Walking In Both Worlds

Epiphanies have been falling out of the sky, as I’m sure you’ve noticed. They normally just integrate, and seem perfectly normal and obvious within a few hours. But there has been one that I just couldn’t figure out. For the past week, I have been wrestling with God, or at least that concept. I decided to share my journey in the hope it will spark something for you.

I’m not a deity type person. I have always seen expressions of deity as metaphors for an inexplicable essence. I know some people take their deity quite seriously, and quite literally. I advise those folks to stop reading at this point. This post is really about my own understanding of gender roles and how to balance masculine and feminine energy within. In my brain it’s all energy and metaphor, with little regard for social religious graces. I’m quite sure I will offend most Yahweh followers.

This journey started with a rant about how backwards it is to think of God as a man. If God created everything, then made humans in Its image, why are only females able to create new life? For thousands of years before the arrival of Yahweh, worship of the divine was through the mother Goddess. That one isn’t tough. What is the saying? “If men had three sides, God would be a triangle.” Men were in charge, so now God is a man.

Then I got a piece about men listening to women, which doesn’t normally happen. If I want to be heard I always talk to another woman. Again, not a surprise when the popular religious culture relegates women to childbearing and home duties. Women are nothing more than someone to make the man of the house more comfortable.

Then I got this weird thing about dogs. Many people expect their dog to be an alpha and protect them, but not many dogs are true alpha. If you take a beta (follower) and ask it to behave like an alpha (leader), you will have one anxious and potentially violent animal. There will be lots of barking and biting as the poor creature tries to fill a role it isn’t designed to do.

Is this what’s wrong with men? Men have been in decline for decades with lower test scores and lower drive to succeed at anything. I call the current situation “the victomized white male” because there is so much whining and so little introspection. Is it chemical? Is it emotional? Could it be that the changing gender roles took away the safety of someone who was never designed to be an alpha? Now it’s all coming together, at least in my little brain.

What if the “God is a man” story was part of the upside-down world we have been living in for thousands of years? What if men were never intended to lead? Asking them to do a job they aren’t built for is cruel and would result in the odd behavior we see so much of today. Lots of barking and biting would look like abuse and war. We didn’t do anyone any favors with this one.

After all that (my brain has been busy), let’s look at what this means internally, because energy is fractal. We have all been taught that the masculine energy (mind) is superior, and it is unnecessary to listen to the feminine energy (body). In fact, abusing your body is considered normal if the mind wants to play (just look at alcohol). This is absolutely backward!!! The quality and length of your physical life is dependent on a healthy body. Your personal gender is irrelevant, as we all carry both mental and physical energy. Don’t put the barking dog in charge of your physical protection.

Side-note: When I read the scripture about men not lying with a man as he would with a woman, I interpret it energetically. I read “Humans should not align with the mind as with the body.” Just something to ponder.

Humans also have a dispassionate observer mind; this is what we call awareness. Use your inner observer to notice when your are ignoring your body to follow your mind’s cravings. The biggest hurtle for humanity at this point is learning to listen. Learning to listen begins with listening to your body. Just like “you can only love another as much as you love yourself”, you can only listen to another as much as you listen to yourself.

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Happy lunar new year, and welcome to the year of the Wood Dragon! Sounds flammable. I’m sure the world stage will resemble a house on fire, but what’s happening to us as individuals is quite magical. If you have spent much time with dragons you know they are truly empowered beings. Being a year of wood, this empowering energy will penetrate all the way down to our physical. Exciting stuff!

For those trying to hold their emotions still so they won’t dump fuel on the fire of a burning old paradigm, I appreciate your intentions, but the sooner you reframe anger the better. While fear is paralyzing, anger is motivating. Moving from fear to anger is a huge step forward, because now you will actually make a change. Plus, anger isn’t the issue, it’s throwing your anger at others that’s the issue. If we use our anger to make changes in our life, it has helped us.

Dragons never get angry; they already embody empowerment. Humans now have this same embodied power potential. For those that have been doing inner work for years this time feels very liberating and exciting, as they have been clearing space for this personal power. For those just starting on this path it will be a steep learning curve.

On the practical side, I have found life works best when I combine being and doing. I need to stay fluid and just let life happen. On the inside it’s a different matter entirely. It seems my primary responsibility is keeping my vibration high via my thoughts. Each time I find myself dwelling on a negative story I immediately jump into a mantra. I like ‘I Am Divine’ by Hari Bhjan Kaur, but find something that speaks to you. If I dwell on the negative too long, or don’t even notice my mind is off on its own, reality dramatically shifts to match my thoughts. Thus the learning curve for the year.

This is just training for us to be all that we can be. Humans are built to create reality, and the current world is a result of our fragmented and fearful focus. No, I’m not at all saying you can never have a fearful or negative thought, just be aware of what you dwell on. If a situation upsets you that’s fine, but learn to let it go. If the same situation repeats itself, maybe look into why. Is it about acceptance? Is it about communication? Is it about leaving a toxic relationship? Figure yourself out, and take action.

Without a body creation starts with an energy template, which requires a focused thought, an open heart, and something we would call sound. Doing this from within a body uses thought, heart, sound, and a calm and healthy body. The body is returning to its divine state due to the current energy, but the mind is up to us to train. We get to choose which thoughts we dwell on. Patricia Cota-Robles has a very informative vlog (2024 #5) on the physical upgrades in action.

Support your body, mind your mind, and the heart opens naturally. May empowerment be with you!

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Sorry for the break in January. As my Grandma used to say, I was just trying to keep body and soul together. It’s been truly a struggle, as I’m sure you’ve noticed. For my astrology friends, like Jim, what happened on November 16th and January 18th? There was a definite start and end, at least for me.

With Pluto back in Aquarius it feels like life is moving again, though slowly… for now. At least I feel like there is a future, even if I can’t see what it looks like. Things are now falling into place for the next step. Even during my walk through the valley of death I never felt alone, which may have been the point.

Unseen forces have been gathering in great numbers, and are considerably louder than usual. Have you noticed how surrounded and supported you are? Have you noticed how responsive reality is to your very thoughts? Even my dog is more telepathic than usual. The game is on!

I have spent the last two months refining my thoughts, which is just another way to say raising my vibration. The nice thing about the thought-vibration connection is that change can happen at the speed of thought (how very Aquarius). Whenever your day starts going poorly, check to see what your mind is dwelling on. Now try changing the channel to something lovely. It may take a few tries to get the change to stick, but the results are immediate. This technique is not at all as difficult as it was fifteen years ago – give it a go.

I feel like, for me anyway, the past two months have been mostly refining and clearing. I needed some time to prepare the building site, so the coming foundation is on solid ground. Still wasn’t any fun. I’m pretty excited Pluto will only see Capricorn again September 1 – November 19 this year, then we are good for 248 years, or something like that. My entire world shook for the duration of this Pluto-Capricorn transit. I normally feel the planets move, but this was nuts! We’ve all earned an ice cream for making it through the last 16 years.

At this point I talk to my invisible team both vocally and telepathically, although I’m quite sure they hear my thoughts. If I need a little extra care they arrange it, even if it means having someone call or a neighbor stopping by. I never ask for how or who, I only ask for more support and follow my intuition. Try it out. I’m quite sure this one is available to us all.

You are loved and supported more than you know. Invite your invisible team into your life. They are so close, you may actually feel a hand on your shoulder.

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To really understand this blog you will need some context from my life. I’ve never been great at assisting those just awakening, because I was never one of them. For whatever reason, I was never fully asleep, and have been in constant contact with my invisible friends since before I could talk. I have always struggled in this world because the rules made no sense. Now that I have been here observing for over half a century, things are now adjusting to more of what I’m used to.

The world energy template had been inverted. I don’t know all the details, except that it was due to non-human interference – not 3D aliens, but energy beings that were feeding on human emotion. These beings supported a small group of humans by sharing information on how to keep things in turmoil, thus creating a buffet for these beings and power for those humans assisting. Those beings are now gone, and humans cannot keep reality inverted without assistance. While humans are now technically running the show, no one is really in charge because the energy templates have only recently been returned to their original divine state. No one here really understands what the divine template looks like.

I can tell you a few of the things that were inverted (and are now returned to normal):
Mind was valued over body
Outer direction was valued over inner direction
Individual stories were valued over collective good
Inner unrest ruled and now inner peace is returning

For me, this feels like going home. I missed me. For those more grounded in the old (outer) world, I’m sure this is disorienting. This is just evolution doing a course correction, but the rules for living well have reversed. I have a few recommendations to make this adjustment a little smoother:

Use that overdeveloped mind to serve the body. I love the mind, but it was intended to protect, not rule. If your body wants sleep, just sleep, instead of finding reasons not to. If your body objects to a certain food or drink, just don’t consume it, instead of justifying. Listen to your body! Life will quickly improve if you use you mind to support and protect your body. Esoterically, the body is also represented by the earth and women. See how that was inverted?

Use inner discernment, not outer direction. Sadly, some don’t even know what that means. A big part of creating chaos is teaching us to believe what we are told, not what we know to be true. This trick keeps you separate from your own inner voice, to abolish gnosis entirely. When people tell me how the world is falling apart, I always have to remind myself they are getting their information from the outside. The world is pretty sparkly from the inside.

If your own personal story hurts, shift you focus to collective good. Get out of your story by acting in the interest of the collective. Pick up litter. Shovel the walk for a neighbor. Get a few people together to collaborate on a community project. The personal story never seems big enough, even after your net worth is in the billions and you are shot into space. That’s because humans are built for community. Keeping us separate and focused on our own lives keeps us isolated, at least mentally. Isolated and separate was the inverted reality.

Misused mind, outer distraction, and extreme individualism brought us to this constant unrest. No wonder people have so much anxiety. The nice part is the inner peace template has been returned. As each of us drops the old (unsupported) ways, the true human template is already there to catch us. Humans were originally cooperative, supportive, and peaceful. Welcome home.

To keep myself connected to my inner world I enjoy looking at the mountains and listening to uplifting music. Meditation is helpful also, but being fully present with my breath does the most for me right now. My vibration shifts easily, after only a few seconds of focused gratitude. Play with this concept this year, and see what you find. Upgrading your frequency is easier than ever before. Feel your source energy in your body. The game is afoot in 2024.

Also worth mentioning are the physical upgrades. I can feel it in my nervous system, but they may be stronger in other areas for you. Anytime your frequency drops just do whatever you need to do (including accepting the drop) to let it rise back up. The upgrades happen naturally once the frequency is stable enough to hold them. I imagine there will be many new healing modalities based in sound and light (frequency) this year. More importantly, you can change your own frequency by changing the thoughts you dwell on. Takes awareness and practice, but it’s available to all for free.

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In the last couple years, we have done a lot of internal work. We have experienced everything from awakening to a different reality to ego death, which is required to change our stories. In 2024 these changes finally go public, meaning the world stage will begin to follow our inner shift. Exciting times! It will take at least three years to get this ship turned around, but it starts now.

“Truth” is falling from the sky, and it will change everything. Picture a snow globe being held upside down – it’s unstable and everything looks odd. When it is returned to its true orientation, it’s sitting on a stable foundation and the scene looks right, though temporarily obscured by the chaos of falling snow. That’s where we are now. The final belief (which happened to be about the patriarchy) was put right at the end of November 2023. 2024 will look pretty chaotic on the world stage, but that’s just the snow flying about after the world being righted.

Esoterically, this means the energetic templates have been returned to their original Divine state. It took us thousands of years to get the world this backwards, so bringing it back around in only a few years is impressive… or terrifying, depending on your perspective.

A major part of 2024 will be refining your connection within. This is an area of spiritual maturity, so we have to individually decide to make this a priority. This doesn’t need to be a huge time commitment. Think of it as a spiritual smoke break. Maybe even set a reminder every two or three hours, and take 5 minutes to connect within. Do whatever brings you back to your body… Take a few deep breaths, pet the dog, hug a tree, walk outside, just lay flat and feel your heartbeat. Find a quick and simple way to connect to your center and do it multiple times each day. Leave the stressful chatter of the mind, and center in your body. This will make all the difference in your experience of 2024.

We have reached the milestone of leaving the confines of the collective. This one is harder to explain. We have all been living inside a shoe box called “the collective”. You could decorate your space any way you wanted, but you still had the walls of the box to limit you. Now, we have no more box. At first this will seem like chaos or anarchy, but it will settle into a beautiful expansion. It used to be dangerous or impossible to live too far outside of the box, but now it is a way to bring new things into the world to make it a better place. Communities will happen naturally from expansion, rather than artificially through compliance. We could add our individual light to the box, but it was always limited to what the collective was ready to accept. Now we can shine as brightly as we want, because others aren’t forced to experience it. Anyone can choose to look away or bury themselves in the mud. Each journey is now individual, with true concern for improving the whole.

The “collective box” was built by limiting beliefs. This means everything we consider foundational is about to shift – money, religion, medicine, food, our purpose on this planet. This year will be full of change, which can be tough on the ego. Always be kind to yourself and others. The new currency is kindness. It’s best at this point to build your inner connection, and question everything that comes at you from the external. Especially question what you accepted as a child. Intuition and discernment will become increasingly relevant over the next few years.

It is also interesting to note that the old collective box only allowed a binary view of the world. Our experience has been minimized to two polarities – good and evil, men and women, two-party politics, rich and poor, right and wrong, heaven and hell… We have been taught to think of the world as black and white, instead of the endless shades of life. This is the fundamental shift – reality has much more than two options. We are about to have more options around everything.

Water is about to take its rightful place in the world. Look at the work of Veda Austin to get an idea of the future. On a personal level, bless your water before you drink it. If you enjoy a soak in the tub, bless and thank the water at the start and end of your bath. Remember that your body is mostly water, so you are living in this responsive packaging. Our thoughts drive this game, so find good thoughts to dwell on. Find an uplifting mantra to fall back on whenever you need to change the channel.

Aside from a little sticky spot around November (which will resolve quickly), 2024 is going to be fast and furious, bringing the change we need in the world. Remember to stay open to new information, and regularly connect within. Go team!

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As we venture into this new world, we will start to wonder how we ever believed such nonsense. How were we convinced of things that are now shown to be false? Don’t blame yourself – blame is part of the old misdirection game. How we got here was through half-truths. Telling some part of the truth is usually enough to satisfy the intuition, and then the rest of the story can be fabricated.

The reason things are different now is simply because our intuition has been turned-up. With this new level of intuition we automatically have less fear, because the information is being heard within, instead of relying on outer sources. Of course, now that the outer forces have less control, systems will fall. Not because of conflict, just obsolescence. Those still attached to the old will experience this as a personal catastrophe, while those ushering in the new will see the road cleared for them. Neither is wrong, just a very different ride.

Be prepared to question everything, especially if data is missing. If the news broadcasts a “new cases” rate without a mortality rate, it’s worth your time to do a little research. If any belief system tells you the only way to connect to Divinity is through them, first leave then do some research.

This is the point we start taking responsibility for what we believe. No more relying on outer sources to guide us. I wouldn’t be a bit surprised if social media (home of the opinion) falls away in the next couple years. My Mom always said I have an excellent bullshit detector. This trait is coming to the masses. It won’t happen for everyone at once, but if you pay attention, you will notice people questioning things we used to just accept.

Be kind to those awakening to this gift, including you. It can be a whirlwind of disillusionment to suddenly become aware we have been fed more propaganda than fact. Everyone wants to trust in their government, their doctor, their church. Those individuals have likely been passing on the half-truths they were taught. They will be seeing past it also. Finally.

The gentlest way to approach this phase is with curiosity. What else could I know about this situation? Can I find data that isn’t being shared? Stay away from the echo chamber of shared opinion. It’s always nice to have friends that agree with you, but if you never expose yourself to differing viewpoints how will you learn? This may also bring an end to cancel culture. Ignoring a different viewpoint is ignoring an opportunity to learn. Learning is expansion. Personal expansion is the future.

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Before you stop reading based on the title, let me define how I am using the word. To me, “the patriarchy” is a social system that has evolved over thousands of years. Most women are fully aware of the damage it has caused to women, but men don’t yet realize how it has fundamentally limited men. I am writing about how this system has hurt all humans.

Two days ago I started getting so many downloads, my thoughts feel all jumbled. I decided it is best to just send out the loudest thoughts, even thought they don’t really follow a cohesive stream. Sorry for the mess that follows. Hopefully, something will benefit you on your journey, or at least be fuel for contemplation.

For in depth, historical information on the patriarchy, I recommend “The Creation of the Patriarchy” by Gerda Learner. This is a scholarly text researched and written by an historian, not just an opinion. Over time, men have been reduced to money (inherited or earned), and women are responsible for everything else (having and raising children, keeping house, emotional needs of all in her home).

Only in the recent past (100-150 years) have women been allowed to own property, have a job, control their own money, and safely leave an abusive relationship. For the purpose of this post, I’m saying the women were finally allowed to have boundaries. This is still a new skill, and I know a few women who can’t bring themselves to leave a bad situation, but at least they know it won’t change and they will eventually have to leave.

Here is my concern for men – the concept of money is changing rapidly, and they generally don’t understand how to use boundaries. If a man (or anyone primarily living from masculine energy) has their sense of self tied -up in money, this isn’t going to end well. Who are you without money? Will gender roles still exist? Not in the old way. Boundaries are another matter. We all need boundaries.

Men have just never needed boundaries. Until quite recently, men were always at the top of the food chain, so the idea of boundaries never even came up. Having boundaries is about personal responsibility. If you set a boundary and someone else continually breaks it, it is not for them to change, it is for you to leave. Have a calm, adult conversation about how important the boundary is and how it was broken, but if it keeps happening, it’s on you to either change your expectations or leave. That’s the thing about taking responsibility for yourself – it is up to you to make the change, because it is your boundary.

The reason this is coming up now is that the patriarchy is well on its way out. In the old system, blame was the preferred way to deal with masculine unhappiness. I once overheard two men talking about the one guy’s bad attitude… “I’m not your mother, your wife, or your girlfriend, so don’t throw that attitude at me.” In my personal experience, this sums up how many men are taught to deal with their unhappiness. Some younger females are also starting to adopt blame in lieu of boundaries.

On a more esoteric level, we are each being guided to balance our inner feminine with our inner masculine. Our masculine side gives us drive, while our feminine side brings us direction. Many of us in the Western world are heavy on the masculine, myself included. Lately, I’ve been redefining my own inner energies… I feel like I do better if I consciously wait for the feminine to lead (intuition, my body), then support with the masculine (action). My old way feels like I am dragging myself though life. Play with that idea a bit.

I don’t know where we’re going, but I do know it won’t resemble the past. Keep an open mind, and remember that all resolution starts within. This is what we came for!

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November 2023 has been tough. Everyone I know has been wrestling with old demons. I really feel this is the dying gasp of said demons, but even that knowledge doesn’t make it less terrifying. I’m not usually swayed by fear, but “terrifying” is the best word I have. There have been some beautiful experiences also, but overall, November has been tough.

It reminds me of a student pilot on a solo cross-country flight – hours of boredom interspersed by moments of sheer terror. The silver lining is that all we need to do is get out of our story long enough to see the support we have. Everything that has gone wrong this month happened when someone was there to help. I could only see that support after I dried my eyes and took the time to notice. You have support – always remember that.

I am enjoying a wonderful audio book called “The Midnight Library” by Matt Haig. I recommend it to anyone who has ever dreamed of a different life. I’m pretty sure that’s all of us. Must be why it’s so popular. Not sure why that’s important to share, but someone needs it.

I’m feeling much better about December, though I couldn’t tell you why. Maybe we will finally have time to integrate all this incoming energy. I don’t know about you, but my nervous system is shot. Spending a few weeks watching Harry Potter movies and barely moving is sounding better all the time. Utilize downtime right now – your system is rebooting.

We have one more energy wave on the 25th and a full moon on the 28th, so we aren’t quite out of the woods yet. Life only makes sense in hindsight, and I’m quite certain this is all part of the plan. It’s totally okay for “the plan” to suck sometimes. Instead of resisting, try accepting the fear and disappointment. If you can step into observer mode you can let life be what it is, letting it ebb and flow. Everything is temporary. We can do this.

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November 2023 has been a hole in my radar all year, and now I understand why. Timelines are dissolving so quickly that most of us keep changing destinies several times each day. Feel like today is stable, then everything shifts a few hours later? Join the club. Ginger tea helps with the physical effects of so much movement.

I would love to tell you this will be over soon, but It will take all of November to move us all to our highest timeline. While this is only three weeks it can feel like years, because we are processing so much information ever hour. If you are having a bad hour, remind yourself everything is about to change (again). “Our highest timeline” is still somewhat individual, meaning that while the collective is moving in the right direction, some are moving faster than others.

All we can really do is breathe through this process. Take November one breath at a time. Stay curious about who you will be next. Learn from the parts of yourself you are happy to release. Fall in love with the higher aspects of yourself. Most of all, keep breathing. Inhale and exhale, learn and release.

Listen to your body. Spend time in nature. This is a natural process that the body is built for, we just need to get our minds out of the way. We are returning to our natural rhythms, so this is the ideal time to communicate with your own body. Ask your body what it needs, and then do it. Relationships are built on consistency and trust. Trust your own nature.

If you are concerned about the world stage, please don’t be. Things are going to shift so many times before 2024, it will only be confusing to attempt following a story line. Peace spreads from within. Make peace with your own body, and see what happens. We got this!

If this info is helpful, you can follow my blog (lower right side of page) to have posts delivered directly to your inbox. You may also enjoy my books, Waking Up Indigo, Walking In Both Worlds, and What’s Next, available at Amazon, both in paperback and on Kindle. Love donations welcome and appreciated via PayPal (donate button). Please feel free to share and re-post these writings… we are all just walking each other home.