changing your diet and exercise regimen will change both the appearance and function of your body, similar changes in your mental diet and process will change your personality. I used to be quite competitive and angry, both of which I rarely experience anymore. It is a conscious lifestyle change, but I’m proof it can be done. Feed your mind (books, tv, conversations) with healthy things, and clean it out regularly (meditation, prayer).

This isn’t just about the mark you leave, and how you make others feel. This is about your own quality of life. Two reasons: You have to live with you everyday until your last breath, and you will be surrounded with people and experiences of the same vibration. If I chose to stay angry, I could expect to get angrier with age, and be surrounded with people who like to argue. I’m glad I chose to let that one go. I don’t miss it. And my liver (associated with anger) is functioning better, also.

Find a reference point, then start small. Either pick a roll model (mine is Gandhi), or visualize a future self you want to become, then make little changes in your behavior. Is your future self more open? Smile and say hi to the grocery checker, or keep an eye open for a neighbor needing help with their garden. It doesn’t matter how these gestures are received, what matters is you’re consciously changing your behavior. Change can be uncomfortable at first. Do it anyway. With practice comes confidence, then more changes, but only you can take these steps.

Mastery of Thought, Word, and Deed
Deed – Some are still struggling to master their deeds, their actions. Addiction, in its many forms, is the biggest issue here. Please seek the support you need to assist you.

Word – It honestly amazes me how many “spiritual” people out there still verbally dump on others. If you are triggered, it’s never okay to spew it at another. Ever. It’s normal to get triggered, but keep it inside your head and go work it out before you say anything out loud. This is maturity. Getting it all sorted inside yourself, then having a calm talk about it with the other person, that’s mastery. I completely understand the work involved here, and sometimes it takes days for me to (silently) work through the layers, before I can talk about it. Don’t verbally abuse, and don’t put up with it from others. Because…

Thought – I have been telepathic (hearing end of it) for almost two decades. Not just feelings, actual words. Some people think really loud. Recently, I’ve had two friends tell me I think really loud, and they can hear me. Shit. I was so proud of my verbal mastery (I truly never verbally dump on people, it’s just rude), but now I have to watch what I think. Shit. Shit. Shit! I have no experience with this aspect, how to shut it off, or even lower the volume. I am working with my guides to figure out mastery on this level, so I’ll update when I know more. Please leave a comment if you have any experience with telepathy.

I’m at the crest of the first big wave, so telepathy is inbound. The nice part is complete transparency. The bad part is complete transparency. Uh-oh. Guess I have some work to do…


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Carbon to Crystalline

People tend to think evolution takes a very long time, and changes are only seen in the offspring. For many, it is ridiculous to think that evolution can happen in less than a year, and the changes be seen in currently mature creatures. Instead of arguing with science, I just ask you to ponder this… 300 years ago severe ailments were treated by slicing the abdomen open to remove demons. That was leading edge technology at the time. Now, think of what people 300 years from now will say about us.

Scientific “facts” are only an explanation of phenomenon based on our current level of understanding, not on ultimate truth. If evolution was explained by someone when the telegraph was the fastest form of distance communication, it might be okay to drop that theory now. Instead of having your head down reading outdated material, I suggest you simply stop, breathe, and look around. Heads up. Personal experience and observation will reveal the current truth.

I recently saw a great movie on Gaia called Solar Revolution. I love this movie, because it brings the scientific and spiritual reams together, with a beautifully simple explanation of what’s currently happening in our evolution. I am personally so grateful for this, because my experiences aren’t your typical woo-woo stuff. Meaning, I have always said my unique perceptions are just a physical anomaly, and one day science will figure that out. I’m not the least bit “dreamy” or “airy fairy” (think Luna Lovegood from Harry Potter), but I experience the world as energy, rather than just physical.

All that was just to get us to ascension symptoms. You could just as easily call them evolution symptoms. What you need to know is that everything on the planet is genetically changing. Humans, even adults, are changing from a carbon base to a crystalline base. A change that big just isn’t comfortable. All kinds of thing hurt, and all kinds of purging is happening, usually for short periods. For now, this is our new normal.

The body is doing some serious work to bring in this new being. Just like the caterpillar becoming the butterfly, humans are changing into their next form. Sounds pretty far fetched, but again, look around.

Some of the symptoms this past week have been:
Nausea, diarrea, fatigue, sinus issues, extreme low back pain, vision blurring, foggy thinking, loss of appetite, and more, generally for a few hours then they dissipate. The most important thing to remember is to let the symptoms go! If you become obsessed with “what’s wrong”, then you stop the flow, and the symptom takes longer to clear. Sometimes things clear in minutes, other times hours. I wouldn’t be concerned about anything that lasts less than 24 hours. As usual, use your own judgement on when to seek medical attention.

There are several things you can do to assist in this process (read: reduce your own discomfort). Try to keep your system as clean as possible. Do a detox, and eat organic food. My rule is simple: If it doesn’t exist in nature, I don’t want it in my body. This means minimally processed foods, no GMOs, and no factory farmed meat. I also recommend supplements of whatever your body needs. My liver is my weak spot, so I take a daily liver support, among other herbs and vitamins. Follow your inner guidance, but support the body any way it needs.

I will also briefly mention the mental realm. Watch what you consume there, also. If you watch the news and it makes you angry, your body now has to flush out all those chemicals and hormones. Only watch / read things that inspire you, educate you, or make you laugh. Don’t put extra stress on your system with drama, anger, and suspense.

Support your own evolution as we go from carbon to crystalline.


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Let It All Go, See What Stays

Know that feeling at the top of the roller coaster, right before the first drop? That’s what the energy is like out there. Some are excited, some are terrified, most are anxiously wondering what they’ve gotten themselves into. Nothing to do now but just relax and try to enjoy the ride.

It also helps if you let go of any attachments, both to the past, and to future outcomes. Just relax, let it all go, and be curious about the outcome. Grabbing at attachment is an indication of codependence or addiction. This doesn’t mean you need to run in the other direction, just that you need to sit with open hands. Be present, yet unattached. See what comes up, and just observe. Action will come next week.

If you are on the excited end of the spectrum, just stay in your heart. Let the energy come to you, don’t go chasing it, or willing it in a certain direction. Remember, your Higher Self wants something more wonderful for you than you can imagine for yourself. Pushing for a specific outcome is limiting the Universe. Just let the energy flow through you. Like attracts like, on a vibrational level.

This final eclipse on August 11th, 2018, has some serious punch to it. It really feels like a huge step away from the ego… like that whole platform will no longer be supported energetically. So if the Universe isn’t supporting your actions in any way, reconsider where you’re acting from. Again, your Higher Self wants amazing things for you, you just can’t get there through the ego. Let it go.

Align with what is working, in a gentle way. No need to force that next book to publication, just keep writing, a little at a time. We are always being directed toward our true path, we just occasionally get lost in “but I want this instead”, like a toddler throwing a tantrum. Let everything go, see what stays… tantrum optional, but totally unnecessary.

All of us are on this ride right now, so try to remember to be kind. Some are a lot more terrified and lost than you, and most outbursts can be calmed with a gentle word. Boundaries are always recommended, but put the fire out first, before it burns down the house. Whenever possible, be the calm in the storm.

Top of the roller coaster? Yep. A whole new reality on the way? Yep. Exciting or terrifying? Up to you. Relax. Let it all go. See what stays.


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Heavy Energy

As you may have read in various energy forecasts, August 2018 is supposed to be lighter. What? Then what’s going on? Well, several things…

We are still mid-eclispe season, so until the final eclipse of this series on August 11, things can be a bit intense. Eclipses shift energy around, and tend to present choice points – Do I want to handle this the usual way, or try something new? So, a lot of old programming comes to the spotlight. It just allows you to reconsider the script, it’s not simply a rerun.

We have suddenly come to the time when it will now get easier and easier to be a higher vibrational being, which also means it will get harder and harder to approach life through the ego. Sounds lovely, but what’s happening is the ego fragments you still hold are being burnt out. That’s just as painful as it sounds. The ego always dies a messy death, even when it is just wounded – dramatic little bugger. So, if you have personal stories leveling their full weight on your existence, try not to worry too much. It’ll pass… like a kidney stone, most likely.

We are getting regular blasts to the 3rd (solar plexus) and 4th (heart) chakras. These are upgrades, and doing exactly what’s needed, but you can’t miss them. Talk about hot flashes! I know we are no longer considering ascension symptoms to be a “bad” thing, and there is nothing wrong with feeling them, but I feel them strongly so you aren’t alone if you  are having random and localized hot flashes. And the ringing in the ears has started new frequencies… and a tapping sound, only on one side. Point is, be kind to your body, because a lot is going on.

And into that mix all the retrograde planets, including Mercury, and it’s like wading through mud. It really will get easier as the eclipse passes, but it’s totally fine if your world isn’t butterflies and rainbows right now. And if it is, then well done! Enjoy that for the rest of us. The weight of this energy makes me grumpy, and therefore snarky. Could you tell?

So the point of this rambling is just that you aren’t alone. My only practical suggestion is to spend more time outside. The longer I am indoors, the worse I feel. I spend 10 minutes outside and I can’t remember why everything seemed so dire. I think I’ll be outside a lot this month.

We have turned a page, and it won’t take long to get up to speed with the new Light levels. In the meantime, be kind… to others, to yourself, and mostly to your body. We are all doing some heavy lifting.


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In Awe of You

Sometimes small epiphanies can change your world, if you let them. The problems arise when we judge ourselves on our past, based on present understanding. We were all asleep at some point, then we woke up. Furthermore, awakening isn’t a light switch, it’s a process. So, while the first wake up experience may have been very powerful, it only marks the start of an endless unfolding.

Allow yourself to evolve, without attaching (judging) the past. Let it go. Just see the issue from the new light you have, and watch in awe at your ability to heal. Let it go. This takes some practice, because we are all programmed to feel guilty for our “sins”, but missing the mark is just part of our learning curve. Once you know better, do better. Don’t obsess with past ignorance.

I had a very vivid dream last night, where I was at some kind of retreat, and we were supposed to ask our Higher Self for something. I am pretty happy with my life so it took me a minute to find something. “I guess I’ll ask for healing,” I said to myself. Then I heard a voice reply, “You want health, not healing. You don’t need healing.” Even in the dream, this knowledge vibrated in my body, and I was dazed by the new understanding (in a good way). Allow the change of perspective to happen.

To embody these changes use movement and joy. They are both physical and mental changes, so moving your body in a playful and happy way helps move the energy. Dance. Skip. Laugh. Even if it is just watching a funny movie while you sit on the floor and stretch, it counts. Try to keep it light this week, and just allow things to shift. I am also supporting my body with extra water and a detox regimen. Do what you need to support your playful process.

I expect things to change rapidly in the next three months, and allowing yourself to be different (even from day to day) will ease the turbulence. As long as you are moving more towards love and compassion, you are evolving. Moving more toward fear is just ego resistance. Let others do what they choose, and keep evolving anyway. At a certain point, it actually becomes fun to remove old patterns. Look what I found! Don’t need that anymore!

Your body wants to heal. Your mind wants to heal. They will heal themselves if you just let them. Get out of the way. Give yourself love and support, and just let everything return to equilibrium, to perfect health. Your Spirit is always whole and healthy, and calling the rest of you back. Stand in awe of your ability to heal. Witness your own evolution.

You aren’t the only one watching… realms of the unseen (other dimensional beings) are also watching, supporting, and cheering as we take the next steps in our ascension process. Connect with them however you can (meditate, pray). Feel the love and support they bring, as we all watch in awe… of you.


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Angels Crying

Last night was powerful for me. The New Moon / Solar Eclipse really shook something loose. I had some intense information dropped into my head, along with a few visions, which lasted all of 30 seconds, but I’ve been weepy ever since. In case you don’t know me, I’m pretty low on emotion (been accused of being Vulcan), so weepy for hours is a big deal. I’ll try to translate what I got…

It started with a little pity-party about my current human condition of being neurologically compromised (Friedreich’s Ataxia, genetic cause), and the fact that people with fully functional bodies don’t take care of them. Then it went to why people are so adverse to being healthy and present. Then how escaping the emotional pain was worth disconnecting from the body. Then it went to addiction as a lifestyle choice.

Then the angels were crying. They were encircling the Earth, weeping with compassion. It wasn’t sadness or disappointment, it was compassion. This is where I lost it, too. Compassion has never been my strong suit, and I was overwhelmed by the feeling. It broke my heart, but in a beautiful way.

From this higher dimensional perspective, information started flowing… etheric beings only have access to the Higher Mind (Spirit), and animals only have access to the body (physical), but humans have access to both. We really are a special creation. Your body is much more than a temple, it is your partner. We all know we couldn’t be alive without our body, and some care for it to promote longevity, but when was the last time you saw it as a partner? A being of it’s own, in a symbiotic relationship with your Higher Mind?

Disconnecting from your body (drugs, alcohol, over-eating, lack of exercise, etc.) is breaking the link to your Higher Self. Embodiment requires presence – complete, unhindered awareness – to develop this body relationship. The angels were crying tears of compassion because we have become so disconnected, that further disconnection is used to kill the pain. It was never intended to go this way, nor is it a fixed reality. The reasons for the fall from Grace (which had nothing to do with snakes or apples), are complex, and to my mind irrelevant to changing the current situation.

There was so much shared… relationships are just vehicles for learning, but if you remain asleep, they remain asleep (karmic). Money isn’t real, period. Divine Union is between body and Sprit, not another person. Outer validation is always a distraction. We have built our own prisons, and continue to do so, through unconscious actions. The old programming (victim mentality, self-destruction, greed, etc.) which enslaved humanity is now being removed. Human life is meant to be a playful dance between Body and Spirit. What you see in the world (from factory farming to pornography to war) is a holographic representation of inner turmoil of the collective. We really are a collective, not a group of individuals.

How do we reconnect? Physically, if at all possible. Not the linear, for a goal, join a gym type thing, but creatively physical. That exercise stuff is fine also, but your Spirit want to move as a body. Dance. Tai Chi. Skip around your kitchen naked. Whatever, just move your body as your Spirit. Creativity is what we do. Bring your body, your total humanness, into the mix. Be present with all of yourself.

Also, start identifying how you disconnect. This may show up in any form, from substance abuse to energy addictions (both sex and meditation release endorphins, which can become an addiction, if not monitored). And be sure not to confuse sensory stimulation with connection. Your body doesn’t want to be an amusement park.

This was also a wake-up call for me. I can remember several times in my life, starting at age 5, when I came to complete awareness, freaked out that it wasn’t time yet, and consciously chose to go back to sleep. Yep, I totally took the blue pill, repeatedly. For me, sleep was found in ambition and distraction, like diving head-long into academic achievement, or joining a new social circle. It isn’t always a substance. Sometimes it is just unwillingness to be present. This experience has shown me it’s time… it’s okay to stay awake.

Be fully present with yourself. Build a real relationship with your body, as a Divine Partner. It’s okay to be awake now, to be fully human. Let’s rebuild the world together, and let the angels sing.


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New You

Several years ago I got to see, with extreme clarity, that this is all made up… by us. At that point I thought if this is all pretend, then why not pretend to be someone with a cloak and a wand? I’d look pretty cute with a cloak… Indeed. You can be whoever you want. Who have you been recreating subconsciously?

My Mom was always quite practical, and her wardrobe of jeans and t-shirts reflected that. I knew that wasn’t me, but it took me years to move away from the familiar. This is much deeper than any “dress the part” philosophy, but that’s a good place to start. What type of clothes do you wear? Do they reflect who you really are? Do they belong to a past version of you? Are they chosen to project a false image? Do they compliment your essence?

After you figure out who you want to be, wardrobe is a great place to start. I recommend spending less than $50 at a time, and shopping at thrift stores, at least until you find a style. Pretend it’s a costume, until you  find something that really makes you happy. Feel free to try things, and give away what doesn’t work for you. Thrift stores rock. When was the last time you really thought about the clothes you wear? When was the last time you bought clothes for a reason? This is the biggest reason: outward reflection of who you are inside.

Next, look at your speech, what you eat and drink, and your posture. Keep in mind, nothing is wrong with what you currently do, this exercise is simply to bring awareness to the character you are creating on a daily basis. So many of us just live out of habit, which is just another way to say we live subconsciously, doing what we’ve always done. Some things you look at will be perfectly you, just as they are, while others will simply be outdated. The only way to know is to take awareness into your daily life.

This brings me to phase two of the creation of your future self… Visualize. I am currently disabled, but my future self dances (as I also did in the past). Visualize. Meditate and visualize. See yourself happy, healthy, and fulfilled, and maybe even chat with the future you. What will it take to move in that direction? I guarantee steps can be taken, without large chunks of time and money, but only you can take those necessary steps.

Again, there is no wrong or right, just levels of awareness. In my world right now, my diet is changing (yet again). We always have pancakes on Sunday, and I love pancakes, but the last couple of times I ate them didn’t feel great. Bummer! But feeling better is just more important to who I am than the taste of my weakly treat. It isn’t wrong to choose taste and keep eating them, it just isn’t aligned with my essence. MY essence. For someone else, maybe the other choice is more in line with who they want to be. Only you know who you want to be.

On the other hand, my hair style hasn’t significantly changed in decades. I love my hair, just the way it is. I consider changing it, either cut or color, probably yearly, but I am just really happy with it. It’s in line with who I want to be… at least for now. Don’t fix what ain’t broke.

For every single thing you do just because you’ve “always done it like that”, now is the time to reevaluate. Are you still that person? Were you ever? More importantly, do you want to be that person in the future? You really do get to choose. Stop recreating what no longer serves you.

This is a potent time for change, if you are willing to put forth the effort of awareness. Examine every detail of your life to be sure you are creating the person you want to be when you grow up. Stop recreating the person you aren’t. There is no fault, just lack of awareness. Nothing is wrong, yet maybe it can be more right. Align with who you really are. Take the first steps to become the new you.


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