Walking In Both Worlds

I wrestle with the idea of free will quite a bit. I have always had a highly fated life, and often think I have only enough rope to hang myself with… only enough free will to make my fated life harder. Is this true for all of us? Quite possibly.

2024 has been laced with epiphany. It makes me glad I did a few decades of shadow work to prepare for this future. But did that matter? Did I get all these amazing insights because I prepared, or is it just time? The veil is thinning, and that could be the actual cause of my reality shifts. Would I still be right where I am if I had spent the last twenty years checking out with drugs? Did I miss that memo?

This timeline split is getting really obvious, and it’s a good argument for choosing to do inner work. Lower frequency people are just dropping out of my life. At the lower frequency, it looks like life is getting more intense to push people into waking up. Just enough free will to make life harder than it needs to be. Still, there are choices available.

I do believe there is free will to a point. From the outside, it is definitely a choice to live at a certain frequency. Even if the end game is fated, we get to choose our quality of life by choosing what thoughts we dwell on. I’m not at all suggesting that “negative” thoughts or feelings be suppressed. Negativity always needs to be intentionally processed and released, but doing that extra work is a choice. Processing and releasing negativity allows our frequency to rise, thus providing a higher foundation to build from.

Everyone I know who has found their way to a spiritual path is just calmer inside. We all have hard days, but the setpoint is closer to peace, and the return to inner peace gets faster and easier with time and practice. It’s always hard to watch those we love make their lives harder, but I know from experience the choice has to be their own.

In the Yogic philosophy there are four levels each must pass through: pleasure, accomplishment, service, and being. The first three may take lifetimes, but don’t worry – you’ll be back. When you understand that your being is the entire point, you are finally free to go. I love that. In Rosicrucian philosophy the soul is built by intention and dedication. Lots of free will there.

At some point on the path it does feel like everything is on autopilot. Maybe after so long of choosing “thy will over my will” there is no longer a need for free will. I don’t really have an answer, just lots of questions. The free will debate is a lot like the simulation debate – neither one would change who I am or how I live. Not if I have a choice in the matter…

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Soul retrieval is an interesting concept. It only makes sense (at least to me) if we consider ourselves to be three things: physical body, soul, and spirit. We are all familiar with the physical, but what else is going on? There are systems that teach the “soul” is the part that holds individual experience and may reincarnate, while the “spirit” is the impersonal, animating force in all things. The soul can be fragmented, but the spirit simply exists.

The idea that power is never taken only given, is part of an individual soul journey. At the spirit level we are all one energy, so it is only the soul (and human psychology) that is concerned with power. For example, a person suffers great abuse from another human. At the point of the abuse power is taken by the abuser, but if it still hinders the victim years later they are freely giving their power away. Please don’t read this as a “blame the victim” thing – bad things really do happen, but we are allowed to heal. Enter soul retrieval.

Every time we dwell on a past dis-empowerment we are simply giving away more of our power. It’s okay to heal. These old power leaks are places our soul-self became so compromised, it actually fragmented. These fragmented pieces of soul stay in the past at the point of abuse, and fester as stories that shape our lives. Not to worry – these pieces are now finding their way back to us without intervention. We have always had the option of finding a healer to facilitate soul retrieval, but now it is just in the air.

How this is likely to show up is through sudden bursts of clarity. This clarity actually makes me giggle that I didn’t see it before! It’s so obvious! Then I let the epiphany settle into my worldview, and I actually feel more whole. It’s like the part of me I gave to the situation has returned. The relief! I missed me! I would have thought it would be harder to give up a story, but at this point it’s not. Being whole brings more joy than losing a false and festering story brings grief.

So why now? The frequency, at least on this timeline, supports ego death and a return to wholeness. The other timeline will be in the throws of fighting ego death for a while. The only thing to do is lead by example. All our wholeness and giggling is bound to attract attention at some point!

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Now that the presidential election is over in the United States we have a more firm timeline for a few years. We chose the faster, more exciting path to change. This is in no way an endorsement of Trump, but here we are and the timeline is more clear. At some point we won’t have elected “leaders” simply because self-sovereignty and personal responsibility will be our reality. That won’t happen soon, so here we go…

What will happen for the next four years was already planned, so we just picked the more dramatic route, that’s all. Some people (apparently the majority) prefer drama, but the end result would have been the same either way. This is important to know, so you don’t get pulled into the divisive energy of the past. Unity is where we are headed, no matter how it seems.

Remember how I have said for years to distance your personal identity from money? Now, we all need to distance our identity from patriotism. This means YOU (as a multidimensional being) are NOT the identity of your country. Your country is just where you live. Your character can grow no matter where you are, or what that area is called. I wasn’t indoctrinated into the patriotic fervor so I’m sure it is easier for me than most, but this idea will ease the next few years no matter where you call home.

Try to identify as your soul, rather than as a citizen. Your soul doesn’t even have a gender. Your soul is pure energy, and really doesn’t care what the land is called or who is named “leader”. Just spend a few minutes everyday communing with your own soul, and feel the stress melt away. If you can just bring a little of this awareness into your life it will change everything, both personal and collective.

I’m not suggesting that your physical circumstances are irrelevant, I’m just saying don’t get attached to a label based on conditioning. I know many people right now in true mourning over these election results, when nothing has changed in their personal lives. Same with those celebrating the result. If you aren’t living in a war zone, take some time to think beyond politics and man-made borders. In fact, gratitude and soul-identity are our sacred duty at this point, to ease the collective stress of the coming years (again, no matter who is in charge).

Support your body and discipline your mind. The big goals haven’t changed. Personal evolution is about to pick up the pace, so time with your soul will bring comfort. Let the changes begin!

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Enough of the inverted reality we have been living has been righted that suddenly everything seems paradoxical. Truth is now what used to be fantasy, and vice-versa. Have you noticed this? What worked before (ego force) is no longer helpful, and now intuition (inner connection) is guiding us forward. I’m talking the masses, not just the few of us born with an inner GPS.

This is so exciting! But it also means massive ego death for all of us, especially those still following their ego. If anything scares or triggers you for the next couple years, do your best to sit with it until you can let it go. Releasing ego programming is something many of us do by now, but the process is about to speed up. Your intuition is bigger and better than your ego. You’ve got this. Things come up to be released. Everyone is working at their own pace, so be gentle with yourself and others.

Remember how much of a struggle it has been to raise your frequency? Reality keep getting in the way of personal growth. That has finally flipped. I mean, it has always been true that changing your vibration changes your circumstances, but it had such a long lag-time that many gave up before the change could happen in the physical. Not any more! Be careful what you wish for, it just might happen… quickly. It feels like living from the soul just got the green light.

Many other ego-based activities are losing their luster. Remember, this whole world is based on money and power, the egos favorite toys. Here is an easy way to tell what was created by and for the ego: Will it change nature? No? Then we don’t need it. Even without money, the sun will still shine, the wind will blow, the rain will fall, and the earth will grow food. Spend some time in the natural world, and you may be ready to leave social media. Our priorities are about to wake up.

Flash update – After my experience on October 7th, my neurology has been slowly improving. I still have little sense of taste (gargling with apple cider vinegar helps) and little appetite. Overall, I have more energy, but my energy and my sleep are up and down. I’m still on the ascension roller coaster, but the ups and downs haven’t felt as personal. Thank you to everyone who shared their own experiences of that day!

This next bit is mostly about releasing the old paradigm programming so we can return to our original blueprint. Does anything feel oddly out of place? Might be the paradox of your soul poking through…

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Many have been talking about the flash for years. In this scenario, a big solar flash wakes everyone up, and we suddenly become 5D beings on a 5D earth. Personally, I’ve never given it much credence because it sounds too much like a savior story (second coming of Christ, aliens will save us, etc.) My life goes like this: “That’s the most ridiculous thing I’ve ever heard!” (insert personal experience with said ridiculous thing) “Oh. Looks like that’s real. Time to adjust my perspective.” The following is an account of my own personal experience this week.

On Monday October 7, 2024, I was enjoying a drive with a friend to see the fall colors. At around 12:30, while enjoying the ride from the passenger seat, I suddenly saw a flash of light with my inner vision (not visible to others), immediately followed by feeling faint and confused, then physical pain around my heart. Next came internal thoughts…”Do I need to lay down? Do I need to throw up? Am I breathing?” Then all the physical symptoms subsided, and only the confusion remained. This took all of 3-5 seconds and didn’t seem to affect my friend, who was still driving and talking.

I’m still not right. Whatever it was went right through my nervous system, which is severely compromised at this time. For a few days before this experience, all food was tasting like sawdust. Since this experience, I am hit by waves of exhaustion, and my throat tastes terrible, like my brain is melting and dripping down my sinuses. Not enough mouthwash in the world. The whole thing is way beyond any ascension symptom I’ve ever read about.

I am left with more questions than answers… Is the flash individual? Am I just early (as usual)? Am I the canary in the mine (if my nervous system can take it, it’s safe)? Was this a preparatory blast? I never felt attacked or unsafe, just overwhelmed and confused.

I am sharing this story because I am never alone, so someone out there will know it has happened to someone else. I really don’t know what it was. The current exhaustion implies healing. Healing brought from the flash or because of it? My world view says everything happens for me. Please comment to let us all know if you have had any unusual experiences.

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September 2024 equinox has a distinct feeling of heading towards home. It feels like we have reached true boredom with the outer world, and the inner world is finally enticing. The inner expansion has begun on a great scale, and adventure awaits!

As the old paradigm draws to a close, it’s the perfect time to cultivate your inner world. We have been waiting for this homecoming for our whole lives, consciously or not. This is when we finally get to balance our internal energies, and put as much emphasis on being as doing. The in-breath is just as vital as the out-breath. Do you spend time each day enjoying being? Now is a great time to start, or deepen your practice.

If you are new to the idea of just being, focusing on the breath, being in nature, and making gratitude lists are great tools.

As we come back into the balance we were before we incarnated, our outer circumstances will shift to reflect our inner changes. The old ego-self didn’t like change, while the balanced-self knows change means growth and expansion. Instead of fear, we now react to change with joy. I was told (in meditation) about four years ago that I would not only accept change, but actually enjoy it. I think my reply was, “Good luck with that one,” but I get it now. My sun and moon are both in fixed signs, and boosted with a little autism. If I’m excited for change something is really going on.

Know what else has shifted dramatically? Compromise. Not the selfish kind, but the kind that involves personal integrity. I’m happy to change times or plans to work with others, but if it requires changing something of my personal integrity, it’s off the table. A simple “no thank you” covers it, but it is a very clear knowing. Very clear.

I don’t even care to watch the old world burn, I’m just so excited for the new. It is, without any doubt, an inside job. Remember everything of real value is within, and the outer drama is just for entertainment. We are going to be fine. This is just evolution, and our bodies and minds were built for this.

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None of us would choose to stay under a limiting belief. The habits we have formed, or maladaptive survival behaviors we’ve used, have kept us under a spell. Not to mention the societal programming we’ve been immersed in all our lives. No one is untouched by these limiting spells, even those of us with a clear memory of life before incarnation on Earth.

So how do we address a habit we aren’t even aware we have? By mixing up the routine. I’m always watching in awe as life provides exactly what we need. Don’t be surprised if you are suddenly relocated for a bit (days, weeks, or months). Sometimes life has to step in and help us break a cycle, or a spell. For at least the next year, or maybe a couple, life is waking us up by breaking routines and habits. Go with the flow.

There is no action required on your part to start the process, just stay flexible and go with what feels right. Digging in you heals and refusing to move out of your well-worn rut won’t go well. Just follow the opportunities, and you will be a brighter light for it. This diversion (soul intervention, if I’m honest) is only designed to remind us of who we really are, without the programming held in place by habit.

Think about your day… out of bed at roughly the same time, talk to the same people, do the same things, maybe even eat the same kinds and portions of food, and the off to bed. Repeat. Our lives are run on habit, not presence. Not for much longer. Presence is about to be our new guiding light. Pro tip: Presence is where our power resides. Obsessing over the past, worrying about the future, and blame are all huge power leaks. “Power to the people” will come with our presence and awareness.

The world stage will also be filled with wake-up calls. Changing a habit with a short relocation seems so much less dramatic, but to each his own. Of course, not everyone will be called off to foreign lands, but if you are reading this you can expect some kind of disruption to your routine. Take it in stride. This really is the universe working for us.

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We’ve all been letting go for years. Is there even anything left in here to let go of? Yes, actually. The big lie that’s been holding you back is about to come undone. At first, it may be heartbreaking, just because loss of a story is still a loss. But shortly after you come to terms with the loss, the laughter and healing come flooding in. “That was all me! I can just change the story!”

I would love to tell you what that story is, but it is different for everyone. Once you see how you have used this story to stay small (or big), it’s liberating and empowering to let it go. The nice thing about this particular shedding is that all you have to do is clear your own attachment to the story, then life simply changes around you. The mind really is a reality projector. This isn’t about re-framing an old story, it’s about totally releasing the story.

If you aren’t sure which matrix program you are stuck on, the next couple of months (Sept. & Oct. 2024) will help you figure that out. As the old reality structure comes crashing down, see which parts really trigger you. Politics? Money? Religion? We all cling to something from our indoctrination, and it’s time to let it all go.

I can’t even count the number of times I’ve said “it’s time to let it go”, and beliefs have been releasing for years, but this time is more like removing a rotting tooth and having it almost immediately replaced with a brand-new, natural, better-fitting tooth. Once you see how you have been holding yourself down with a simple belief, it really is hilarious. All you have to do is bring it to awareness, and let it go. Cutting cords is a nice touch. How powerful are you? If you can dramatically limit your life with a single story, just imagine what you can accomplish by removing that story! You go!

Life is going to be rearranging itself anyway, so it’s a great time to release what hurts your heart. Again, this pain is self-inflicted by way of an attachment to a belief. A brutal example would be a physically abusive relationship. Even after leaving an abuser, if the story remains unchanged, another abuser follows. The actual change comes from the victim changing their story. Changing any story will draw new players. Wherever you go, there you are. The change is internal. Right now, internal change is strongly supported.

No need to push for change, just be aware of what comes up. My invisible team usually has to show me something three times before I catch on. Maybe I’m just slow. The point is just pay attention to what you are being shown. You will be guided to your next step with grace and ease… if you are willing to release the expired story.

If this info is helpful, you can follow my blog (lower right side of page) to have posts delivered directly to your inbox. You may also enjoy my books, Waking Up Indigo, Walking In Both Worlds, and What’s Next, available at Amazon, both in paperback and on Kindle. Love donations welcome and appreciated via PayPal (donate button). Please feel free to share and re-post these writings… we are all just walking each other home.