Walking In Both Worlds

Meditate. Meditate a lot this week. Take every opportunity to center yourself, and bring balance to your world. Even if it all goes amiss moments after you open your eyes again, keep taking small segments of time to find yourself. Lower timelines are falling away, and now is the time to keep climbing.

Your vibration magnetizes your destination, so even though current circumstances may give you every opportunity to stay in fear, do your best to keep the focus on love. Everything involving fear and lack is being shaken, and the dust is making us all cough, but this isn’t an indicator of where you’re destined. Unless you choose it. Keep your focus. Keep returning to center over and over again. It will be well worth the effort. And it will be much less effort by next weekend. Short-term pain for long-term gain.

Honor your body through this process. It is transmuting all this crazy incoming energy. Rest, drink more water, get outside, and meditate on allowing the energy to move through you. Anywhere you hold onto energy will become apparent. Let it flow, let it go. You are a conduit, a bridge between Heaven and Earth.

I don’t really have words, but the visual is like a movie where the path is disintegrating behind the scrambling hero. The only way out is to keep going, and with some urgency. The hero makes it, and so will you, but keep going. It will be tough to stay focused this week, and that’s okay, just keep returning to center. This isn’t a suggestion, it’s a requirement.

Be kind to yourself and others. Remember, the higher you climb, the more you assist everyone in your life, and the collective. Keep bringing yourself back to a space of love and joy. It will be with it. Keep climbing.

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This discussion is limited to healthy, adult relationships. This is not about abuse in its many forms, which is never to be tolerated. If you are being abused in any way, the most loving thing you can do, for both of you, is to leave. If you are recovering from abuse, take what you can from these words, but please seek further assistance in healing the trauma.

We have all experienced a betrayal of our trust in a relationship. Betrayal hurts, so very deeply, and always makes us wonder if we will ever trust again. I would suggest that if we allow ourselves to learn from the experience, we actually become more trusting, if less naive. You only have three basic responsibilities in a relationship – communication, boundaries, and managing your energy.  Well ok, both communication and boundaries are really just taking responsibility for your energy.

Communication means clearly stating your needs, expectations, and disappointments. No one can read your mind, but most can read your energy. If you are obviously angry, but verbally saying you’re fine, you are sending mixed signals. Be honest. It’s perfectly ok to say, “I’m angry, but I don’t want to talk about it yet,” but it’s never ok to lie. Lying is unfair to both of you. If your normal reaction is to lie about your feelings, it’s time to ask yourself why. What are you afraid of? What are you attached to?

Boundaries are essential to every healthy relationship. Strong boundaries are the only way to avoid codependence, and come naturally with self-knowledge and self-respect. First, you must know yourself to know your boundaries, then you must be willing to take action to defend them, which may involve leaving the relationship. First, identify the boundary that has been crossed, communicate the issue, and be fully aware of future transgressions. Everyone makes mistakes, and should be allowed to correct their behavior. The problems start when the behavior isn’t changed and keeps recurring. So many of us then justify the issue with “they are trying to change”. Be honest with yourself about how deeply you feel the transgression, and if it is recurring. Sometimes people are just incompatible, and that’s okay. It’s okay to let people go.

This brings us to the crux of the issue… What story were you attached to that they couldn’t fulfill? And what story are you now attached to that keeps you from letting go? Expectation is the leading cause of disappointment, and only you control your expectations. I’m not saying that other people can’t do unjust things. Free will matters, and sometimes other people use theirs inappropriately (like infidelity), but you are always in control of your own stories, and it’s those stories that keep the unhealthy attachments in place. Ever if you are out of the unhealthy relationship, are you still holding on to the hurt or the anger? What you are really holding on to is a story, an unfulfilled expectation.

So the question of trust comes to this… Do you trust yourself not to make the same mistake again? And do you trust yourself to heal? Not repeating the same mistake is a matter of awareness. Know thyself. Be totally honest with yourself. Delusion and denial will only keep you bound to the same karmic loop, but the cycle is broken by awareness. It takes courage to be honest with yourself. Be brave. As far as healing, we are built to heal, on all levels. Only our attachments keep us from healing. Find the story and let it go, and healing happens naturally. You are stronger than you think.

Then we come to forgiveness. This one takes a bit longer, because so much has to happen first. First, throughout the whole process, you must feel everything. This alone keeps many from forgiving the past. It’s a messy business, this emotional muck, but to be cleared, it must be felt. Next, you must identify the stories you were attached to, and grieve their loss. This will require some brutally honest soul-searching, and more emotional turmoil. Not fun, but totally worth it. Last, you must forgive yourself… for getting into this situation, for not seeing the signs, for not leaving sooner, for thinking you could “make it work”, for everything you went through by staying, for ignoring your intuition… for everything. We are all imperfect. You are allowed to make mistakes. Forgive yourself for being human.

Then let it go.

You have learned so much from this experience. Keep the lessons, and release the attachments. If things resurface, just keep processing them as they come – feel it, grieve it, and let it go.

Quite possibly, trust is really about trusting ourselves to respect our own boundaries, betrayal is an unfulfilled expectation, and forgiveness is the messy work of sorting out the first two. Attachment isn’t love, yet it’s what we build so many of our relationships on. Love yourself enough to see the difference.

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Epiphanies are just falling out of the sky today! Be careful… once you see something, it”s really hard to un-see it. Once you face the truth you have been denying, the world goes a bit sideways before you hit the joy of liberation. Let these new awarenesses flow into your reality, and they will integrate with time. Awareness is everything.

When I was a teenager, my Grandma used to caution me about who I was hanging out with, saying one bad apple can spoil the bunch. I countered with, “Jesus hung out with lepers and prostitutes, and he turned out okay.” And Grandma would say, “You aren’t Jesus!” I was always offended that she didn’t think I was as strong as Jesus, but now I see it as a different mission. Jesus was a bright light in a dim world, and his mission was to be a light for others. Without question, this is not my mission. All of a sudden “you’re not Jesus” sounds like a great reminder.

The incoming energies require each of us to do the work to embody them ourselves. No more messiah. We are the ones we have been waiting for. If you are holding the Light for another, think about 2 things… 1) You aren’t Jesus, and 2) it’s actually hurting both of you. You are limiting your own potential by waiting for them, and they will never learn to find their own Light with you providing it for them. They aren’t being lazy on purpose, but people simply don’t see the need to do the work until they have no other choice. Humans learn through loss. If you really love someone, allow them to find their own Light.

Another thing coming through really strong today is the message to look at your friends. Not in a judgmental way, just an evaluation. I read an article a few years back about how you can tell who you will be in 5 years by looking at your 5 closest friends. Just take a moment to think about that. Really look at who you choose to spend time with, and ask yourself if that’s who you want to be when you grow up. If you respect and admire your group, then carry on. If not, figure out why you are there, and make adjustments. Most of us have quite a diverse group of friends, but this is just about the 5 you spend the most time with.

There are many other personal epiphanies coming in for me, but even those have the main themes of “let people do their own work” and “align with who you want to become”. What a strange day. Enjoy the energy… and learning even more about who you are.

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I don’t really have a particular download to share, but I want you to know you aren’t alone. The past few days have been an intense energy roller coaster, and it feels like this will continue for most of the month. So much Light is coming in that the physical body is having a hard time keeping up. Maybe that’s the message… integration.

What’s happening is basically heaven (5th dimension) is taking up residence on earth (3rd dimension), and our physical bodies are the conduit. It isn’t nearly as pleasant as it sounds. It hurts. And it is pushing everything out that isn’t made of Unconditional Love, physical, mental, and emotional. It always hits me hardest in the body, but I’ve even noticed some mental stuff (judgement mostly) come up. This is a deep clean, whether we want it or not.

The best thing you can do is stay open, and listen to your body. “Stay open” means energetically be an open conduit. Be grounded to Earth, and open to Source. Do the Unity Breath Meditation daily, or some version of grounding both down and up. “Listen to your body” means sleep when you’re tired, drink much more water, spend time outside… do what your body asks, instead of our usual making the body comply with our wishes. We love to use caffeine and alcohol to produce physical effects, but now we need to listen instead of command.

2017 is The Year of Divine Union within each of us. Your feminine energy is your physical body, and your masculine is your consciousness (basically). You need to love and respect both to facilitate this process. Our bodies are changing as this happens… crystalline light body here we come! Evolution happens, but you can definitely support it with your free will. Make choices that are helpful to your own becoming. If you are still holding on to addictions, at least be mentally preparing to let them go. The body will eventually completely reject toxins, so be prepared to drop old habits.

Water always helps me. Drink more water. Lots more. And baths. And get in the habit of blessing or thanking your water. The world is changing. The Elementals are much more available. Be gentle with yourself as you integrate this intensity.

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If you change WWJD (what would Jesus do) to WWMHSD (what would my Higher Self do), you can align with who you really are. Instead of ego-based reactions, you can take the perspective of your soul. Your actions become aligned with your true purpose. Plus, you don’t have all that guilt for not living up to our perception of Jesus, which helps.

It’s totally normal to get caught up in human ego-based life, which runs mostly on fear and lack. We all do it. The key is to notice when the ego is running the show, step in as the observer, and ask how your soul would handle things. I also think of it as “who do I want to be when I grow up?” Every action is a step in a certain direction, so if you always keep an eye on the end goal, your steps fall in that direction.

My Grandma taught me many incredible lessons in my life, one of the most profound was at her funeral. After the service, people were talking about what a wonderful person Amy was, as people always do at funerals. The striking difference was they actually meant it. “She was so loving”, “she never judged anyone”, “I always felt so accepted in her presence”, “I wish we could all be more like her”. I was 18 at the time, and stopped to think what people would say at my funeral if I died then. Yikes! I had some work to do! This experience really got me thinking about the mark I want to leave on the world.

What would people say about you, if you died today? Are you happy with that? There is no right or wrong, only who you want to be when you grow up. Are you living in accordance with the mark you want to leave on the world? Be honest. We all sound great in our own heads, but are your actions supporting this image? Are you boasting self-love, while you eat fast food and don’t ever allow yourself enough sleep? Are you trumpeting unity, while laughing at racist jokes? Or are your actions in line with your beliefs? Only you know. And only you can make a course correction, when needed.

These actions don’t need to be big. In fact, it’s the little stuff that defines us in the world. If you want to be remembered as loving, smile more at strangers. If you want to be known as compassionate, start with being kind to yourself. Pet dogs. Talk to people. Get out and walk. Every action is a step. The point is to be aware of which way you’re going. Be integrity in action.

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The incoming energy just keeps getting stronger. This whole weekend (Easter 2017) has been a ride of bliss and nausea for me. It’s energetically magical, but it’s a lot to embody, and my body has been pretty demanding.

My job as a human is to hold the space; to keep the container clear and strong, so the incoming energy has somewhere to live. All of us are doing this, but if you haven’t spent the time preparing the container, you can expect some leaks. Emotional, mental, and physical junk is being displaced. You can see this displacement in the collective by watching the news. Maybe just read headlines… no point in joining the chaos.

Holding space requires boundaries, and boundaries require self-knowledge. You need to know yourself really well, before you even know where to put the boundaries. Simple example: you need to know your digestive issues are caused by gluten, before you can set a boundary around not consuming gluten. Then there’s the issue of respecting your own boundary. If something, or someone, makes you feel like crap, you are the only one who can enforce your own boundary.

Understanding boundaries is increasingly important as we ascend. The Light wants a physical home, and it’s our job to make that possible. The visual with this is a chalice. When it is sitting upright, the Light easily pours in, but as we get distracted (enter the media), the cup tips over slightly, and no longer catches the full flow of Light. If we get totally pulled over, the Light we had spills out. And it is entirely our responsibility to right the chalice, to keep it upright and ready to receive.

Ultimately, this is Divine Union – the descent of Spirit into Matter. Our free will is what allows us to stay focused on our task of maintaining this chalice that we are. Only you can make room for the Light. Only you can stay balanced and upright. Only you can make the necessary corrections to your life. And most importantly, only you can set and respect your own boundaries. Free will matters. All of us fall off balance (sometimes several times in a day), but we must take responsibility to make corrections.

For me, it feels very calm when I’m in line with the Light. Like everything is in Divine hands, and obstacles are somehow removed. It feels full – both physically (like after a good meal), and emotionally (like in the arms of my Beloved). It feels light and easy. When I fall off balance, it feels scary and overwhelming. A lot of “I can’t do this by myself.” Separation. Loneliness. Lack. As soon as I become aware of those feelings, I stop what I’m doing and go meditate. Meditation is my go-to; maybe yours is walking or gardening or something else. Do that thing, and get yourself back into balance.

The incoming energy is strong, but amazing. This is evolution. Our job is to hold the space.

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I really don’t enjoy delivering some of these downloads. My human side is acutely aware of how difficult it is to be here, and all the complications it brings. This message isn’t for anyone actually doing the work. If you tend toward beating yourself up, you may want to stop reading now. Doing your inner work is hard, and if you’re dedicated to that end, it’s perfectly normal to have good days and bad days. No need to add judgement to that.

This message is for the spiritual bypass crowd. Those who claim to be on a spiritual path, but never have time to meditate. People who want to consider themselves spiritual without doing the work. Those who believe that if you bless your gin & tonic, it’s as good for you as drinking water. Wake up. It’s time.

Spiritual bypassing happens when we let the ego create a “spiritual identity”. When we use all the right lingo, and go to the right classes, but still eat fast food and yell at people in traffic – that’s spiritual bypassing. It is the exact same thing as the guy who goes to church every Sunday, then cheats on his wife. Hypocrisy is how it looks from the outside, but that word implies the person is aware of the discrepancy. Spiritual bypassing happens when the person actually believes their own bullshit. They truly consider themselves spiritual and connected, without actually walking their talk. Wake up.

It’s time to be completely honest with ourselves. If you don’t have time to meditate, it’s because it isn’t a priority. If you don’t eat and sleep properly, it’s because it isn’t a priority. It’s time to be accountable to ourselves. Be totally honest in your self-evalation. “But I’m trying” means you aren’t doing. Own it. The only way to move forward is to be honest about where you are right now. Totally honest.

The next level is following your guidance. Some folks are walking the path, but ignoring the signposts. The intuition says one thing, but the ego says another (that’s resistance), then you choose the ego (that’s denial). The ego naturally resists change, that’s what it’s for, but free will lets us choose what path to take. Breaking the grip of the ego takes courage, but it is how we release karma. If your intuition is clear, and you are determined to ignore it, this is also a form of spiritual bypassing. Wake up.

I know this one seemed a bit harsh, but some people are a bit stubborn, and this message was for them. As the collective ego dissolves, it will become more & more obvious where we are holding delusion & denial. By the fall of 2017 it will be undeniable, and everyone will see the lack of integrity. Remember reading ‘The Emperor’s New Clothes’? It will be just like that. I think that’s why this message came through – to avoid a bigger mess later. Please wake up.

Well, 2017 doesn’t disappoint. Never a dull moment at this point. A weird, disconnected, anxious moment now and then, but never dull. As time gets less linear, and we begin to live in the eternal NOW, it can be overwhelming when NOW sucks, and sometimes it does. You start to wonder if you ever knew what happiness was, or what you did to get to this place of endless suffering. This too shall pass, I promise. There are also fleeting moments of bliss and ease. Again, these pass. The 5th dimension is anchored, but our experience goes back to the lower realms on occasion.

You didn’t do anything wrong, so stop judging yourself. We just dropped back down to pick up a few more souls who are ready to launch. And with 7B+ people on the planet, the whole spectrum is covered – some are now permanently in the 5th, some are firmly embedded in the 3rd, and some of us work the transition. I feel like I am rowing a ferry boat, constantly moving people from one shore to the next. I wonder if I will ever just stay on one side… I wonder if some of us were just built for this work… either way, you aren’t alone.

The very best thing you can do this week is get out of your own way. Know this isn’t just you & stop judging yourself. If possible, meditate on anchoring peace and abundance. If you can’t stop your stories, then distract yourself. Overthinking is making this transition so much harder. If you just keep replaying old stories go read a book, or watch a movie, or play a video game. There are so many physical changes happening right now, and they will happen by themselves if you don’t block them with ego stories. This is one of the very few times I recommend distraction… not drugs or alcohol (they physically block you), but distract your mind, unless you can stay focused on higher outcomes.

And solar flares. Wow. See? I can’t even focus for more than 3 paragraphs. You aren’t alone, this will pass, and distract yourself from your old stories. Let the New Earth settle into your bones.

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Sounds lovely, to live in a world of conscious people. And it will be. Getting ourselves there is where the struggle lies. No more stories, no more blame, lots of self-evaluation and honest introspection, to bring us to a place of personal responsibility and integrity. Delusion and denial run rampant in the ego-based reality, and we are about to see exactly how much we participate in that version of reality.

Expect epiphanies to be falling out of the sky this week, and some of them will really hurt when they hit. Your intuition has been growing louder, and if you’re still ignoring it, expect the volume to get turned up a notch. As we ascend into the 5th dimension (fully anchored now, by the way), the ego is no longer being supported. The ego is a tool of separation, and we are headed for unity. This is just evolution, not any kind of judgement. The sooner you choose to leave the ego and focus on your soul, the easier this process will be. And you can always chose to remain, but the ego structures are crumbling, so it doesn’t look like fun. Free will is a thing. Own your decision, no matter what it is.

Once you release the ego stories, situations in your life just start to shift. Some people vanish, others magically appear, jobs change, relocations happen – all to align you with your soul’s purpose. But you have to be willing to release the old. This is where the epiphanies come in – suddenly you realize how you have been limiting yourself, the story comes into your complete awareness, and you have to choose to keep it or let it go. No more ignoring it, no more going back to sleep. The snooze button is broken.

A big piece of the collective being worked right now is the martyrdom / entitlement thing, and they are two sides of the same coin. They are both ways to avoid personal responsibility, by either giving too much or taking too much, and both base their worth on interactions with other people (outside validation). The cure for both is focus on your own personal development. If you are prone to martyrdom, remember the very highest gift you can give others (from your spouse, to your tribe, to the world) is to be the best version of you. If you are prone to entitlement, know the only way to feel fulfilled is to develop your inner connection to your soul. In other words, awareness and dedication is required on both sides. Time to wake up.

It is never about someone else. It isn’t loving to play small just to stay in a story (relationship, job, etc.). Only you can step up to your life, and you will become more and more aware of how your choices are limiting your potential. It will become painfully obvious, and painful to experience, until you are ready to release the story. Our job as individuals is to become our highest potential, so we are adding our light to the collective. It is now about “we” not “me”.

For those who have been consciously doing this work, your dedication is appreciated more than you know. Even when it felt like the darkness you were transmuting was very personal, you were also helping to clear the collective. Whenever we blaze a path, it makes it possible for so many more to find their way out of the illusion. Thank you. Your work has been endless and thankless, but only in 3D. In Higher realms your efforts are celebrated. Please know you are loved and supported always.

New awareness. Examine it. Embrace it. The lower ego timelines don’t even exist anymore. Dedicate yourself to yourself. And we all become forever conscious.

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I get the best downloads in the bath. I highly recommend a hot bath with epsom salt and maybe some essential oils. Bless the water while you’re in there.

Here’s what I got… the veils are lifting faster than planned, so the illusion of separation is rapidly dissolving. The down side is that most of us are pretty attached to our separation, meaning the ego story. Just as the 3rd & 4th dimensions (space-time) create our illusion of separation on a grand scale, the ego creates for the individual. The idea that you & I are fundamentally different people is based in the ego experience. At an ego level, we are all different, and all alone. Separation is now becoming unity, and the ego is grasping at straws.

For those that have been dedicated to self-mastery, the process is still painful at times, but things move so quickly. If you have trained yourself to process thoughts and emotions as passing energy, then this is an exciting time. Keep it up!

To the extent you have been anchored in your human story, this time is really painful, on multiple levels. The story of “you”, as a separate self, is being challenged on every front. I wish I had something uplifting to say here, but all I get are images of suffering. I guess the uplifting part is that suffering is optional, and only continues as long as you hold on to your old stories. Let go. I know the practical stuff is more complicated (relocation, divorce, etc.), but it starts with releasing the story mentally. Let it go.

Many people are living their lives in pursuit of pleasure – everything form addictions to “I just want to be happy” – with only themselves as the ultimate goal. It’s no longer about “you”, except in your pursuit of self-mastery. Funny thing is, all that happiness is waiting on the other side of the door marked “unity”. Once your goal is for the collective, then everything opens up. Disclaimer: Self-mastery doesn’t give the instant gratification of selfish stuff, but it offers sustainable joy. Totally worth the effort it takes to change direction, and build a spiritual practice. But you have to be willing to let go of the old, and make room for the new. This is what free will looks like.

The next thing I got was about self-delusion. Many of us lie to ourselves on a regular basis. Not a blatant lie, but a lot of justification. Please don’t judge yourself, that isn’t the point. Try to evaluate yourself with complete honesty, but don’t judge. Once you feel judged, then you have to defend, then you are back to justifying. Just observe. Is any of this going on?
*You say you love your body, but don’t give it proper food, exercise, or rest.
*You say you believe in spirituality, but don’t have a daily (or even weekly) set practice.
*You say you believe in positivity, but judge yourself (or others) almost constantly.
*You say you believe in love, but only give it if it’s returned.
Like I said, don’t judge yourself, just look at your life, and find where your actions don’t match your words. To be operating in integrity, you must walk your talk. Look at all your beliefs, and be honest about which ones you actually act on.

This is also good to help you evaluate your circle. Again, not to judge them, but to help you discern what relationships to invest your time in. I tend to see people at a soul level, and everyone has a sparkly soul, so I have to pay attention to their actions (not their words) to see who is living with integrity. We all falter, and I never expect perfection, but not many people actually walk a spiritual path, even though they use all the lingo. I call it the New Age bubble.

Lastly, people are where they are. Let them be there. The only person you can change is you. The very best gift you can offer, both to the world and your circle, is your own self-mastery. In the short run, this means leaving some people behind. In the long run, you are making a path for them to follow, when they choose to do so. Dedicate yourself to your own growth, no matter what the costs seem to be. It’s only the illusion falling away. Let go of the story of “you”, and join the wave of “we”.

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