Walking In Both Worlds

Forget about 50 words for snow, we need 50 words for love, and even then it would fall short. It’s difficult to fit an experiential thing into the limits of language, but until we get better at telepathy, it’s all we have. Let’s try to keep it as simple as we can, and just look at 3 broad categories: divine love (unconditional), human love (conditional), and karmic love (attachment). In my experience, these are the big ones.

The most unfortunate part of this subject is that most people mistake attachment for love. This is just karma playing out. Karma is simply an unconscious vibration or story, but it runs our lives until we become consciously aware of our choices. It doesn’t matter what the story is – knight in shining armor, or drunken abuser – only that it is running the show until awareness takes over. If both parties are running on auto-pilot, karma just plays out, then repeats. If one of the parties is awake while the other is not, then it’s a painful, if not abusive, situation. This is where we get all the writings about ‘the empath and the narcissist’ (described here). It is entirely up to the awake party to leave the situation. The sleeping person is just playing their karmic role.

Karma and attachment aren’t about penance for past downfalls, this life or last. It’s simply a call to awaken your free will. Karma will keep repeating until you become aware of the cycle, and choose to stop it. Awareness and action are all that are required here. Keeping a journal, and rereading it regularly, will be helpful in identifying patterns. Deciding to act differently, to actually invoke free will, takes dedication. Most people don’t want to put forth the effort to change, because they aren’t sufficiently miserable yet – status quo seems better than growth. That’s just the way people are by nature. Once you become aware, you will have to leave those that still choose to sleep.

Human love is less common, and requires both parties to take an active role in knowing themselves, so they can each come to the relationship as a whole being. We can’t know anyone else until we know ourselves, or we fall into the karmic pit of projection and blame. This level of love is what we consider mature and lifelong, whether we are talking about siblings, friends, or spouses. As humans, we are each individual, and require strong boundaries (conditions) to function at our best. Some say that only unconditional love is true love, and that may be, but relationships require conditions.

Consider how many conditions we have in every successful relationship… I expect my friends to treat me with respect, which includes being honest but tactful, letting me know if they have to cancel plans with me, keeping promises… I expect various things from different types of relationships, and this is a good thing. Boundaries are absolutely required for healthy relationships.

Acceptance, or non-judgement, is a totally different thing. I can accept that someone has a heroin addiction, but still refuse to be their mate. Loving someone where they are is one skill, limiting their influence in your life is another. You aren’t judgmental, or in any way less loving, by carefully choosing who to be emotionally close to. That’s actually my measuring stick – if I can’t be around a person without constantly judging them, then I need to let them go, and redefine my boundaries with them. Judging does neither one of us any good, but creating enough space between us to allow for acceptance will heal us both. Boundaries are vital, and only you can adjust yours.

Divine love is the truly unconditional stuff. This one is hard to describe, because most have no reference to it at all. When you are suddenly awe-struck by a beautiful flower, this is unconditional love. The flower has made no specific effort, and you have no expectation beyond the present sense of bliss. This is harder to do with other humans. Usually one or both of you have some kind of expectation. But still, there can be fleeting moments of nothing beyond the present bliss.

Although we are heading towards the experience of Divine Love, the bulk of our work is shifting our experience from karmic love to human love. Awareness breaks the karmic cycle, free will lets us choose to love at the human level, and human relationships require boundaries. Strengthen your boundaries to strengthen your experience of love.

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I just keep getting all these images of Divine Union. Not relationships with other people, but unifying the body with the Spirit – true Divine Union. Every time I get pulled into ordinary life stuff, I am abruptly reminded that my job right now is to hold the space.

You see, Spirit wants to descend into matter, and our only job is to create and hold space for that to happen. I don’t really have more on that… so I will just attach a few links from past writings. Hold the space. It’s time.

Finding Balance – balancing Masculine and Feminine energies within.
The Great Work – our job is to make space for Spirit.
Masculine Power – it’s a job for all of us.

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Meditate. Meditate a lot this week. Take every opportunity to center yourself, and bring balance to your world. Even if it all goes amiss moments after you open your eyes again, keep taking small segments of time to find yourself. Lower timelines are falling away, and now is the time to keep climbing.

Your vibration magnetizes your destination, so even though current circumstances may give you every opportunity to stay in fear, do your best to keep the focus on love. Everything involving fear and lack is being shaken, and the dust is making us all cough, but this isn’t an indicator of where you’re destined. Unless you choose it. Keep your focus. Keep returning to center over and over again. It will be well worth the effort. And it will be much less effort by next weekend. Short-term pain for long-term gain.

Honor your body through this process. It is transmuting all this crazy incoming energy. Rest, drink more water, get outside, and meditate on allowing the energy to move through you. Anywhere you hold onto energy will become apparent. Let it flow, let it go. You are a conduit, a bridge between Heaven and Earth.

I don’t really have words, but the visual is like a movie where the path is disintegrating behind the scrambling hero. The only way out is to keep going, and with some urgency. The hero makes it, and so will you, but keep going. It will be tough to stay focused this week, and that’s okay, just keep returning to center. This isn’t a suggestion, it’s a requirement.

Be kind to yourself and others. Remember, the higher you climb, the more you assist everyone in your life, and the collective. Keep bringing yourself back to a space of love and joy. It will be with it. Keep climbing.

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This discussion is limited to healthy, adult relationships. This is not about abuse in its many forms, which is never to be tolerated. If you are being abused in any way, the most loving thing you can do, for both of you, is to leave. If you are recovering from abuse, take what you can from these words, but please seek further assistance in healing the trauma.

We have all experienced a betrayal of our trust in a relationship. Betrayal hurts, so very deeply, and always makes us wonder if we will ever trust again. I would suggest that if we allow ourselves to learn from the experience, we actually become more trusting, if less naive. You only have three basic responsibilities in a relationship – communication, boundaries, and managing your energy.  Well ok, both communication and boundaries are really just taking responsibility for your energy.

Communication means clearly stating your needs, expectations, and disappointments. No one can read your mind, but most can read your energy. If you are obviously angry, but verbally saying you’re fine, you are sending mixed signals. Be honest. It’s perfectly ok to say, “I’m angry, but I don’t want to talk about it yet,” but it’s never ok to lie. Lying is unfair to both of you. If your normal reaction is to lie about your feelings, it’s time to ask yourself why. What are you afraid of? What are you attached to?

Boundaries are essential to every healthy relationship. Strong boundaries are the only way to avoid codependence, and come naturally with self-knowledge and self-respect. First, you must know yourself to know your boundaries, then you must be willing to take action to defend them, which may involve leaving the relationship. First, identify the boundary that has been crossed, communicate the issue, and be fully aware of future transgressions. Everyone makes mistakes, and should be allowed to correct their behavior. The problems start when the behavior isn’t changed and keeps recurring. So many of us then justify the issue with “they are trying to change”. Be honest with yourself about how deeply you feel the transgression, and if it is recurring. Sometimes people are just incompatible, and that’s okay. It’s okay to let people go.

This brings us to the crux of the issue… What story were you attached to that they couldn’t fulfill? And what story are you now attached to that keeps you from letting go? Expectation is the leading cause of disappointment, and only you control your expectations. I’m not saying that other people can’t do unjust things. Free will matters, and sometimes other people use theirs inappropriately (like infidelity), but you are always in control of your own stories, and it’s those stories that keep the unhealthy attachments in place. Ever if you are out of the unhealthy relationship, are you still holding on to the hurt or the anger? What you are really holding on to is a story, an unfulfilled expectation.

So the question of trust comes to this… Do you trust yourself not to make the same mistake again? And do you trust yourself to heal? Not repeating the same mistake is a matter of awareness. Know thyself. Be totally honest with yourself. Delusion and denial will only keep you bound to the same karmic loop, but the cycle is broken by awareness. It takes courage to be honest with yourself. Be brave. As far as healing, we are built to heal, on all levels. Only our attachments keep us from healing. Find the story and let it go, and healing happens naturally. You are stronger than you think.

Then we come to forgiveness. This one takes a bit longer, because so much has to happen first. First, throughout the whole process, you must feel everything. This alone keeps many from forgiving the past. It’s a messy business, this emotional muck, but to be cleared, it must be felt. Next, you must identify the stories you were attached to, and grieve their loss. This will require some brutally honest soul-searching, and more emotional turmoil. Not fun, but totally worth it. Last, you must forgive yourself… for getting into this situation, for not seeing the signs, for not leaving sooner, for thinking you could “make it work”, for everything you went through by staying, for ignoring your intuition… for everything. We are all imperfect. You are allowed to make mistakes. Forgive yourself for being human.

Then let it go.

You have learned so much from this experience. Keep the lessons, and release the attachments. If things resurface, just keep processing them as they come – feel it, grieve it, and let it go.

Quite possibly, trust is really about trusting ourselves to respect our own boundaries, betrayal is an unfulfilled expectation, and forgiveness is the messy work of sorting out the first two. Attachment isn’t love, yet it’s what we build so many of our relationships on. Love yourself enough to see the difference.

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Epiphanies are just falling out of the sky today! Be careful… once you see something, it”s really hard to un-see it. Once you face the truth you have been denying, the world goes a bit sideways before you hit the joy of liberation. Let these new awarenesses flow into your reality, and they will integrate with time. Awareness is everything.

When I was a teenager, my Grandma used to caution me about who I was hanging out with, saying one bad apple can spoil the bunch. I countered with, “Jesus hung out with lepers and prostitutes, and he turned out okay.” And Grandma would say, “You aren’t Jesus!” I was always offended that she didn’t think I was as strong as Jesus, but now I see it as a different mission. Jesus was a bright light in a dim world, and his mission was to be a light for others. Without question, this is not my mission. All of a sudden “you’re not Jesus” sounds like a great reminder.

The incoming energies require each of us to do the work to embody them ourselves. No more messiah. We are the ones we have been waiting for. If you are holding the Light for another, think about 2 things… 1) You aren’t Jesus, and 2) it’s actually hurting both of you. You are limiting your own potential by waiting for them, and they will never learn to find their own Light with you providing it for them. They aren’t being lazy on purpose, but people simply don’t see the need to do the work until they have no other choice. Humans learn through loss. If you really love someone, allow them to find their own Light.

Another thing coming through really strong today is the message to look at your friends. Not in a judgmental way, just an evaluation. I read an article a few years back about how you can tell who you will be in 5 years by looking at your 5 closest friends. Just take a moment to think about that. Really look at who you choose to spend time with, and ask yourself if that’s who you want to be when you grow up. If you respect and admire your group, then carry on. If not, figure out why you are there, and make adjustments. Most of us have quite a diverse group of friends, but this is just about the 5 you spend the most time with.

There are many other personal epiphanies coming in for me, but even those have the main themes of “let people do their own work” and “align with who you want to become”. What a strange day. Enjoy the energy… and learning even more about who you are.

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I don’t really have a particular download to share, but I want you to know you aren’t alone. The past few days have been an intense energy roller coaster, and it feels like this will continue for most of the month. So much Light is coming in that the physical body is having a hard time keeping up. Maybe that’s the message… integration.

What’s happening is basically heaven (5th dimension) is taking up residence on earth (3rd dimension), and our physical bodies are the conduit. It isn’t nearly as pleasant as it sounds. It hurts. And it is pushing everything out that isn’t made of Unconditional Love, physical, mental, and emotional. It always hits me hardest in the body, but I’ve even noticed some mental stuff (judgement mostly) come up. This is a deep clean, whether we want it or not.

The best thing you can do is stay open, and listen to your body. “Stay open” means energetically be an open conduit. Be grounded to Earth, and open to Source. Do the Unity Breath Meditation daily, or some version of grounding both down and up. “Listen to your body” means sleep when you’re tired, drink much more water, spend time outside… do what your body asks, instead of our usual making the body comply with our wishes. We love to use caffeine and alcohol to produce physical effects, but now we need to listen instead of command.

2017 is The Year of Divine Union within each of us. Your feminine energy is your physical body, and your masculine is your consciousness (basically). You need to love and respect both to facilitate this process. Our bodies are changing as this happens… crystalline light body here we come! Evolution happens, but you can definitely support it with your free will. Make choices that are helpful to your own becoming. If you are still holding on to addictions, at least be mentally preparing to let them go. The body will eventually completely reject toxins, so be prepared to drop old habits.

Water always helps me. Drink more water. Lots more. And baths. And get in the habit of blessing or thanking your water. The world is changing. The Elementals are much more available. Be gentle with yourself as you integrate this intensity.

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If you change WWJD (what would Jesus do) to WWMHSD (what would my Higher Self do), you can align with who you really are. Instead of ego-based reactions, you can take the perspective of your soul. Your actions become aligned with your true purpose. Plus, you don’t have all that guilt for not living up to our perception of Jesus, which helps.

It’s totally normal to get caught up in human ego-based life, which runs mostly on fear and lack. We all do it. The key is to notice when the ego is running the show, step in as the observer, and ask how your soul would handle things. I also think of it as “who do I want to be when I grow up?” Every action is a step in a certain direction, so if you always keep an eye on the end goal, your steps fall in that direction.

My Grandma taught me many incredible lessons in my life, one of the most profound was at her funeral. After the service, people were talking about what a wonderful person Amy was, as people always do at funerals. The striking difference was they actually meant it. “She was so loving”, “she never judged anyone”, “I always felt so accepted in her presence”, “I wish we could all be more like her”. I was 18 at the time, and stopped to think what people would say at my funeral if I died then. Yikes! I had some work to do! This experience really got me thinking about the mark I want to leave on the world.

What would people say about you, if you died today? Are you happy with that? There is no right or wrong, only who you want to be when you grow up. Are you living in accordance with the mark you want to leave on the world? Be honest. We all sound great in our own heads, but are your actions supporting this image? Are you boasting self-love, while you eat fast food and don’t ever allow yourself enough sleep? Are you trumpeting unity, while laughing at racist jokes? Or are your actions in line with your beliefs? Only you know. And only you can make a course correction, when needed.

These actions don’t need to be big. In fact, it’s the little stuff that defines us in the world. If you want to be remembered as loving, smile more at strangers. If you want to be known as compassionate, start with being kind to yourself. Pet dogs. Talk to people. Get out and walk. Every action is a step. The point is to be aware of which way you’re going. Be integrity in action.

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The incoming energy just keeps getting stronger. This whole weekend (Easter 2017) has been a ride of bliss and nausea for me. It’s energetically magical, but it’s a lot to embody, and my body has been pretty demanding.

My job as a human is to hold the space; to keep the container clear and strong, so the incoming energy has somewhere to live. All of us are doing this, but if you haven’t spent the time preparing the container, you can expect some leaks. Emotional, mental, and physical junk is being displaced. You can see this displacement in the collective by watching the news. Maybe just read headlines… no point in joining the chaos.

Holding space requires boundaries, and boundaries require self-knowledge. You need to know yourself really well, before you even know where to put the boundaries. Simple example: you need to know your digestive issues are caused by gluten, before you can set a boundary around not consuming gluten. Then there’s the issue of respecting your own boundary. If something, or someone, makes you feel like crap, you are the only one who can enforce your own boundary.

Understanding boundaries is increasingly important as we ascend. The Light wants a physical home, and it’s our job to make that possible. The visual with this is a chalice. When it is sitting upright, the Light easily pours in, but as we get distracted (enter the media), the cup tips over slightly, and no longer catches the full flow of Light. If we get totally pulled over, the Light we had spills out. And it is entirely our responsibility to right the chalice, to keep it upright and ready to receive.

Ultimately, this is Divine Union – the descent of Spirit into Matter. Our free will is what allows us to stay focused on our task of maintaining this chalice that we are. Only you can make room for the Light. Only you can stay balanced and upright. Only you can make the necessary corrections to your life. And most importantly, only you can set and respect your own boundaries. Free will matters. All of us fall off balance (sometimes several times in a day), but we must take responsibility to make corrections.

For me, it feels very calm when I’m in line with the Light. Like everything is in Divine hands, and obstacles are somehow removed. It feels full – both physically (like after a good meal), and emotionally (like in the arms of my Beloved). It feels light and easy. When I fall off balance, it feels scary and overwhelming. A lot of “I can’t do this by myself.” Separation. Loneliness. Lack. As soon as I become aware of those feelings, I stop what I’m doing and go meditate. Meditation is my go-to; maybe yours is walking or gardening or something else. Do that thing, and get yourself back into balance.

The incoming energy is strong, but amazing. This is evolution. Our job is to hold the space.

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I really don’t enjoy delivering some of these downloads. My human side is acutely aware of how difficult it is to be here, and all the complications it brings. This message isn’t for anyone actually doing the work. If you tend toward beating yourself up, you may want to stop reading now. Doing your inner work is hard, and if you’re dedicated to that end, it’s perfectly normal to have good days and bad days. No need to add judgement to that.

This message is for the spiritual bypass crowd. Those who claim to be on a spiritual path, but never have time to meditate. People who want to consider themselves spiritual without doing the work. Those who believe that if you bless your gin & tonic, it’s as good for you as drinking water. Wake up. It’s time.

Spiritual bypassing happens when we let the ego create a “spiritual identity”. When we use all the right lingo, and go to the right classes, but still eat fast food and yell at people in traffic – that’s spiritual bypassing. It is the exact same thing as the guy who goes to church every Sunday, then cheats on his wife. Hypocrisy is how it looks from the outside, but that word implies the person is aware of the discrepancy. Spiritual bypassing happens when the person actually believes their own bullshit. They truly consider themselves spiritual and connected, without actually walking their talk. Wake up.

It’s time to be completely honest with ourselves. If you don’t have time to meditate, it’s because it isn’t a priority. If you don’t eat and sleep properly, it’s because it isn’t a priority. It’s time to be accountable to ourselves. Be totally honest in your self-evalation. “But I’m trying” means you aren’t doing. Own it. The only way to move forward is to be honest about where you are right now. Totally honest.

The next level is following your guidance. Some folks are walking the path, but ignoring the signposts. The intuition says one thing, but the ego says another (that’s resistance), then you choose the ego (that’s denial). The ego naturally resists change, that’s what it’s for, but free will lets us choose what path to take. Breaking the grip of the ego takes courage, but it is how we release karma. If your intuition is clear, and you are determined to ignore it, this is also a form of spiritual bypassing. Wake up.

I know this one seemed a bit harsh, but some people are a bit stubborn, and this message was for them. As the collective ego dissolves, it will become more & more obvious where we are holding delusion & denial. By the fall of 2017 it will be undeniable, and everyone will see the lack of integrity. Remember reading ‘The Emperor’s New Clothes’? It will be just like that. I think that’s why this message came through – to avoid a bigger mess later. Please wake up.

Well, 2017 doesn’t disappoint. Never a dull moment at this point. A weird, disconnected, anxious moment now and then, but never dull. As time gets less linear, and we begin to live in the eternal NOW, it can be overwhelming when NOW sucks, and sometimes it does. You start to wonder if you ever knew what happiness was, or what you did to get to this place of endless suffering. This too shall pass, I promise. There are also fleeting moments of bliss and ease. Again, these pass. The 5th dimension is anchored, but our experience goes back to the lower realms on occasion.

You didn’t do anything wrong, so stop judging yourself. We just dropped back down to pick up a few more souls who are ready to launch. And with 7B+ people on the planet, the whole spectrum is covered – some are now permanently in the 5th, some are firmly embedded in the 3rd, and some of us work the transition. I feel like I am rowing a ferry boat, constantly moving people from one shore to the next. I wonder if I will ever just stay on one side… I wonder if some of us were just built for this work… either way, you aren’t alone.

The very best thing you can do this week is get out of your own way. Know this isn’t just you & stop judging yourself. If possible, meditate on anchoring peace and abundance. If you can’t stop your stories, then distract yourself. Overthinking is making this transition so much harder. If you just keep replaying old stories go read a book, or watch a movie, or play a video game. There are so many physical changes happening right now, and they will happen by themselves if you don’t block them with ego stories. This is one of the very few times I recommend distraction… not drugs or alcohol (they physically block you), but distract your mind, unless you can stay focused on higher outcomes.

And solar flares. Wow. See? I can’t even focus for more than 3 paragraphs. You aren’t alone, this will pass, and distract yourself from your old stories. Let the New Earth settle into your bones.

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