We make plans and the gods laugh. Kind of the story of my life, but it has been accentuated since the March equinox. Every time I think I finally have a path, more timelines collapse and my plans fall apart. While I know this is just bringing us all to the highest timeline, it’s frustrating. I used to take little detours to keep myself busy while I waited for the collective, but that’s no longer an option. No more detours. I don’t mean partying for the weekend, I mean getting a new certification in something. I spent a lot of time just keeping myself busy. No more detours. Apparently, it’s showtime.
The physical symptoms are also interesting. My spleen hurts and I’m eating much less. I’m one of those people who lose weight quickly, but my weight hasn’t changed. I’m also seeing sparkles and geometry. Not with my inner eye, actually in my physical vision. Distracting. My blood pressure has lowered considerably in the last week, which is a good thing, but I’m not doing anything to cause it. My body feels great internally, but I’m tired. I am sleeping great, which is a welcomed change. Remember, I’m a little before the wave and we are all unique, so if your experience is different it’s perfect for you.
Emotionally, I am generally happy, with little sparks of anger. Anger was my default setting for many years, so I think it is just washing out of my system. Don’t be surprised if your default emotion pops up for no reason. Don’t give it a place to live by attaching a story, just let it flow right on through. It feels like an emotional car wash. Clumps of dirt you didn’t know were even there come flying out of the cracks before disappearing in the suds.
Know what else is weird? My link to astrology seems to be shifting. I used to be able to actually feel the planets do their thing, and now that connection is off. To clarify, I don’t follow astrology and then think I feel a shift. I feel a shift, then have to look up why. It looks like this: Something changed. Feels like Jupiter. (Digs around on the internet.) Yep, Jupiter just changed signs. I still feel Jupiter and solar stuff, but not much else. This past eclipse gateway hasn’t really ended for me. The whole solar system is shifting, or at least our connection to it.
I have been playing with manifesting in this new energy. It seems we have left both manifesting (making stuff happen using personal will) and magnetizing (pulling experience toward us using heart coherence). It seems that we are getting closer to actual creation, which utilizes focused mind, heart coherence, and sound. I’m still working out the sound piece. For now, I’m tapping into my heart, then focusing my energy on a place in my body. The shift is almost immediate. If I “did” anything to lower my blood pressure, it was this technique. I was focusing on the brain stem. Give it a go for yourself.
Epiphanies have been a big thing, but if I don’t act on them right away they vanish. Even just putting them in writing holds them down a bit. Grounding things right now takes effort. This is not normal for me. Time is a mess, as we all know. If it weren’t for my phone displaying the day and date, I’d be lost.
Meditation is overwhelming, rather than relaxing. The sheer amount of information coming in is exhausting. I usually give up after just a few minutes because of over-stimulation. Meditation feels more like a rave. So much going on, I can’t take it all in. Images, colors, and words. Enlightenment through a fire hose. I’m sure this is at least part of the reason I feel exhausted and sleep so deeply right now. I (ego me) have to be out of the way to receive all these memos.
If you have coping tools for any of the above, or just wish to add to this list, please do so in the comments. We are all a piece to each other’s puzzle. I find pieces of remembrance all over the place. My favorite this week is from Rob Brezsny’s Free Will Astrology: “The universe always gives you what you need when you need it. But are you willing to give the universe what it needs when it needs it?” Share the magic that only you carry.
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