Walking In Both Worlds

Note: As the hierarchy falls, there are many feeling victimized. Please be aware of your current comforts, and your inner dialog, to avoid feelings of helplessness. Power structures will look quite different in a few short years. Be aware of how you are giving your power away with your thoughts and words. Make every effort to find your personal power everyday.

We tend to think of victim mentality with a flare of the dramatic… “Oh, poor me!” But it’s considerably more subtle and elusive. Anytime we feel powerless, we are feeling the effects of being a victim of circumstance. While we can’t change some circumstances, we can always adjust our mentality. Well, almost always. Let’s take a brief look at mental illness…

While mental illness has many complexities, which I am not qualified to discuss, their are 2 main categories to be aware of for our purposes: cognitive and physical. With a cognitive disorder, wrong thinking creates physical change (anxiety caused by thoughts can increased heat rate), and the person can benefit greatly from cognitive therapy, where they can learn coping skills. With a physical disorder, physical changes cause wrong thinking (like Alzheimer’s or schizophrenia), where cognitive therapy is of little use, because the physical brain no longer functions fully. The point is, if you have a relative with both Alzheimer’s and victim mentality, they lack the ability to change their thinking, so compassion is all we can offer. For the rest of us… mind your mind.

Victim mentality creeps into our thoughts and words in the form of excuses; all the reasons we have for not being happy, or not doing what we want with our lives. For every solution, there’s a problem. To be empowered means we have to completely accept our situation, then act where you can to change it. It is a mixture of old teachings and new… Buddhism tells us to just accept what is, and New Agers tell us to actively create our reality. Empowerment requires both. Fully accepting where you are, without resistance, removes fear and expense of energy on struggle. Then taking action, no matter how small, to change your situation activates your free will, which is like the power switch of the Universe.

Something to watch (listen) for is using victim language as currency. Caroline Myss has written about people using illness as social currency. Really listen to what people are using as currency… always telling you how broke they are, or how hard life is, or any number of stories. I’m not talking about sharing parts of their life in a general conversation. I’m talking about those people who have A TOPIC, that you know will come up, and will be discussed at length. Like your Great Aunt who always has to itemize her illnesses, medications, and procedures, and is offended if you don’t ask about her health.

This isn’t a judgement, just an awareness. Just be aware of the words people use to identify themselves, and their unwillingness to change. Ever though they ask for help solving their problems, no solution is ever good enough. They don’t want a solution, they want a problem. A solution would require change, and generally, suffering is preferable to change. Suffering is a known factor, while change requires faith and a willingness to explore the Mystery.

Now, turn that all inward. Listen to your own self-talk. Do you make excuses for your unhappiness? Replace “I would do this, BUT…” with “I would do this, BUT I am choosing to be a victim of circumstance.” How does that change the excuse? It is no longer a justification, but a choice. When you are ready, you can make a different choice.

Enablers are yet another aspect of this situation. Victim mentality, like so much, is just an addiction. And like any addiction, it requires a supplier. So while you may think you are just being compassionate company, you may actually be feeding an addiction. On one hand it’s a win-win, because Great Aunt Lulu gets to feel loved for her aches and pains, while the niece gets to feel useful by listening and making appropriate sympathetic noises, but no one is growing. At an ego level, being an enabler can be rewarding… but at what cost? Again, just be aware of the energy exchange, and how it propagates the issue.

As with so much, just the awareness of the dynamic will allow it to shift. You might easily change a few thought patterns, then really get stuck on one. That’s okay. Just sit with it, and accept where you are. Letting go of the struggle allows things to move. As you work this out inside yourself, you will begin to become more aware of the language others speak. Who are you surrounded by? What kind of stories do they replay? Remember, we become who we spend time with. Look at your 5 closest friends to see who you are becoming.

Most of all, mind your mind.

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As you enter into the higher realms of spiritual development, you begin to see the effect of your every thought on the world around you. The awareness actually becomes a bit painful, because you can not only clearly understand your own life, but also those around you, those you love. We each absolutely create our own suffering. It’s difficult to watch, and impossible to correct, except for ourselves. You will reach a point in your development when change is inevitable, and change usually costs us some (or all) of our relationships.

This is beyond the dramatic break-up, and the feeling of being alone. This is more of an allowing, and a complete dedication to inner growth. At some point you just realize growth is the end game, and all else is distraction. A convincing distraction, I’ll give you, but just a distraction. You come to a complete knowing that everything outside you is temporary, and only the light within is eternal. This becomes more than an ancient teaching, or a mental theory, and you feel it deep in your bones. At that point, you do everything you can to make that small glow a blazing fire.

This awareness seeps into every action, every word, every thought. You are constantly asking yourself, “Is this evolving me?” It sounds obsessive, but it is really an act of being fully present with yourself at all times. To monitor your every thought as an observer requires complete dedication, which for me is a consequence of Love. This is one of those mystical experiences (a Rumi moment) where the desire for Divine Union (union between body and Spirit) outweighs all else. Once you have the slightest taste of it, it becomes a consuming drive. Presence is addictive, it’s only leading up to that part that takes work.

Presence makes every moment eternal, because you live fully in the now. We spend most of our time projecting our consciousness into the past or the future, enjoying only fleeting glimpses of the present. It is meant to be the other way around. We need fleeting glimpses of the past and the future to remain on course, but life only really exists in the present moment. Yes, learn from the past, and plan for the future, but live in the now. Eternity exists here. Awareness brings us to this zero point of creation.

Living in the moment isn’t the same as hedonism, in fact, it is quite opposite. Hedonism asks “what do I want right now?” and spirituality asks “what will evolve me right now?” Just because an action isn’t being judged as right or wrong doesn’t make all actions equal. Yoga will evolve you faster than alcoholism. It just will. Neither one is wrong, but by saying “everything is spiritual”, one is missing the point of free will. Discernment is vital to spiritual growth. Discernment and free will guide your progress. You steer your ship, it isn’t at the whim of the tides.

Looking at it from the outside, it seems like a list of rules, requiring a great deal of discipline… no drinking, practice meditation, eat lightly, exercise, measure your words… But what if those are just observations of habits of those on the Path? What if these “rules” are really just a “fake it til you make it” strategy? What if, when you raise your vibration, your habits simply change to fully support your body, your life? That’s my observation. I have seen many people try to be spiritual by following a list of rules, but people whose light is brightest just live those “rules” because it feels right. They are fully accountable to themselves for their own wellbeing.

You are accountable, always and only, to yourself. You can’t make decisions based on someone else, nor can you just do nothing, expecting enlightenment to fall out of the sky. Every single action, word, and thought affect your very cells. They change your vibration, and like vibrations always find each other, people, places, and things. You create your world, both consciously and subconsciously, so it is in your best interest to bring awareness to all aspects of your being. You are accountable to you.

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Note: Although this was originally posted years ago, it is quite relevant today. The timeline split is visible, and old archetypes are being released. This time around, my physical  symptoms are less dramatic, and the awareness of choice is higher. For some, this is the first conscious awareness of this split. Please know you cannot do this wrong. Keep your vibration high, and the Universe will sort it out. Be gentle with yourself.
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Is this energy crazy, or what? Wow. Whole lifetimes are flashing before my eyes. I don’t mean past lives, I mean present possibilities – timelines. I think the strangest part for me has been the feeling of grief and loss when these visions come and go. People I will never meet… love I will never know. How can I be so affected by a glimpse into a possibility? It’s crazy. The important thing to remember is that with each dissolving timeline, a higher potential takes its place.

Those actively anchoring the Light for the New Earth have been putting their energy into bringing about the highest possible outcome for all, including Gaia. Please consciously join in this effort. Also, be aware there is more energy leaving the planet than coming in, so play with reversing the flow (from root chakra up and out through crown chakra). Know that whatever leaves your life is putting you on a higher path. Don’t cling. What is meant for you will stay (or show up).

A big part of what’s leaving are the energies of the old archetypes. So basically, the story structures of everything around us. Marriage is changing to Union, Community to Unity, Warriors with weapons to Warriors of Light, Power hierarchy to Cooperation, Greed to Support… everything. All the stories are changing. For kids born in the last decade, the picture of marriage, kids, and a house in the suburbs won’t even cross their minds. For people who are really attached to their stories, it’s going to look like social collapse. It isn’t. It’s evolution, and all Gaia’s children will thrive.

Let everything go. Don’t cling to a story. Don’t beat yourself up about the past, and don’t waste time worrying about the future. Release everything, and try to stay in the flow of your heart – Love & Gratitude will bring you to your highest calling. Whenever you notice you’ve fallen out of your heart, just release the issue, and recenter yourself.

And then there’s the physical side. Holy wow. It’s been extreme pain for me, mostly in my joints, teeth, and bones. Whatever is going on with you physically is okay. Love and support your body. These stories are actually encoded in our DNA, and live in various places in our bodies. As these stories dissolve, they must leave the physical, which feels pretty unpleasant. Drink lots of water, eat lightly, spend time outside, and take Epsom salt baths. Nurture yourself through this. And tell your body what a great job its doing. It is a living creature, separate from your consciousness.

Things will shift with the New Moon & Eclipse on February 26, but the fallout will continue until the equinox. You are being picked out of your old life, and placed on a higher path… don’t get me wrong, nothing about this is easy, yet it is so exciting. We are here to break new ground, and we’re doing great!

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*Note – This hatred of the physical is changing rapidly. To be on the easier side of this shift, strengthen your relationship with your body.

Misogyny is a hatred of women, but I want to expand the conversation to include all things of feminine energy, specifically the physical world. All things have both masculine and feminine energy. The masculine energy (spirit) combines with the feminine energy (matter) to create our physical existence. The illusion of separation is strong (fall from grace), thanks to our egos so masterfully holding the veil, but I assure you, both energies are present.

Somewhere along the way, we started blaming the physical (feminine) for this sense of separation from Source (masculine). Did the Yahweh cult begin misogyny, or did our collective misogyny birth this cult? Interesting question, but the bigger concern is where we are now, and how to correct the thinking. Women as a gender aren’t really the issue, it’s our loathing of the physical world, right down to our own bodies.

We are all homesick due to the illusion of separation, and it makes sense that we would innately want to shuffle loose the mortal coil to get back home, but then why did we leave? The physical isn’t all that bad of an experience, until you forget it’s just an experience and start to believe it is reality. Several thousand years ago we forgot. Ascetic spiritual practices started popping up, to lessen the grip of the body (self-inflicted torture, really), and punish the body for leading us astray with the pleasure of the senses. So the physical part was fun, and that was the problem. This belief was quickly applied to sex, and the mixture of masculine and feminine energy (similar to our own creation) was restricted, regulated, and generally held in low regard. Like sex was a symbol of our original fall from grace.

First it was women, then the senses, now even our planet is being abused to satisfy this primal idea that being in body is the reason we feel so far from the Divine. While we loathe life, we also fear death, having suppressed the circular pattern of mortality. And if you look at how you regard your own body (feminine energy), you may be shocked at how deep the misogyny goes. Do you complain about pollution of our planet while eating fast food, drinking soda or alcohol, or smoking? Do you enjoy physical highs (sex, food, coffee) but loath caring for your body with healthy food and exercise? When you’re physically sick or tired, do you lovingly care for yourself, or are you angry that you can’t do what you had planned for the day? So many daily examples of our general disgust with the physical experience.

The entire physical world is all the same energy, the Divine Feminine. Your body, the plants, the animals, the Earth itself.

We all know our current system is based on masculine energy – personal will over intuition, doing over being, conquering over nurturing. We have been taught from birth to ignore our bodies and emotions (body chemicals), and to create our lives with the mind and will power. Our bodies are to be conquered and held in submission to our will, or to be exploited for sensory amusement and gratification. It’s no wonder the whole thing is crashing down, being that it requires both polarities to exist.

Awareness is everything. Really consider how you treat your body. For most people, it’s either a trash can or an amusement park. Then look around you at the planet – pollution, environmental disasters, factory farms, GMO crops, the list goes on. See the correlation? If you want to save the Earth, start with being aware and adjusting your own attitude about your body, your own Divine Feminine. This isn’t a pep-talk about body confidence, this is pointing out that the physical is literally one thing, it’s fractal. Be a good steward to your own personal Gaia.

This is why the body is the Temple of the Soul – it is the container holding the Spirit. There is no separation. Loving our physical selves brings us into our bodies, which is where we are in touch with what we remember as home. It is where we can feel that original Divine Union, instead of the veil of separation. Treat your body with love and respect, as it is a Divine creation, just like the Earth. Your attitude towards the physical will become increasingly important as we move forward.

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One of the more interesting quirks of being me is that when I wonder why something is the way it is, my mind is flooded with images and information. Great for passing exams, a bit disturbing when looking at life choices. I have trained myself not to wonder for very long. I try to change that channel before I get the full broadcast.

In the last couple weeks, I have been drawn to things that are quite unusual for me: love stories. I’m really not the sentimental type, and have honestly never felt the depth of a love story before. As per my self-training, I didn’t think about it much, and figured it would pass in time, but it has been intensifying… enough to make me wonder. As I stared at this issue with the burning question of “why?”, I was met with the usual deluge of information. Here goes.

Top layer was about keeping a safe distance from the chaos of the world. I am of greater service to the world if I’m not bogged down in drama. Next layer was about keeping my heart open, and my emotions fluid. Then the messages extended to a much larger group (that’s you, dear reader). We are living the start of an epic love story. True Divine Union (unity of Body and Spirit). Return from the fall from Grace. The true return home. The beauty of it brought me to tears.

I didn’t get any requirements, other than to stay open to receive. As always, the Body is the Temple of the Spirit, so treat it accordingly. Be kind and gentle with yourself as we begin this journey back to the Heart of All. Weep openly, whenever you are moved. Stay fluid. Be ready for the unexpected, and don’t confuse the outer chaos for what is really happening here.

Fun fact – as above, so below; as within, so without. As the inner Union takes place, so will outer union. Soul family, on all levels will begin to gather. Humans usually find lovers based on loneliness or sexual attraction, neither of which ends well. The new paradigm is based on the heart, and soul recognition. Instead of outwardly searching, we magnetize others with our similar energies. Instead of dating apps, we strengthen our heart fields.

So there you have it. The epic journey begins. This life keeps getting less predictable, and more interesting, by the moment. I leave you with a quote from one of my favorite movies (Practical Magic): “But there are some things I know for certain: always throw spilt salt over your left shoulder, keep rosemary by your garden gate, plant lavender for luck, and fall in love whenever you can.”

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The body is the temple of the soul, we have just forgotten we are guests. Dr. Candace Pert has a great audio book called The Body is the Subconscious Mind, which is my personal experience, as well. I believe that our subconscious mind is really just cellular memory, some from this lifetime, and some passed down genetically. The body is its own system with a profound intelligence, we’ve just forgotten how to communicate with our bodies, instead opting to own and dominate them.

Most of us agree that we aren’t just physical beings, believing in an eternal energy or soul. If viewed in the polarity of masculine and feminine energy, the soul is masculine and the body is feminine, the two polarities combining to make a 3rd dimensional human. As with all things feminine, humans have spent thousands of years trying to eradicate this side of ourselves, loathing our mortal existence. I get it, I get homesick, too, but this method isn’t helping, and it’s starting to shift. More people are starting to care for our Earth and their bodies. They are just reflections of each other.

From the ancient ascetic religious practices to the obesity and drug addictions of today, we can easily see how we collectively feel about our physical existence, our feminine side. I know several people who think their bodies are amusment parks, here to enjoy without any consideration for physical wellbeing. Others demand a certain level of action from their bodies, like living on caffeine or working out constantly, even while their bodies are begging for a break. But what if we start to consider we are in partnership with a physical being? What if “our” body doesn’t belong to us, it is just being a host to our consciousness? Would you be a better guest?

What does this have to do with intuition? Everything. The body has its own intelligence and receives way more information than we can gather with our conscious minds, the challenge is in understanding and using it. Well, the first challenge is awareness, just knowing it’s there. The easiest way to begin is to establish a relationship with your body as a separate being, one you respect as a partner.

You know all those articles telling you what you should and shouldn’t eat, drink, and do? In my experience, that whole thing never ends well. You spend a short time on some regimen, you can’t stay on it (because it’s just another way to force your will onto your body), you fall into self-loathing, and end up disliking your body even more. No need to “should” all over yourself. It’s easier to come at it like a new friendship, with curiosity and lightness. Go ahead and have that cup of coffee, that glass of wine, and be open to how your body responds. Try not to judge it, just be aware of the subtle cues your body gives you, and respond appropriately. My body really reacts poorly to alcohol, I am not right for days even after a single drink. I could be all upset that I “shouldn’t” drink, but instead I happily choose to avoid alcohol because it’s hard on my friend, my body.

As your friendship with your body deepens you will begin to pick-up on many more subtle cues. Your body will give you information about not just your energy, but on others around you. This is where your intuition can really come through. Once you really know your body, and how it communicates, you’ll be surprised at all it can tell you.

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