Carbon to Crystalline

People tend to think evolution takes a very long time, and changes are only seen in the offspring. For many, it is ridiculous to think that evolution can happen in less than a year, and the changes be seen in currently mature creatures. Instead of arguing with science, I just ask you to ponder this… 300 years ago severe ailments were treated by slicing the abdomen open to remove demons. That was leading edge technology at the time. Now, think of what people 300 years from now will say about us.

Scientific “facts” are only an explanation of phenomenon based on our current level of understanding, not on ultimate truth. If evolution was explained by someone when the telegraph was the fastest form of distance communication, it might be okay to drop that theory now. Instead of having your head down reading outdated material, I suggest you simply stop, breathe, and look around. Heads up. Personal experience and observation will reveal the current truth.

I recently saw a great movie on Gaia called Solar Revolution. I love this movie, because it brings the scientific and spiritual reams together, with a beautifully simple explanation of what’s currently happening in our evolution. I am personally so grateful for this, because my experiences aren’t your typical woo-woo stuff. Meaning, I have always said my unique perceptions are just a physical anomaly, and one day science will figure that out. I’m not the least bit “dreamy” or “airy fairy” (think Luna Lovegood from Harry Potter), but I experience the world as energy, rather than just physical.

All that was just to get us to ascension symptoms. You could just as easily call them evolution symptoms. What you need to know is that everything on the planet is genetically changing. Humans, even adults, are changing from a carbon base to a crystalline base. A change that big just isn’t comfortable. All kinds of thing hurt, and all kinds of purging is happening, usually for short periods. For now, this is our new normal.

The body is doing some serious work to bring in this new being. Just like the caterpillar becoming the butterfly, humans are changing into their next form. Sounds pretty far fetched, but again, look around.

Some of the symptoms this past week have been:
Nausea, diarrea, fatigue, sinus issues, extreme low back pain, vision blurring, foggy thinking, loss of appetite, and more, generally for a few hours then they dissipate. The most important thing to remember is to let the symptoms go! If you become obsessed with “what’s wrong”, then you stop the flow, and the symptom takes longer to clear. Sometimes things clear in minutes, other times hours. I wouldn’t be concerned about anything that lasts less than 24 hours. As usual, use your own judgement on when to seek medical attention.

There are several things you can do to assist in this process (read: reduce your own discomfort). Try to keep your system as clean as possible. Do a detox, and eat organic food. My rule is simple: If it doesn’t exist in nature, I don’t want it in my body. This means minimally processed foods, no GMOs, and no factory farmed meat. I also recommend supplements of whatever your body needs. My liver is my weak spot, so I take a daily liver support, among other herbs and vitamins. Follow your inner guidance, but support the body any way it needs.

I will also briefly mention the mental realm. Watch what you consume there, also. If you watch the news and it makes you angry, your body now has to flush out all those chemicals and hormones. Only watch / read things that inspire you, educate you, or make you laugh. Don’t put extra stress on your system with drama, anger, and suspense.

Support your own evolution as we go from carbon to crystalline.


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Let It All Go, See What Stays

Know that feeling at the top of the roller coaster, right before the first drop? That’s what the energy is like out there. Some are excited, some are terrified, most are anxiously wondering what they’ve gotten themselves into. Nothing to do now but just relax and try to enjoy the ride.

It also helps if you let go of any attachments, both to the past, and to future outcomes. Just relax, let it all go, and be curious about the outcome. Grabbing at attachment is an indication of codependence or addiction. This doesn’t mean you need to run in the other direction, just that you need to sit with open hands. Be present, yet unattached. See what comes up, and just observe. Action will come next week.

If you are on the excited end of the spectrum, just stay in your heart. Let the energy come to you, don’t go chasing it, or willing it in a certain direction. Remember, your Higher Self wants something more wonderful for you than you can imagine for yourself. Pushing for a specific outcome is limiting the Universe. Just let the energy flow through you. Like attracts like, on a vibrational level.

This final eclipse on August 11th, 2018, has some serious punch to it. It really feels like a huge step away from the ego… like that whole platform will no longer be supported energetically. So if the Universe isn’t supporting your actions in any way, reconsider where you’re acting from. Again, your Higher Self wants amazing things for you, you just can’t get there through the ego. Let it go.

Align with what is working, in a gentle way. No need to force that next book to publication, just keep writing, a little at a time. We are always being directed toward our true path, we just occasionally get lost in “but I want this instead”, like a toddler throwing a tantrum. Let everything go, see what stays… tantrum optional, but totally unnecessary.

All of us are on this ride right now, so try to remember to be kind. Some are a lot more terrified and lost than you, and most outbursts can be calmed with a gentle word. Boundaries are always recommended, but put the fire out first, before it burns down the house. Whenever possible, be the calm in the storm.

Top of the roller coaster? Yep. A whole new reality on the way? Yep. Exciting or terrifying? Up to you. Relax. Let it all go. See what stays.


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Heavy Energy

As you may have read in various energy forecasts, August 2018 is supposed to be lighter. What? Then what’s going on? Well, several things…

We are still mid-eclispe season, so until the final eclipse of this series on August 11, things can be a bit intense. Eclipses shift energy around, and tend to present choice points – Do I want to handle this the usual way, or try something new? So, a lot of old programming comes to the spotlight. It just allows you to reconsider the script, it’s not simply a rerun.

We have suddenly come to the time when it will now get easier and easier to be a higher vibrational being, which also means it will get harder and harder to approach life through the ego. Sounds lovely, but what’s happening is the ego fragments you still hold are being burnt out. That’s just as painful as it sounds. The ego always dies a messy death, even when it is just wounded – dramatic little bugger. So, if you have personal stories leveling their full weight on your existence, try not to worry too much. It’ll pass… like a kidney stone, most likely.

We are getting regular blasts to the 3rd (solar plexus) and 4th (heart) chakras. These are upgrades, and doing exactly what’s needed, but you can’t miss them. Talk about hot flashes! I know we are no longer considering ascension symptoms to be a “bad” thing, and there is nothing wrong with feeling them, but I feel them strongly so you aren’t alone if you  are having random and localized hot flashes. And the ringing in the ears has started new frequencies… and a tapping sound, only on one side. Point is, be kind to your body, because a lot is going on.

And into that mix all the retrograde planets, including Mercury, and it’s like wading through mud. It really will get easier as the eclipse passes, but it’s totally fine if your world isn’t butterflies and rainbows right now. And if it is, then well done! Enjoy that for the rest of us. The weight of this energy makes me grumpy, and therefore snarky. Could you tell?

So the point of this rambling is just that you aren’t alone. My only practical suggestion is to spend more time outside. The longer I am indoors, the worse I feel. I spend 10 minutes outside and I can’t remember why everything seemed so dire. I think I’ll be outside a lot this month.

We have turned a page, and it won’t take long to get up to speed with the new Light levels. In the meantime, be kind… to others, to yourself, and mostly to your body. We are all doing some heavy lifting.


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In Awe of You

Sometimes small epiphanies can change your world, if you let them. The problems arise when we judge ourselves on our past, based on present understanding. We were all asleep at some point, then we woke up. Furthermore, awakening isn’t a light switch, it’s a process. So, while the first wake up experience may have been very powerful, it only marks the start of an endless unfolding.

Allow yourself to evolve, without attaching (judging) the past. Let it go. Just see the issue from the new light you have, and watch in awe at your ability to heal. Let it go. This takes some practice, because we are all programmed to feel guilty for our “sins”, but missing the mark is just part of our learning curve. Once you know better, do better. Don’t obsess with past ignorance.

I had a very vivid dream last night, where I was at some kind of retreat, and we were supposed to ask our Higher Self for something. I am pretty happy with my life so it took me a minute to find something. “I guess I’ll ask for healing,” I said to myself. Then I heard a voice reply, “You want health, not healing. You don’t need healing.” Even in the dream, this knowledge vibrated in my body, and I was dazed by the new understanding (in a good way). Allow the change of perspective to happen.

To embody these changes use movement and joy. They are both physical and mental changes, so moving your body in a playful and happy way helps move the energy. Dance. Skip. Laugh. Even if it is just watching a funny movie while you sit on the floor and stretch, it counts. Try to keep it light this week, and just allow things to shift. I am also supporting my body with extra water and a detox regimen. Do what you need to support your playful process.

I expect things to change rapidly in the next three months, and allowing yourself to be different (even from day to day) will ease the turbulence. As long as you are moving more towards love and compassion, you are evolving. Moving more toward fear is just ego resistance. Let others do what they choose, and keep evolving anyway. At a certain point, it actually becomes fun to remove old patterns. Look what I found! Don’t need that anymore!

Your body wants to heal. Your mind wants to heal. They will heal themselves if you just let them. Get out of the way. Give yourself love and support, and just let everything return to equilibrium, to perfect health. Your Spirit is always whole and healthy, and calling the rest of you back. Stand in awe of your ability to heal. Witness your own evolution.

You aren’t the only one watching… realms of the unseen (other dimensional beings) are also watching, supporting, and cheering as we take the next steps in our ascension process. Connect with them however you can (meditate, pray). Feel the love and support they bring, as we all watch in awe… of you.


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Angels Crying

Last night was powerful for me. The New Moon / Solar Eclipse really shook something loose. I had some intense information dropped into my head, along with a few visions, which lasted all of 30 seconds, but I’ve been weepy ever since. In case you don’t know me, I’m pretty low on emotion (been accused of being Vulcan), so weepy for hours is a big deal. I’ll try to translate what I got…

It started with a little pity-party about my current human condition of being neurologically compromised (Friedreich’s Ataxia, genetic cause), and the fact that people with fully functional bodies don’t take care of them. Then it went to why people are so adverse to being healthy and present. Then how escaping the emotional pain was worth disconnecting from the body. Then it went to addiction as a lifestyle choice.

Then the angels were crying. They were encircling the Earth, weeping with compassion. It wasn’t sadness or disappointment, it was compassion. This is where I lost it, too. Compassion has never been my strong suit, and I was overwhelmed by the feeling. It broke my heart, but in a beautiful way.

From this higher dimensional perspective, information started flowing… etheric beings only have access to the Higher Mind (Spirit), and animals only have access to the body (physical), but humans have access to both. We really are a special creation. Your body is much more than a temple, it is your partner. We all know we couldn’t be alive without our body, and some care for it to promote longevity, but when was the last time you saw it as a partner? A being of it’s own, in a symbiotic relationship with your Higher Mind?

Disconnecting from your body (drugs, alcohol, over-eating, lack of exercise, etc.) is breaking the link to your Higher Self. Embodiment requires presence – complete, unhindered awareness – to develop this body relationship. The angels were crying tears of compassion because we have become so disconnected, that further disconnection is used to kill the pain. It was never intended to go this way, nor is it a fixed reality. The reasons for the fall from Grace (which had nothing to do with snakes or apples), are complex, and to my mind irrelevant to changing the current situation.

There was so much shared… relationships are just vehicles for learning, but if you remain asleep, they remain asleep (karmic). Money isn’t real, period. Divine Union is between body and Sprit, not another person. Outer validation is always a distraction. We have built our own prisons, and continue to do so, through unconscious actions. The old programming (victim mentality, self-destruction, greed, etc.) which enslaved humanity is now being removed. Human life is meant to be a playful dance between Body and Spirit. What you see in the world (from factory farming to pornography to war) is a holographic representation of inner turmoil of the collective. We really are a collective, not a group of individuals.

How do we reconnect? Physically, if at all possible. Not the linear, for a goal, join a gym type thing, but creatively physical. That exercise stuff is fine also, but your Spirit want to move as a body. Dance. Tai Chi. Skip around your kitchen naked. Whatever, just move your body as your Spirit. Creativity is what we do. Bring your body, your total humanness, into the mix. Be present with all of yourself.

Also, start identifying how you disconnect. This may show up in any form, from substance abuse to energy addictions (both sex and meditation release endorphins, which can become an addiction, if not monitored). And be sure not to confuse sensory stimulation with connection. Your body doesn’t want to be an amusement park.

This was also a wake-up call for me. I can remember several times in my life, starting at age 5, when I came to complete awareness, freaked out that it wasn’t time yet, and consciously chose to go back to sleep. Yep, I totally took the blue pill, repeatedly. For me, sleep was found in ambition and distraction, like diving head-long into academic achievement, or joining a new social circle. It isn’t always a substance. Sometimes it is just unwillingness to be present. This experience has shown me it’s time… it’s okay to stay awake.

Be fully present with yourself. Build a real relationship with your body, as a Divine Partner. It’s okay to be awake now, to be fully human. Let’s rebuild the world together, and let the angels sing.


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New You

Several years ago I got to see, with extreme clarity, that this is all made up… by us. At that point I thought if this is all pretend, then why not pretend to be someone with a cloak and a wand? I’d look pretty cute with a cloak… Indeed. You can be whoever you want. Who have you been recreating subconsciously?

My Mom was always quite practical, and her wardrobe of jeans and t-shirts reflected that. I knew that wasn’t me, but it took me years to move away from the familiar. This is much deeper than any “dress the part” philosophy, but that’s a good place to start. What type of clothes do you wear? Do they reflect who you really are? Do they belong to a past version of you? Are they chosen to project a false image? Do they compliment your essence?

After you figure out who you want to be, wardrobe is a great place to start. I recommend spending less than $50 at a time, and shopping at thrift stores, at least until you find a style. Pretend it’s a costume, until you  find something that really makes you happy. Feel free to try things, and give away what doesn’t work for you. Thrift stores rock. When was the last time you really thought about the clothes you wear? When was the last time you bought clothes for a reason? This is the biggest reason: outward reflection of who you are inside.

Next, look at your speech, what you eat and drink, and your posture. Keep in mind, nothing is wrong with what you currently do, this exercise is simply to bring awareness to the character you are creating on a daily basis. So many of us just live out of habit, which is just another way to say we live subconsciously, doing what we’ve always done. Some things you look at will be perfectly you, just as they are, while others will simply be outdated. The only way to know is to take awareness into your daily life.

This brings me to phase two of the creation of your future self… Visualize. I am currently disabled, but my future self dances (as I also did in the past). Visualize. Meditate and visualize. See yourself happy, healthy, and fulfilled, and maybe even chat with the future you. What will it take to move in that direction? I guarantee steps can be taken, without large chunks of time and money, but only you can take those necessary steps.

Again, there is no wrong or right, just levels of awareness. In my world right now, my diet is changing (yet again). We always have pancakes on Sunday, and I love pancakes, but the last couple of times I ate them didn’t feel great. Bummer! But feeling better is just more important to who I am than the taste of my weakly treat. It isn’t wrong to choose taste and keep eating them, it just isn’t aligned with my essence. MY essence. For someone else, maybe the other choice is more in line with who they want to be. Only you know who you want to be.

On the other hand, my hair style hasn’t significantly changed in decades. I love my hair, just the way it is. I consider changing it, either cut or color, probably yearly, but I am just really happy with it. It’s in line with who I want to be… at least for now. Don’t fix what ain’t broke.

For every single thing you do just because you’ve “always done it like that”, now is the time to reevaluate. Are you still that person? Were you ever? More importantly, do you want to be that person in the future? You really do get to choose. Stop recreating what no longer serves you.

This is a potent time for change, if you are willing to put forth the effort of awareness. Examine every detail of your life to be sure you are creating the person you want to be when you grow up. Stop recreating the person you aren’t. There is no fault, just lack of awareness. Nothing is wrong, yet maybe it can be more right. Align with who you really are. Take the first steps to become the new you.


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Repost: 2018 Energies

Since we are now in full swing with 2018, I reread the yearly energy forecast. It had some helpful reminders for me, so I want to re-share it with you, also. I hope it’s useful, and it brings a new clarity to our current experience.

Originally posted October 21, 2017:

The yearly forecasts are coming in early, so I’m going with it. It feels like September – March (equinox to equinox) is the ramp-up, and then March – September is the full bloom. I think this is just part of deconstructing time, as we commonly use it. The solar calendar is just a human construct.

“One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light, but by making the darkness conscious.”  ~C.G. Jung

The only way to dissolve darkness is to shine a light. 2018 will do just that. All the hidden shadows, both personal and collective, will come to light and be dissolved. This is actually a great thing, like finally cleaning out that dark basement closet, but it may seem overwhelming and scary at times. Who knows what’s in there? Or how long it’s been there? Or if it’s moldy, or covered in creepy-crawly things? It’s ok to be apprehensive, as long as you keep cleaning.

With all the work you’ve done in the last few years, these shadows will dissolve easily… if you are willing to expose them to the light of conscious awareness. Once you acknowledge a shadow, and are truly willing to deal with it straight-on, the it will leave quickly. Denial and avoidance won’t serve you this year. In fact, the more effort you put into avoiding an issue, the stronger it will become, until you can no longer ignore it.

This isn’t about battling the darkness, it’s about integrating it with your light. It’s about going from polarity to oneness. The darkness (the shadow, subconscious programs, lower ego) are ready to come to light (awareness), and dissolve. These are just lost pieces coming home to be healed and released. The faster you become aware, the faster the shadow is integrated. Simple as that. But how it looks on the outside…

From a spiritual perspective, this is a much needed deep collective healing. From a human (muggle) perspective, it can be pretty traumatic. The best thing you can do is stay centered, and be a light for others. The minute you start focusing on the chaos of the world, you will sink into that shadow with them, which won’t help anyone. Many of us will be triggered by world events, but the most compassionate thing you can do is stay centered. Feel free to take action as you are called (activism, volunteering, etc.), but only if it is from a centered place, not an emotional reaction. Act, don’t react. Move from Love, not Fear.

There is a significant timeline split in action here. The important thing to know on that one is that we all have access to all timelines at any point, it’s just a matter of free will. Practical example: A human trafficking ring is exposed… if you choose (free will) to react and let fear and anger have their way, it will activate that vibration, and everything you magnetize will match it. If you choose (free will) to feel the emotions, mentally uncover the reasons you were triggered, then take action from a clear and centered space, everything you magnetize will match that vibration. You will be triggered this year, deeply, but how you handle it is crucial. Blame and judgement are a sign you are operating at a lower timeline, as they are based in polarity – if anything is “their fault”, it requires “us” and “them” mentality. Shift out of the polarity, and back into oneness.

Having access to all timelines can be a bit wobbly. Just because you are flying high in 5D one day, doesn’t mean you can’t suddenly drop back down into 3D. The key here is free will. If you are willing to do your personal shadow work, you will quickly move through the rough spots, and return to the higher timeline. Likewise, anyone living in the muggle world can pop up to 5D, as soon as they are ready. Nothing is set in stone, no one is stuck, and no one is left behind. But be fully aware that you can only make choices for you. There is no saving or helping, only leading by example.

Let me be clear – I’m not saying if you raise your vibration, the world will be unicorns and butterflies. No. Shit happens, and shit will most definitely happen this year. This is about your response to it, and taking full responsibility for clearing your own shadows. It is a mastery of integration, and while each lesson can pass quickly if you are committed to your process, it is still a process. Integrating the shadow brings us to a new level of personal power. It’s worth it. It’s time.

The greatest gift you can offer the world is that of your own transformation. As shadows cross the world stage, know that we are all bringing our darkness to Light. We are healing and releasing polarity, which is part of our evolution and ascension. Use your free will to jump in with both feet. And don’t be afraid of the dark.

“The difference between a good life and a bad life is how well you walk through the fire.” ~C.G. Jung


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Game Changer

What if we are living as a computer simulation like a video game? This theory has been bouncing around for years, but has recently become more popular, with big names like Elon Musk and Neil deGrasse Tyson weighing in on the subject. When I first heard this theory, I was almost offended, or at least overwhelmed. Now, years later, I think it might give us the shift in perspective we need to move forward.

Yogis and mystics have always told us this world is an illusion. All religions tell us that our next life is built from our conduct in this one. With the introduction of quantum physics, even science says part of us exists after the body dies. With the current vernacular, we can easily convert these messages to reflect a simulated reality. Our “Higher Self” could be the player, our body is to be treated as a temple because it is our avatar, making it to the next level requires gaining mastery at the current one… it just keeps going.

The reason I’m currently fond of this worldview is because it eliminates judgement by an outside deity, and increases personal power and responsibility. Humans have such a propensity for guilt, shame, and self-loathing because they feel inadequate. This inadequacy stems from comparing themselves to an unattainable standard, then being threatened with eternal damnation (or any number of afterlife horrors) for not meeting that standard, and finally being too overwhelmed to even try to crawl out of the hole they imagine themselves in. Not the best way to encourage human development, on any level.

If we change the setting from deity-created to computer simulation, then life just becomes a series of choices. No more “shoulds”, no more “not good enough”, no more “sin”, just choices. If we want to get to the next level (and who isn’t competitive, or at least curious?) then our choices matter. See? Personal power and personal responsibility. You don’t want to waste the game doing nothing, but you no longer have the pressure of all the societal norms. Brilliant!

One of the biggest shifts with this perspective is how we view addiction. Instead of all the struggle and pity, it becomes more of a sand trap in your golf game. It’s more a matter of maneuvering your avatar back to the course, than a personal failure or condition. I’m not making light of addiction, I have seen many friends affected, but they all seem to self-sabotage with negative thinking, making it even harder to change their path. Maybe a new perspective would be helpful.

“What if…” is one of my favorite games to get the possibilities rolling, so let’s explore… What if you were designed to be exactly as you are? What if harder lives (abuse, addiction, illness) are just higher levels? What if you have the ability to change the basic script? What if this spiritual awakening is the technology becoming aware of itself? What if meditation just quiets the mind enough to hear the guidance of our “real selves”? What happens when you reach the level of “programmer”? And if you have a good life but are still unhappy, then welcome to Level 1, Earth: Extreme Sports for the Spiritually Bored!

Also of interest, at least to me, is what this says about being creators-in-training. Is there any better way to practice creating a reality? How better to play with different frequencies of energy, and see what they make? Is this heaven or hell? Yes. You get to choose, once you learn how to play the game.

None of this tells us why we are here. Religions don’t either. You have permission to use whatever concept keeps you going, but it’s time to drop the reward / punishment system. You are perfect and you are enough, and you have the power to choose a different route at any time. We are all just stories, in the end. Make yours epic.


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Breaking-Up Is Hard To Do

This blog is more for me than you. In the last couple months, everyone in my inner circle has had a significant shift, resulting in leaving personal relationships, jobs, or locations. It’s like the lessons were finally learned, and it was just time to release old patterns that no longer serve the highest good. I also had some shifting in relationships, and thought I was right on track. If there’s one thing I’ve learned, it’s that evolution is always moving… there’s always more.

I was recently spending time with some of my Tribe, feeling proud of them for all the toxic programs they have released. They are all leaving various levels of abusive situations, and I found myself being a bit jealous. My relationship with my body has been difficult for almost two decades, after a diagnosis of a genetic, degenerative, neurological disorder called Friedreich’s Ataxia. Why can’t I leave my abusive relationship with my body? What would that look like? Is it really abusive? Asking questions always brings me insight.

During this same time, I was reminded that I take on other’s energy, and (coincidentally and unrelated) I was given a book. I don’t actually take on energy anymore, but I definitely act as an air filter, clearing the energy around me. I’ve done it for so long, I don’t even notice, unless it’s pointed out. Is that just who I am? Just what I do? Then I sat down to read my gift of The Mature Empath by Tracy Roe. It’s amazing how hearing someone else’s words, on a subject that’s familiar, can jog the memory in a whole new way.

I am aware that “fixing” is totally different from “healing”. I am also aware that people need to be allowed to struggle to find their personal power. I know that letting people live with their choices develops their masculine power. I know this on an individual level. I just didn’t apply all this to the collective consciousness, which is where I do most of my work for the Ascension.

For years, I have been both grounding the new energy, and transmuting the old. I’ve basically been an air filter for the negative energies of the collective. This relationship no longer serves either of us. My body was the one suffering the abuse of my free will running old energy through it. All the time. No wonder my nervous system is shot. So, this is my big break-up. I’m breaking up with the collective consciousness. I’m no longer helping to cleanse the collective. I trust it is strong enough to do it on its own. It’s time.

My new job will only be to ground the new energies. It’s hard to end an old relationship like this, but we’ll both be healthier for it. I feel better already.


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~ Drinking Dichotomy ~

I was raised in a house without alcohol. It wasn’t shunned in any way, it simply wasn’t there. I did my fair share of drinking in my 20s, as is customary, but the social drinking continued for my friends. I never liked the taste, and after my decade of various levels of occasional drunkenness, I slowed way down, and now I just don’t drink. As a result, I don’t enjoy being around it. Drunk people are only fun if you’re one of them.

Alcohol and social drinking have been a pondering of mine for years. Why do people do it, really? And why am I considered judgmental for asking the question? Why is it a given that people almost always require alcohol to classify something as “a good time”? And why doesn’t it work that way for me? Aside from the fact my liver is pretty vocal in its objections, I just don’t feel like it is a good time when I drink. I always feel drained the next day, and it’s not physical.

My pondering and observation have led me here… People drink socially because they want to let their guard down, to feel more connected to others, which generally happens after the first drink. But no one stops at one drink. The dichotomy begins to appear in the second drink, when the ability to connect with others, and even with your own body, start to diminish. Words begin to slur, and verbal connection is compromised. Eyes blur, focus is lost, and heart connection is compromised. Thinking gets fuzzy, and mental connection is compromised. After the first drink, the whole reason for drinking has dissolved into unchecked emotion, babbling communication, and liver damage. Dichotomy.

My Grandpa was always known for telling amazing stories of his adventures. He was definitely a larger-than-life character, keeping our guests entertained until the wee hours of the night, without a drop of alcohol. This was the example set for me. The grown-ups were laughing and smiling, and fully present at all times. Blurry eyes meant it was time for bed. My distain for drinking isn’t because of a negative judgement, I just miss the connection of being fully present with people!

When I encourage others to stop drinking, it’s my own inner child saying, “Don’t leave! I was having so much fun with you! Please stay present with me… it’s okay to be real without being numb. I want to stay connected.” But I also believe in free will, and I know most people’s parents set the example of social drinking. I don’t feel judgmental in any way, just sad that they feel alcohol will enhance the situation, when it just blocks true connection. So, I leave early, and usually read or meditate, so I can at least connect with me.

Again, awareness is the key to everything. If you drink at all, ask yourself why. Is it just habit? Is it fear of connection or depth? Is it rooted in addiction? Is it tied to your beliefs about being an adult (good or bad)? Is it just what people do? Is that a good enough reason to keep doing it? Also, stay sober a few times and observe what happens to connection as the drinks flow. Then, at the next gathering, join in the drinking and really be aware of your reactions. Two things I can tell you without a doubt, no matter what the reasons for imbibing, alcohol lowers your vibration and damages your body. Period. It simply isn’t good for you, so figure out why it’s part of your lifestyle.

No rush, when it’s time to quit, you’ll quit. Just shine some awareness on the whole thing. Know that it’s perfectly okay to be deep and connected without alcohol. In fact, it’s the only way you can. I’m here, waiting to be fully present with you…


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