Walking In Both Worlds

I would love to tell you what’s going on out there, but this one is above my pay grade. It’s loud and uncomfortable, with a few scattered moments of pure bliss. One minute it feels like the pit of hell, the next it’s all sunshine and rainbows. Feels like another timeline jump.

I can tell you the incoming energy has been so strong it is pushing all the darkness out, an individual and collective purge. I usually ground the energy (through my body, into the Earth), but there is a greater need to help release the old, so I’m moving energy in the opposite direction. I’m moving it up and out my crown. This has been very helpful in relieving some physical ascension symptoms.

Speaking of ascension symptoms – wow! Mostly lungs and heart, but also headache, sinus pain, tinnitus, muscle cramps, and dramatic temperature changes. And then there’s the emotional outbursts, and general lack of focus. It’s been a rough week. I’m not planning on much improvement before the next eclipse on February 26, 2017. Just know you aren’t alone.

Keep putting one foot in front of the other, but allow the Universe a lot of flexibility right now. We are being moved to where we need to be. Free will is still required, and you need to take action in your life, but be happy with baby steps. Above us things are moving so fast all I hear most of the time is static, but on this plane, it’s like walking through mud. That’s ok.

I’ve found the most helpful things for me are to release whatever comes up (emotional or mental), keep my focus small (baby steps), and trust the Universe to put me right where I need to be. Also, your unseen team (Guides, Guardians, Angels) is readily available whenever you call. I talk out loud to mine several times a day, and can definitely feel them respond to me. You are supported.

As usual, and more so right now, stay connected. Meditate, spend time outside, sing, dance, whatever you do. Try to connect several times a day, just a few minutes here and there. Right now we all have ADD, so an hour of meditation is pretty tough, anyway.

Be gentle with yourself. All of our dimensions are being affected by this one. You are doing great. This, too, shall pass. You are supported and loved more than you know. Thank you for assisting in this transition.

The energy is amazing right now! Can you feel it? Let’s give it a go…

Love is a tricky thing to define, because we use that word to mean so many different experiences. Usually, we actually mean attachment, not love. Love isn’t confined by behaviors and roles, it’s much bigger than that. Would you want the best for someone, even if that meant never seeing them again (unconditional)? Or is your love for them based on a story or a chemical reaction (conditional)? Maybe that’s why it is said that the purest love is a mother’s love… she is fully aware that her child will leave one day to start its own life, and she only wants them to be happy.

Now let’s pretend you love yourself that way. Are you attached to a story, or are you willing to do anything for your happiness? I don’t mean selfish happiness, I mean true fulfillment. This is nothing money can buy, and it is only available by looking inward. If you just get the ego story out of the way, it’s in you, around you, creating all of our reality. Love is the fabric of the Universe.

Now we’re going to practice being totally in love. You don’t need another person for this, in fact, please don’t use a human. What else can you fall in love with? A tree, a pet, the moon… anything that makes you feel open and grateful. Now focus on your subject, and let all the stories fall away, leaving the feeling. Let it deepen and surround you. Feel it pulsing with your own heartbeat. Ahhh… to be in love!

Love always brings a sense of openness and lightness. Ma’at is the Egyptian Goddess who weighs your heart after death, on a balance scale with a feather. Makes sense. Joy, gratitude, and love free the heart, and it feels like floating. Dense emotions, like anger or fear, feel closed and heavy, a burden to carry. “Lighten up” becomes quite literal.

As with anything, this skill will improve with practice. Why would you want to? For one thing, it feels amazing! More importantly, Love raises your vibration. The more you produce it inside, the more it is reflected in your life. And mostly, this is how Heaven makes it to Earth – through you, one fleeting Love bubble at a time. Embrace it, encourage it, revel in it. Love really does make the world go round.

Enjoy the energy. Know that you are supported in unseen realms. Know that you are loved. Know that you are Love.

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I’m pretty sure we all know the basics, even if we don’t do them. Taking care of yourself includes a healthy diet, regular exercise, and plenty of sleep. We understand the physical part. Most of us even understand the mental and emotional parts: Be aware of what you read and watch for entertainment, avoid drama and negativity, even carefully choose what music you listen to regularly. All this has been said; you are what you consume, on all levels. I want to take the discussion a little deeper.

Balance. Balance between your own masculine and feminine energies. By being the observer and directer of your life, you can protect the feminine sacred space, while guiding the active force of the masculine. Boundaries and action. That’s the energetic blueprint of self-care.

Think of a child. The womb is the safe space for new life to develop. Even after the child enters the world, it must be nurtured and guided before it is ready to embark on its own adventure. Many of us go about life in the opposite manner, running off in all directions, without the protected space and guidance required for lasting success.

Your feminine energy is the part of you that creates a space, first in your mind then in your schedule. It needs to hold that space to encourage and guide the masculine energy of action. For example, you want to start a yoga practice. First, the idea forms in your mind, until it is so strong you do some research, and can see yourself doing yoga. You are mentally creating a space for something to grow. Then, you make room in your schedule to go to class twice a week. You are creating a space in your life to guide and encourage this new endeavor. Actually showing up and doing it is a result of your masculine energy of action. Boundaries and action.

Why break it down this way? Well, all too often we aren’t able to create lasting change, and without sufficient understanding of the process, we simply fall into shame and guilt, only adding to our frustration. By taking a step back into the role of observer, and seeing the process of change as a dance of inner energies, it allows for a new awareness.

It’s also worth mentioning what self-care isn’t, because our egos are so good at illusion and distraction. Checking-out isn’t self care. A night on the town getting drunk, vegging out in front of the tv, or treating yourself to the extra slice of cake, isn’t self-care, it’s checking out. Anything that results in a hangover or bloating isn’t care. We all do this to some degree, so don’t judge yourself,  just don’t mistake it for caring for yourself.

Pampering yourself may be included in self-care, but be sure it isn’t the whole package. A trip to the spa, or a weekend retreat make great additions, but don’t make up for daily wear-and-tear. Good food, plenty of rest, meditation, and some sort of physical activity are a daily ritual of self-care. If you are always running yourself ragged, but you think it’s ok because you get a massage every week, you are using that massage as recovery. The goal is to make a life you don’t need to recover from.

And don’t forget joy. Laughter, connecting with friends, gratitude journals, and anything that lifts your heart. This may seem like a lot when you look at it as a to-do list, but it’s really an outline for a lifestyle. Self-care is right up there with shadow (ego) work in creating an amazing life. You’ll be spending every tiny moment with yourself, so it’s totally worth it. Balancing boundaries and action. Take care of you.

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Memory has always fascinated me. Or at least, most people’s lack thereof. I’m only talking here about healthy adults, without any kind of disease or disability affecting the process of memory. Never feeling quite at home as a human, how the mind works is a constant source of amazement. How can some people remember nothing, while others have a photographic memory? More importantly, does it even matter? I believe it does, and that memory is tied directly to spiritual awakening.

All the esoteric knowledge points to memory as a vital part of spiritual development. When we are born we “forget” where we came from, and when we awaken we “remember”. No one teaches us anything, they just remind us of what we have forgotten. The story of Isis healing her partner, Osiris, by piecing him back together, or “re-membering” him. Memory is a big deal spiritually, but how does that look on a human level?

We all know the ego likes to mess with our memories, blocking things that differ from our beliefs, and embellishing what supports our patterns. We know that memories change over time, so many consider them unreliable. Here’s my current theory: If the person is ego-driven, then their memory is only utilized to support the ego; if a person is less ego-bound, then they are free to remember a much wider array of experiences and information.

We all have that friend who only remembers an experience if it is a peak high or low for them personally, but never has any recollection of what anyone else went through. It’s a very behaviorist existence – avoid pain, seek pleasure. Yes, we all do this at varying degrees, but I’m talking about people who live there most of the time. If memory is only used to seek pleasure, avoid pain, and bolster the ego, we are talking about some pretty animalistic behavior, but it may be a whole new angle on the nature vs. nurture debate.

The people I know with the best memories aren’t attached to the experience or information. Numbers are just numbers, facts are just facts, and experiences are just experiences, so they can remember them all, without picking the ones that support their ego. It’s not that they don’t have negative experiences, just that it isn’t what holds their story together. These folks have a sense of self outside of the ego story.

That said, we all fall along a continuum between the two. What’s more interesting, is that we are at different points on the line all the time. Told you memory is fascinating!

This also explains selective memory. Some people are great with facts and figures, but can’t remember interpersonal details. Are they ego-bound, but the ego has an attachment to being smart? Is their ego only triggered in personal interactions? I know some very intelligent people who do some pretty unconscious things, so the ego is playing a role.

This also explains abusers. I know a few people who had really abusive parents, and when they tried to discuss the issues (years later, as adults), the abuser had no recollection of the situation. Of course, that’s adding insult to injury, but maybe the abusers were so ego-bound that they really can’t remember the situation. My guess is they never will. I think this is why there is rarely an apology for abuse.

Even though I had an amazing childhood, there were several times I consciously chose to be less conscious, just because being awake was so painful. While I have vivid memories starting around 1-year-old, there are places (after choosing to be asleep) where I have very spotty and vague memories. Even though I am more awake now than I’ve ever been, with the coping skills to sustain it, I can’t get back those blank spots.

Then there is the other end – channeling. When people are so far from their ego, even briefly, they don’t have much memory of the information that comes through them. When I write or counsel I only remember broad topics, never detail. In my “human” life I have a detailed memory, but when information flows through me, I can’t hang onto it. So either end of the spectrum diminishes memory.

For years, I’ve believed that high I.Q. is just a good memory. The ability to adapt to new information requires a memory of the old. Finding patterns requires remembering a flow of information. As we collectively awaken, will the average I.Q. rise? Does meditation improve memory, not because of relaxation, but because it reminds us who we are? Sure will be interesting to watch.

Think back on your own memories… why did you pick those ones to hang onto? What areas are you currently trying to forget? Find your own patterns. And most of all, remember who you are.

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As you know by now, I love words, and how we use them to build concepts. The definitions I use aren’t the “right” ones, but it’s good to be really clear about meaning when you use a word, especially in conversation. One time I was talking to a co-worker, and used a word that to me meant “tree-hugging hippie”, but quickly found out that to him it meant “devil worshiper”. That’s a conversation stopper. The word was “pagan”. So let’s explore some words, and the concepts they represent…

First, let’s talk about observation. If I notice that you are wearing a blue shirt, we can all agree, that’s observation. The confusing part of this concept to me is that if I notice other (testable and mutually agreed upon facts), it’s considered judgmental. For example, I notice someone is obese, or short, or disabled, or even really smart. Why are humans stuck on the idea that equality requires homogeny? Observation does not include an assignment of better or worse.

Next, I may form an opinion based on my observation combined with my conditioning. For me, I consider the original information to be purely sensory input, until my brain starts adding right and wrong / good and bad. Noticing a blue shirt is one thing, deciding it looks either really good or really bad on that person is another. The longer I dwell on a subject, all the while adding commentary, lets me know how strongly opinionated I am about it.

Then we come to judgement. I have spent years trying to decipher this one, and I’ve boiled it down to this: Judgement is just a verbalized opinion. Once your opinion leaves the confines of your head, and enters the world around you, it will be noticed by others. If a person always gives compliments (positive judgements), then people feel relaxed in their presence. If they aways criticize, then people feel a bit on edge. One thing is for sure, if a person consistently verbally expresses their opinions, they will express them about you, as well, for better or worse.

Ending a sentence with “but that’s just my opinion” doesn’t make it any less of a judgement. Try it on… if someone tells you “your hairs looks bad” or “your hair looks bad, in my opinion” does it feel any different? People don’t really like to own their judgements, so they soften it by saying it’s just an opinion. It gives the speaker a little comfort zone of denial, but the words hit just as hard.

This is another one of those head scratching moments for me. Why do some people feel the need to constantly narrate their opinions? Are they seeking validation? Do they think the rest of us are missing something without their opinions? Do they just like the sound of their own voice? I’m sure it different for each person, but it’s a fascinating thing to watch. Like a blind person touching walls to define the space, their verbal chatter seems to define their world. Hmmm… never a dull moment, watching muggles.

Judgement also involves emotional attachment. It feels sticky. It usually includes “should” or “shouldn’t”, and can be directed at the self or others. It is generally negative and controlling. “I shouldn’t have eaten that ice cream, now I have failed at my diet.” “They should go to jail for speaking against war, it’s unpatriotic.” Lots of misguided control. Lots of condemnation. A black and white view of the world, usually based on conditioning. Pretty unpleasant stuff, really.

Many spiritual teachings warn us to watch our words. Words are powerful magic, both spoken and written. Beyond asking yourself if it is true, necessary, and kind before you speak, the deeper concern is asking yourself what your motivation is for sharing. Why are you speaking?  Are you being helpful or controlling? Are you sharing information to keep people informed, or  divided? What is really driving your need to speak? Know thyself.

Discernment is the decision you make for yourself, without attachment to anyone else’s behavior. Discernment feels very neutral, with no emotional charge. It’s isn’t a decision that needs to be shared or validated, it’s just what right for you. Birth control is an area of personal discernment. People try to make it political and emotional, but in the end, everyone needs to make the choice they need to make.  When we use discernment, we can see many sides to a situation, we weigh the options, and make a choice with a clear head. Then we let it go. Discernment doesn’t have strings attached.

And we just have to mention alternative facts. Those are just lies. I completely understand that “facts” change over time with our scientific perception (the world is no longer considered flat, nor does the sun revolve around it), but we collectively agree on things so we can communicate. We should always be open to new possibilities, and keep questioning social norms, but let’s not just start making stuff up to see if it catches on. We collectively agree to call the sky blue, so giving an “alternative fact” of it being orange isn’t in any way helpful to communication. Just don’t do it. Alternative realities and parallel universes are a different matter, but we always qualify them as “alternative”, not “fact”.

Then there are theories… like this one. There is no right or wrong, just an attempt to explain the world around me. All I can hope is that my rambling sparks your own thought process. I just want to throw out some possibilities for you to ponder. Do we really spend too much time thinking, or just too much time playing with our opinions? I leave it for you to discern.

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There are so many articles out there right now about the toxic relationship between an empath and a narcissist, obviously written by those who have been hurt, and feel manipulated and betrayed. I have a different take on the situation. Saw that one coming, didn’t you?

First, let’s change the labels of the groups. No more good vs. bad stuff. Instead of empath we will say awake (soul driven), instead of narcissist let’s say asleep (ego driven). Language matters. We can reduce the polarity, as well as provide a much more accurate assessment. Not only that, but I personally know people who are empathically gifted (they can physically feel other people’s emotions), but are very much asleep.

Second, know that all of us operate on a sliding scale between the two, and we change position regularly. We can be very awake, then suffer a loss (like a death or an illness), and go back to sleep to avoid the pain. People self-medicate all the time with alcohol, social excess, and promiscuous sex to avoid living consciously. Being awake can be tough. We all check out from time to time.

Third, and probably most importantly, we need to understand that most manipulative behavior is subconscious. People (generally) don’t consciously manipulate; that takes much more energy and planning than most are even capable of. The ego, however, has full access to the power of the subconscious, and will do anything to avoid harm. All of us are manipulated by our own egos, to some extent. It still isn’t right by any means, but thinking someone is consciously manipulating you is giving them way too much credit (and power).

Communicating with those still asleep is almost impossible, at least about anything important to the relationship. Ego defenses go up, and rational thought goes out the window. This is where we get all the passive-aggressive behaviors, and the emotional manipulation. Ever try to voice a concern about your feelings, only to have your partner turn it around, and point out how hurt they are? This is the kind of subconscious behavior that runs the muggle world. You can’t break through their ego shield, but many of us keep trying for way too long.

Another issue is projection… mostly on the part of the awakened person. See, we think projection is limited to negative stuff, but it isn’t. As we awaken, we get more sparkly, and we tend to see our own Light reflected in others – we see Light that hasn’t been embodied yet. The fact is everyone has an amazing soul, but not everyone lives from their soul. When you begin to live from your own soul, you see the highest potential in others. I don’t mean “he would be so successful if he just had confidence,” I mean “Wow! He embodies the Divine Masculine!” In reality, he could embody Divinity, if his ego wasn’t running the show. It is entirely up to us to distinguish potential from embodied reality.

I think the hardest part for the awakened one in these relationships is taking full responsibility for getting sucked in, having to leave, and not repeating the pattern. In other words, to awaken even further, become more aware, and reclaim our personal power. It’s tough to admit there were signs you ignored. It’s not fun to know you allowed this damage to happen. Forgive yourself. Forgive yourself for being human. We all do crazy things for love, even forget who we are. You always get lessons in the process. You will heal.

Instead of a list of things to avoid, I want to offer a few things to pay attention to. As we become more aware, we can make choices that support our evolution.

Do actions and words mach the sparkly soul? We all have off days, and no one is perfect, but is there constant negativity going on, in word or deed?
Are words followed by action? Do they do, or just dream? We all need a little daydream in our lives, but plans require action to materialize.
Are they consistent? Again, we all have off days, so don’t expect perfection, but intermittent reward is a major ego trick. If some behavior is really important to you, and the other person agrees to it, it should be a permanent change. If it only changes briefly after a fight, that’s a big sign.
Is communication open? Are you comfortable raising concerns? If your communications are filled with tears, blame, and guilt, then there isn’t much actual communication going on.
Do you both own your baggage? We all have baggage, but insisting the other person carry yours is completely unreasonable.
Are you both dedicated to becoming better people? If you are both dedicated to your own evolution, then you can help each other grow, instead of tearing each other down.

There are those who see the signs, but think they are strong enough to wait for the person they love to wake up. It just doesn’t work that way. People don’t wake up by following your example, people wake up by shock. Keeping someone safe in a relationship is just giving them a warm blanket to keep sleeping under. I’m so sorry – this one is really hard for me, too – you can’t awaken someone before they are ready. Ever. And forcing yourself to stay at a lower vibration will cause suffering and illness. It just does. The only way out, is out.

The awakened soul must reclaim their power by forgiving themselves, being clear with their boundaries, and letting go of those who are still sleeping. You will heal. You will love again. But first, you must come to terms with the situation. Leave them to their slumber, and move on. Reclaim your power.

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The last few days have been very strange. Like the Universe is throwing things at me just to see how I’ll react. It feels like a placement test for timelines. Where do I want to be? Do I want to keep this behavior, or try something new? To some extent, this has been happening for months, but the last 5 days have been surreal.

We had an ice storm the night before I had a full day of appointments. Before, I may have canceled everything, or at least reacted with apprehension, but I could feel something else at play. Before each step of the day, and there were some strange turns, it felt like a still-point, like I was outside of time. I could clearly see the choice I was conditioned to make (and the accompanying emotion), along with at least two other options. It was like time was holding its breath, waiting for me to pick a path. Surreal.

I get the feeling this will be happening a lot this month. We are being invited to consciously use our free will. No more automatic reaction, no more conditioning, just choice. And please remember two things: There is no one judging your choices, and you cannot choose for someone else. 

No judgement, just choice. No right and wrong, just where you want to be. I have been making my decisions based on who I want to be when I grow up… feelings of joy and gratitude, and asking which choice opens my heart. If my Higher Self was calling the shot, what would they do? The Universe responds only to frequency, so no one is being rewarded or punished. Promise. And we are getting this beautiful moment of stillness before we make our next move.

You can only do you. No matter how much you love someone, or how attached you are to a story, you can’t choose for them. You can choose to stay with them at their lower vibration (with health consequences), but you cannot make people evolve. Your free will is limited to your life. It’s that simple. Let people be where they are, and be willing to lead by example. For the best experience, choose Love (not attachment).

When making these choices, try to keep in mind your end goal. Going with what “feels” right has limited results here. Addictions to feelings of familiarity and security, as well as chemical addictions to various emotions will cloud the “feels right” thing. Try to focus on where you plan to end up, and then feel the actual health of your body, not just what feels good. Heroin and cheesecake won’t bring physical health, just as familiar feelings of anger and martyrdom won’t bring emotional health. Use discernment when feeling into a choice.

So free will is the thing right now. We actually get to see it in the making… how cool is that? Anchor the Light by being the change. It’s only a choice away.

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Some people equate spirituality with passivity, like if you aren’t sitting quietly watching the world go by, then you’re doing it wrong. Heaven forbid you ever have an opinion, or *gasp* get involved in anything even remotely political. Yep, it’s all unicorns and rainbows from the outside. The truth, as any spiritual student can tell you, is quite the opposite. Spirituality is an active process, and we spend a good amount of time and energy wrestling with our own shadows.

This personal shadow work helps us make more room for the unicorns and rainbows, but it is an ongoing process, requiring some serious dedication. This work not only allows us to hold more Light, it strengthens our core being. It builds spiritual muscle. The spiritual path leads inward, where you figure out who you truly are, what you believe, and why. Know thyself, and you will have the keys to the Universe. But knowing thyself includes the dark, human parts. Spiritual warriors aren’t afraid of the (their) dark. We learn how to work through it with amazing efficiency.

When we encounter darkness in the world around us, we are prepared to meet it head-on. Because we know ourselves, we can easily tell the difference between an ego trigger and something that actually offends our soul. An ego trigger is “Wow, that’s irritating”, while a soul activator is “Not on my watch”. When a spiritual warrior gets to that point, action comes swiftly, because we know the only way out is through. That’s why it is completely natural for “spiritual” people to march in protest. The two major marks of a love-based action are unity and non-violence. I wouldn’t be a bit surprised to see our language change from “protest” to “solidarity gathering”, simply because so many spiritual warriors are leading these things, and energy is better spent for something than against something.

There is also another layer to think about. We are currently uniting two very different realities – the 3rd and the 5th dimensions. Some of us are acting as the bridge right between the two, so it is normal that we occasionally bounce to each extreme. I aim for balance, but one day I’m all Love & Light, the next day (or even hours later) I’m sobbing under a blanket, or having a political debate online. I didn’t fail at spirituality. Neither did you. These occurrences are shorter and less frequent as I become aware of what’s happening. It’s tough to be the bridge. It truly is walking in both worlds.

So tend to yourself, and show compassion toward your fellow spiritual students, when the human side comes out. Try not to aim it at anyone, and try not to take it personally when it’s dropped at your door. If you see someone struggling to hold the Light amidst all this chaos, let them know they aren’t alone. I’ll hold your sign, while you take time to recenter yourself. We are always stronger when we are balanced. We are always stronger together.

So unplug, go meditate, and know we will hold the line for you. Then I’ll take my turn. Return to a place of Love, then you are stronger to lift the dark. Remember the unicorns and rainbows are why we do this work… and they are waiting for us to clear the path. We are loved and supported. We are never alone. We are the ones we have been waiting for.

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This is just a personal pondering…

This is another one of those concepts that has been adulterated by many in spiritual circles. What it actually refers to is living in integrity. Fully, and consciously, expressing your gifts, without repression. It has come to mean, however, vocalizing an opinion, or ego-dumping; neither of which are very conscious, or have anything to do with truth.

Society has devolved into communication through opinion, and the loudest ones win. A schoolyard of unconscious ruckus, serving no other purpose than ego gratification. I got a wonderful piece of advise from a senior contract negotiator once: If it feels good, don’t say it. I have to admit, that phrase has popped into my head on numerous occasions, and it is always fitting. Ego gratification always feels good. This is the first way to tell the difference between ego and truth. If you “just need to get it off your chest”, then it is ego. Always.

This isn’t to say that if you are feeling oppressed in some way you shouldn’t take a stance. Better boundaries and personal shadow work are probably screaming for your attention, but those are both inner struggles. Don’t make them someone else’s problem through blame. Blame is simply saying, “My power is getting too heavy for me. Hold my baggage, would you?” Blame is always a relinquishment of personal power, whether it’s blaming an individual, a circumstance, a figurehead, or a deity. Accepting your power, in order to operate from integrity, requires a commitment to self-work. Know thyself, then make the appropriate adjustments. After some of the personal shadows are cleared, and better boundaries are in place, you may be surprised how little you actually have to say to the people in your life.

One last thought on ego-dumping… you can’t unring a bell. Once you have spewed words in anger, there may be apologies and forgiveness, but you can never take those words back. Children are extremely susceptible to harsh words, but they affect even the most stoic among us. It is irresponsible, and just plain mean, to expect others to deal with your shadows for you. Some say this is what relationships are for. If you believe this, ask yourself why. Conditioning? Old patterns? Hurt people, hurt people. Healed people, heal people. Heal yourself, before you speak. It’s that simple.

Speaking your truth is really about fully being who you are, at a soul level. This may involve art or activism, or both. The only person stopping you, is you. You may be silencing yourself by choosing to be close to people who strongly disapprove of who you really are. If you are gay, but choose to hang out with conservative religious folks, then you are building your own cage. It’s ok to let go and move on. This is the real work of speaking your truth – embodying it. You need to take responsibility for creating a space to flourish. Only you know your truth, and only you can express it.

Boundaries are a big deal here. Instead of thinking of it as keeping “bad” influences out, think of it as making a strong circle to hold the “good” close to you. Surround yourself with supportive people. Prioritize you schedule to include what keeps you truly fulfilled. Take small steps each day, even just mentally, toward the future you. Use your energy to focus and discover and create your truth. Look at situations that make you feel repressed or stagnant, and take personal responsibility to change them. Change is a good thing in personal evolution.

With all the shadow work and letting go involved, speaking your truth is usually a long and difficult process. People who encourage you to “just speak you truth” don’t really understand what they’re saying. It may take years of shedding old beliefs before you even know what your truth is. That’s ok. Then it may take several more years for you to accept that you need to find a tribe that supports you. That’s ok, too. All this change and letting go really isn’t that hard, once you start to accept your own truth. As your free will begins to align with Divine Will, your frequency begins to change, and life changes with it. Don’t focus on the outside, just bring yourself into integrity.

No one else has your gifts. No one else expresses the same way you do. Your voice is vital. Speaking your truth is living as your higher calling. It’s walking the walk, when the ego just wants to talk the talk. Your are needed, you are supported, you are loved. Let your voice be heard.

Sheesh, calm down out there! It has been a tough week to be connected to the collective. The waves of fear have been rolling through with intensity and strength. From a metaphysical level, this is all about balancing power, and owning our personal power. We are learning about empowered free will.

Over the course of human history, power has been gradually siphoned from each individual, to be placed in figureheads of government and religion. Always remember, power can never be taken, only given. The reasons we gave away our power are numerous and pretty much irrelevant, but now this has reached its end. We must bear the weight of empowerment. I say it that way, because most people don’t really want the responsibility of personal power, they only say they do. Want proof? 48% of registered voters in America didn’t vote in the last presidential election. That says a lot.

Please don’t think this is a lecture on voting. It doesn’t even matter if the elections are rigged, or who they would have voted for, or anything political. What we are looking at here is a deep belief in victimization – “it doesn’t matter anyway”. I totally get that idea, but this is what we have been conditioned to believe. The people in power will always be in power, and the rest of us are along for the ride. The thing is, free will only works if you use it. It’s time to use it.

It is a major misconception that being spiritual and centered in Love means being passive. It’s actually a very active process. The defining difference is what motivates your action (or inaction) – Love or Fear. It isn’t a matter of participating in a protest, it’s a matter of why you’re doing it. Are you marching to show support and solidarity, or because you are afraid of losing something?  On a human, political level numbers are numbers, but on a spiritual, empowerment level the motivating force is everything. Always choose Love. It is so much stronger.

Be aware of your own triggers, and how you change when you get off balance. This is where the inward journey comes in. For example, my imbalance shows up as anger, not fear. When I’ve lost my spiritual footing, I start thinking I’m Joan of Arc, and the French Revolution sounds like a great idea. Heads on pikes, and all that. When I notice myself slip into this, I need to pull back from the world, regroup and refocus, before moving forward again, this time from Love. But the point is to keep moving. To be empowered and take action.

How can you be an activist of Love? Plant a garden. Get to know your neighbors. Step in to offer help when someone needs it. Cancel your cable. Stop smoking or drinking. Give at least 3 compliments a day. Start (or join) some kind of community group (anything from drum circles to trash pick-up). Support green energy. Only buy local. Refuse to buy factory farmed meat (even at restaurants). So many options, all requiring action (free will), all coming from a place of Love. Building community ties is the next step as we enter this Age of Aquarius, and become a collective. We are stronger together.

Be present. Stand up. The faster we can accept our personal power, the faster this fear will dissipate. It is no longer part of the plan to be selfish or disconnected. The ego is no longer being supported. Fear is a function of the ego. Let it go. You are loved and supported by Legions of Light, mighty warriors. Step into your power. We got this.