You have only one job on the road to spiritual awakening: Make room. Spirit yearns for us just as much as we yearn for Spirit. Instead of chasing the Light, simple clear out the dark and the Light will fill the space. Shadow work (ego work) is our only job, everything else just flows naturally.

The amazing part is the lengths people will go to to avoid ego work. It’s impressive. Everything from addiction, to denial, to spiritual bypassing all in an effort to maintain the illusion of self. The body wants to live, but also accepts death. The ego, on the other hand, won’t even consider death, and will pull every dirty trick around to stay in complete control. You are NOT your ego, you are the observer. Your ego works for you, not the other way around, as long as you remain aware. Know Thyself. Know your ego’s tricks, and it no longer controls you.

Avoidance, in its many forms, is essentially an unwillingness to be fully present and aware. Granted, this is a skill, and takes practice, since most of us weren’t taught by example as children. Still, it is completely possible to learn at any age, with willingness and dedication, as would any new skill. Being fully present and aware also requires you to fully feel emotion as it occurs, and to take full responsibility for your actions. Two more things people aren’t accustomed to.

Many people have seen far enough past the boundaries of the ego that they run toward the Light. This has created an interesting phenomenon called spiritual bypassing. Basically, these folks try to go straight from initial awareness (just waking up) to enlightenment, without wading through the muck of the ego on the way. Please don’t do this. It’s a waste of your time, and it’s really annoying to those actually doing the work. More importantly, it always backfires. You can develop a “spiritual ego”, which only adds to the ego work when it all comes crashing down like a house of cards.

How do you know if you’re really doing ego work? It’s messy. It’s terrifying, it’s humbling, and it isn’t any fun. As you get better at it, the processing gets faster, but it still sucks. So why would anyone want to do it? Well, the more ego stuff you remove, the more room you make for the Light to fill. This allows your frequency to raise, your body to heal, and Love to occupy every cell. Ultimately, this results in your Higher Self being able to descend into your body. True Divine Union.

The first step is always awareness. I’m not saying you can never take a night off again, I’m simply saying be aware and be honest with yourself. “I’m feeling overwhelmed, and consciously choose to have a glass of wine and watch a movie” is totally different than just always having wine with dinner to “wind down”. Numbing out (by any means) is something we all do, but you may be surprised how often you do it, once you really observe yourself. Stop justifying, stop denying, and really own your every action. It’s empowering… after the initial shock. Once you own it, you can change it.

Once you have glimpsed into the hold your ego has, it’s time to get to work. Everyone is different and will be best served by a different path, just be sure the one you choose really works with the ego, instead of bypassing it. There are many options, from psychotherapy to support groups, and tons of valuable books on the subject. Just pick a path, and get to work… on yourself.

You have one job.

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It seems odd to say, with so very much going on in the world, that 3D reality has come to an end, but here we are. The energetic support for the experiment called ‘ego’ has dissolved completely. Egos will continue to run on momentum, some with greater momentum than others, but it will be a brief and exhausting endeavor.

If you have followed me for any length of linear time, you know my work centers around the ego, and how to train it to support our growth. I’m not saying to give up on that work, only that it will naturally come to an end, as the ego is incorporated into your own light. This is a very different kind of work, involving self-love and surrender to your own Higher Self.

My time on this planet has shown me, repeatedly, that I’m not unique, just early. Yes, we are all unique expressions of Divine Light, but I mean that I am at the front of a wave of change. I’m not part of the forerunners (thank the gods!), but I’m at the start of the first big wave, maybe 20% of the population. The majority isn’t far behind. My whole life has been lived here, on the crest of this wave, so what’s happening to me now is headed for us all, shortly. I write to help us all prepare, and mostly to assure you, you aren’t alone.

It’s hard to describe the dissolving ego, but hopefully you can make some sense of my attempt. It comes as a series of epiphanies, first shocking, then freeing. With each one I can clearly see how the old belief was limiting me. At that point, the entire idea goes away. No struggle, no reprogramming, just “ah-ha!” and it’s done. I think we’ve all experienced something like this at some point, but this feels totally different. It’s like a sudden release… like holding your breath underwater, followed by the freedom of breaking through the surface and breathing again. It brings a sense of joy and expansion.

One of my personal epiphanies has been about other people’s choices. A friend told me once that we’re all just bumper cars, running into each other at exactly the right time to slightly change the trajectory of both. I have always liked that analogy, but I suddenly understood it from the view of an oversoul. An oversoul is one being, living about 300,000 separate human lives. From that perspective, the oversoul is gaining experiences from everything we all do, no matter how hard it is to watch from the ego level.

This knowledge gives me the freedom to watch the stories people create as part of a large book of experience. Now I can watch without worry. This is a big thing for me. Not only no worry, but also admiration for their willingness to create their story, no matter how complicated it is. I am honored to be a witness, and relieved of all duty to become involved. Freedom.

For those working up to this level of freedom – please remember your boundaries. Just because all paths are beautiful from above, doesn’t mean you can drop all personal boundaries. Not yet. I don’t feel I will need to be as on guard at this point, but I also don’t feel like leaving a bad situation would be a challenge. If it isn’t a challenge, it isn’t likely to happen. Challenge is a learning opportunity, and we are here to learn.

Along with the epiphanies, there is a distinct change in my view of death. I’ve always been more comfortable with death than most, but now it seems like a very thin veil, indeed. I’ve even had dreams of practicing dying, and melting into the void. They are quite peaceful and freeing. I’ve had quite a few training sessions in my life during dreamtime, but never how to die. Strange, but also liberating. Like the true freedom of choice has been restored.

The last thing, which seems really odd to me, is that my emotions are right at the surface. I have been told I’m emotional as a Vulcan, so this one’s new. When I’m happy, I’m really happy. When I’m sad, I cry easily and openly. I have a full array of emotion, but after it’s expressed, it’s gone. There is no story to dwell on, and keep the chemicals of emotion pumping.

I guess the point is just to allow the next step, and know that it won’t be everyone at once. We are all adding our story to the whole, as we move into unity consciousness. Honor your place as a witness to the end of an era. Most of all, know you aren’t alone.

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Suddenly, everything is speeding up. Things are changing with every breath, and our awareness increases to witness it. We are the ones we’ve been waiting for. We are the creators in action, and in training. So how best can we use this time? What will we choose to create? More importantly, how do we direct this energy efficiently? Let’s explore creating in a new way.

This time isn’t about doing, it’s about being. So, throw out those “to-do” lists, and turn your free will focus inward. The foundation of a creation is the feeling of it. Most of us want peace, love, and joy, but the brain is programmed to find lack. We want peace, but see all the division in the world. We want love, but have a history of unloving experiences. We want joy, but have had to struggle in life. That’s why it’s so important to keep the focus inward, and remain fully present, in the current moment.

1 – Open the heart with gratitude for something currently in your life. Be grateful for your health, or your home, or your support system, or your pets, or anything that you already have. This is an important practice to do everyday. It keeps you close to that open-heart space, which is the space of creation.

2 – Now, start to dream of things that bring you joy. It doesn’t need to be practical or reasonable, in fact it shouldn’t. You don’t want your mind getting in the way with a plan of action. Find things that generate warmth in the heart, regardless of outward limitations. Visualize these things, and let the feeling fill your body. This makes you a vibrational match. Let your creation find its own way to you.

3 – Return your awareness to the present moment. As in the first step, feel gratitude for your current surroundings. Hold this feeling for as long as you can. As you continue through your day, return to this space, and this practice, as often as possible.

There are two pitfalls to be wary of:  First, never become discouraged that your dream isn’t your current reality. By doing this, your vibration drops into lack, and it negates the work. Stay in gratitude.  Second, don’t stay stuck in the dream, and forget to be fully present and grateful for your current existence. Living in a dreamworld is just denial. Denial keeps us from being fully present, thus our creation never becomes fully present.

Also, keep in mind that the “how” isn’t up to us. By creating in this way, the Higher Self moves the pieces on the board specifically to bring you into contact with your vibrational match. If you do this practice, and suddenly get a divorce, just know that relationship wasn’t compatible with your highest dreams. Let go of how it looks on the outside. Everything is happening for you, not to you.

We are all in training. You cannot do this wrong. You can be more efficient or less efficient, but you can’t mess it up. We all get better with practice. There is actually quite a lot of “doing” here, as it requires your mental focus. It may be exhausting at first, but you will build stamina as you go. It’s like a marathon – it requires training. Keep at it. It will put you in the creator’s seat.

If you have no idea what you want, or what to dream, dream for the world… world peace, brotherly love, grace, ease, and joy. Try the Metta Prayer:
“May all beings everywhere be happy and free, and may my thoughts, words, and actions contribute in some way to happiness and freedom for all.”
Put your energy into service for the whole. Or as a good friend reminds me, “Use your powers for good.”

It’s time. We were built for this. Let’s create a New World with this quickening.

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Has anyone else noticed how the polarity of belief is starting to blend? Here in the USA, we have very polarized beliefs associated with politics, and the poles are well defined. Or, they used to be. Now it’s common to see people with strong political affiliation leaving the group narrative, on just a few subjects (for now). It’s encouraging, but strange. The same thing is happening within.

From the internal experience, it’s like an energetic roller coaster. One minute in total bliss, the next terrified for no reason. A few days ago, I think I experienced every possible emotion at least twice. This is quite unusual for me, and my Vulcan non-emotional baseline. The same with my physical body – one minute I feel fantastic, the next I wake from a two-hour nap.

This may be how we dissolve the obvious timeline split. By letting each run through my body, without taking hold, all experiences are complete… like an electrical charge going to ground. The key is to let them pass without holding on. No stories, just flow. All the crazy emotions and physical symptoms aren’t necessarily yours. Let it go, see what stays. I always return to my blissful baseline, but sometimes it takes a few days.

How best to cope? Devotional self-care. Feel what you feel. Mentally stay positive. Seems like opposite instructions, but it isn’t. When I feel my body go into fight-or-flight, I use my mind to thank my body for all its workings in handling the situation. If I try to suppress the feeling, it only gets stronger. If I create a story to support the emotion, it will stay until I release the story. You can feel terrified, fully feel and acknowledge it, and still mind your mind. Mental mastery.

This goes for physical symptoms, as well. My throat chakra has been doing a thing for about a week. I’m assuming it’s an upgrade. It comes with all the associated throat chakra things – sinus issues, neck pain, difficulty swallowing, etc. I’m sure I’ll know if it becomes an issue for Western medicine. For the most part, I cheer my body on, and support it with diet, exercise, and sleep.

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I plan for the energies to keep blending, as the poles soften. Keep balanced, and let it flow, without making it personal. We are all loved and supported… always. We were built for this.

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It would be fabulous to always learn from the good examples shown by our closest tribe, but it just doesn’t always work that way. I have had some brilliant lessons bestowed by gentle observation of role models, but many of my deeper lessons come from contrary teachers. You know, those people who show you exactly what you want to avoid in the future. Those who show us who we don’t want to be, and how not to behave.

In my life, knowing what I don’t want is usually more valuable than knowing what I do want. Why? Knowing what I don’t want eliminates a few possibilities, while allowing an open door for what comes in next. Thinking I know exactly what I want is limited to my past experiences. My Higher Self has a much better idea of what will make me happy, and I don’t want to limit that.

Some of my greatest teachers have been the ones showing me how not to do it. I had a friend for years who always kept me on-path, just by being so far off-path. She always showed me the hardest way to do everything, thereby allowing me to avoid it. A friend? Of course! Knowing it’s wrong for me isn’t the same as thinking it’s wrong for another.

Discernment and judgement are very different. Discernment is knowing what’s right for you. Judgement is wondering why everyone else isn’t taking the same path. It’s a subtle, but powerful, distinction. It takes practice to stay on the discernment side. I have to remind myself all the time ‘not my circus, not my monkeys’. Only my path is my business.

Looking at the world stage in 2020 give us a multitude of contrary teachers, both personally and collectively. We get to witness people drowning in fear, and leading with hate. We get close-ups of all the options we don’t want. Don’t mistake this for the world going to hell in a hand basket. Look at it as a whole bunch of contrary teachings. Some of the things I have decided not to be: fearful, close-minded, hardhearted, and stubborn. And you know what? I can cross those off my list, and still keep the door open to other possibilities.

This has also been happening in my personal life. People show up, just to show me what I don’t want. Then others show up to show me what I do want. It’s like jumping from an icy river to a warm natural spring. The difference is so striking, I can’t miss it. Sometimes I need to be hit with the extremes to get my full attention. I think this is what’s really happening to all of us, at this point. Reality is just wanting our full attention, so we can more forward with awareness.

We now get to create with the conscious mind, instead of the subconscious. We are always creating, and our subconscious creation isn’t so pretty. No worries. We get to experience the extremes, and make a conscious choice. Conscious creation. That’s what we came for. Just look at your contrary teachers, and decide how not to behave. We got this.

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