Walking In Both Worlds

We are already being moved into our new roles and locations. 2019 Year of the Gathering really means business. Even before my latest book was published I was already getting information for the next one. Yesterday, I even got specifics on my latest spiritual assignment. This one isn’t going to win me any popularity contests.

I’ve always known I came here to assist in raising the collective consciousness of humanity. Apparently, the collective is now vibrating at a level that can support physical ascension. No, I have no idea how that will look after it’s done, but I do have some insight on the process of getting there. My writings have always leaned toward free will, and respecting the body. Now it’s all coming together.

Let me try to verbalize the intel… We live in 3D (third dimension), and the vibration is really dense and oppressive. It takes a glass of wine, puff of pot, much caffeine, or some opiates just to get through a week. It can suck here, I totally get it. We are shifting to 5D (fifth dimension), where the vibration is much lighter. There is no need, or desire, to self-medicate. In fact, it would seem silly to be altered in any way, to be less than fully present and fully alive.

Here’s the sticky part: Your body can’t cellularly upgrade to the 5D template until it is clean and fully supported. In other words, if you keep self-medicating you will remain where you need to keep self-medicating. If you stop, there will be a detox period (never fun), and then your DNA can upgrade naturally. We are only holding ourselves at the lower vibration. The higher is up & running, and available to all.

This is why I’m about to be unpopular: This info applies to ALL toxins, no matter how little the dose. One glass of wine with dinner? Too much. Smoking pot on the weekend? Too much. One cup of delicious caffeinated beverage? Too much. Even my junk TV shows are kicking back at this point, disrupting my sleep, and limiting my dreamtime travels. I’m not thrilled about this information either. I don’t have many questionable habits, but I like TV, and I take Advil. At least I did.

If you feel like you need a substance to function, please look honestly at addiction and victim mentality. Using a substance (prescription, legal, or illegal) in lieu of learning a coping skill just never ends well. If you need to be numb to do regular life, please seek the support you need. Just because it’s legal, doesn’t mean it’s good for you. Just because your friends do it, doesn’t make it a good idea.

Metaphysically speaking, all of the physical world is one unified field. Many people voice concern about all the pollution in our environment, while eating fast food and drinking soda. Your body is of the same energy field as Gaia. Clean the pollution out of your own body, and you are cleaning the Earth. It’s not symbolic, it’s literal.

So, the point of all this is simply that your body needs your full support to continue evolving. No one is wrong, and every choice is valid. Some will carry on the way they always have, while others will try something different. My job is just to keep you informed. Free will matters. I just want you to make an informed choice. I completely trust that you will do whatever your path calls for.

This is a repost of the 2019 energies, and also an announcement: My second book is out! Check out Walking In Both Worlds on Amazon! If you love it, or my first book Waking Up Indigo, please leave me a review… people tell me personally how much they enjoy my writing, but reviews on Amazon really support the work. Thanks so much for joining me on this journey!

2019 will bring Soul Family reunions, in some pretty unexpected ways. The Tribes are gathering to prepare for our journey of the next decade, which begins with our First Steps in 2020, to live in a whole new way on Earth. It’s time to do this thing we came here for, and being surrounded by soul family will make it possible.

Not all the uniting will be in physical proximity. Online activity will increase, for the sharing of support and ideas among like minds. Still, there will be more relocation than we think. It could take the form of moving for a job, or a refugee escape, or anything in between. We are definitely being placed like chess pieces. This is a good thing, even if change can be challenging.

Think of 2019 as a dance with the Divine. Both partners have to do their part, but only one leads. Let life lead. You can’t just go limp, and expect life to gracefully swoop you across the floor. And you can’t both lead, and expect the dance to be smooth and beautiful. Each one of us needs to be fully present to do our part, but also to relinquish the lead. Life (the Divine) knows what it’s doing.

This could be a challenge for the control freaks among us. Relinquishing control, even to one’s Higher Self, can be quite the task. And it is only your Higher Self, not some form of fate out to undermine your plans. Find a way to reframe that whole concept, so you have a better relationship with the flow of life. Life is never happening to you, it’s happening for you. The Universe always has your back, even if it seems otherwise at the beginnings of a shift.

With this in mind, everything inside you that is blocking the full expression of your soul must go. Old beliefs, old relationships, old patterns. 2018 brought much of our shadow to light, but if you’re still clinging to something that no longer serves you, this could get messy. It doesn’t have to. Be willing to let go. For example, if deep down you know you need a divorce, then your spouse asks for one, you can react with fear and drama, or with love and appreciation. The grief and loss will still be there, and require you feel them fully. But your reaction to the overall situation is a choice. Be mindful of your choices. Be thankful for endings, because they make room for beginnings.

In 2019 we will also see an increase of conscious relationships. This can appear as friendship or romance. To be clear, a conscious relationship is one where the highest good of all concerned is the priority. This also means more honesty and integrity, shown by open communication, and each party owning their own process – no emotional dumping. Some people confuse “conscious relationship” with “happily ever after”, which a dying archetype. Relationships are meant to help us grow, not make us happy. Growth usually brings happiness, but the emphasis is on the growth.

I feel we need to be really clear about soul family and conscious relationships. These are both happening at a soul-vibration level. If you are still seeking outside validation, and comfort from those around you, then you are still operating at an ego level. This will mean you will unconsciously attract ego-based people, to teach you the difference. What this will look like is very short, probably painful relationships. This is designed to keep your focus inward, nothing more. Your soul family will find you, as you live more from your soul.

The soul family will, of course, bring validation and comfort. The difference is what is motivating your actions. When you think about gathering with your soul family, do you think, “Now I will finally be comfortable, loved, and happy” or do you think “Now we can really make a difference to the world”? Is it about me or we? Is it about your personal feelings, or the greater good for all? Be where you are, and never beat yourself up. At the same time, be really aware and honest about your motivations.

Please remember we aren’t all on the same timeline anymore. What is shown in the media doesn’t reflect the experience or trajectory of everyone. It’s fine to stay informed, but don’t be lured into the illusion of different realities. Be aware of your focus. Also remember that not everyone signed up to be part of the physical ascension. Some won’t ever wake up. Some will die naturally. Not many are on the ascension path presently. You can only do you. Live your own life in alignment, and prioritize your own becoming.

So, our side of the dance of 2019 is to keep our focus inward, while life moves us gracefully across the floor. Be present. Be aware. And most important, keep turning your gaze inward. Find a daily practice, or spiritual group, or spiritual course of study, and really make it a priority. Keep doing the inner work. That’s all we really have to do this year… the Universe will handle the rest. Enjoy the dance of the Gathering.

You can’t save anyone from life, not even yourself.

People are fond of saying life is about the journey, not the destination. This never made sense to me, because the only reason we journey is to reach a destination. Thinking of life as a story makes more sense. We all start with “once upon a time” and end with “happily ever after”, but we get to fill in the blank pages in between. Each life is a unique story, and requires that we live it as we go.

I was recently feeling really bad that I couldn’t stop a friend from certain turmoil. I pointed out where they were heading, asked them to consider the glaring signs, but still, they continued. This isn’t the first time this has happened. People just seem unable to see the issues I point out, once they have decided on a path. People can only hear what they are ready to hear. My Grandma had this same frustration with me… “Why can’t you learn from other people’s mistakes? Why must you always make your own?”

As is my normal, after I felt everything that came up about my friend, I turned the dialog inward. “I’m so sorry I can’t save from your own decisions” became my higher self talking to me. “I’m so sorry life hurts” became me talking to my body. “I wish I could do more to protect you” became my liver speaking to me. After some crying and integration, I realized no one can save us from life. That’s the whole point.

If you think about your favorite story, it’s the exciting middle part that makes it worthwhile. It’s the cliffhangers, narrow escapes, and unintended heroism that make it worth retelling. Many popular stories have some version of the hero’s journey, as described by Joseph Campbell. We are all the heroes of our own story.

None of this information is really new. But, for me, it really changed my whole perspective. Instead of seeing pain and poor choices, I see a new chapter of the book. They just wanted to shake things up a bit to keep us on the edge of our seats. What an interesting story to watch! This goes for my own life, as well. It has truly been an adventure… with death-defying acts, romance, and unpredictable plot twists. Not to mention the beautiful scenery and wardrobe. It’s got a little of everything.

Now that I see it as a story, I can more easily guide the main plot. And I get to choose the character I play. I’ve never been the ‘damsel in distress’ type. Now I can look at my reactions and choices to see who they resonate as… the victim? The martyr? The evil betrayer? The hero? The kind advisor? So many options. Now the rambling of my monkey mind can easily tell me who I’m playing at the moment, and then I can formulate actions to move into or away from a character.

This is just another way to distance myself from my own story, in order to view it with a little objectivity. My story, and also my friends’ stories. Everyone is writing their own book. All are interesting. I just want mine to be on purpose. I want to be aware. I want to write myself as my own hero. And you? What’s your story?

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As we move into the next phase of our evolution, awareness can be harsh. Like a glaring spotlight shining into a dark room. Our first thought may be, “How did I miss this one?” All of a sudden, things become obvious, and it leaves room for being hard on oneself. Please don’t beat yourself up. No need for that.

Awareness only dawns when we are ready for it. When we have built enough skills, and are surrounded by the right people (which may be no one). You didn’t know what you didn’t know, so you can’t hold your old self accountable for past unconscious actions.“Do the best you can until you know better. Then when you know better, do better.” ~Maya Angelou

Be gentle with yourself, and let the awareness seep in slowly. You won’t be able to return to your past levels of unconscious behavior once the light hits your eyes, so don’t worry about that, either. Just sit with the new level of awareness, this new knowledge, and let your very cells absorb it. Never underestimate awareness. It changes you, on every level, completely organically.

We are so conditioned to “do”, rather than “be”. When we get a new understanding, first we berate ourselves for not seeing it sooner, then we storm off to make changes in our habit patterns… new diet, new study, new something to do. I am suggesting you give it some time to sink in first. Yes, habits will change, but instead of making change, just allow change. It will be faster and easier that way. Give it two weeks. If you aren’t seeing anything happen in two weeks, then go for it… take action. Until then, let evolution occur naturally.

Just reading a few word can trigger deep remembering. Let it. A conversation can present a whole new outlook. Let it. Epiphanies can fall out of the sky. Let them. Allow yourself to receive new information, and allow it to change you. “Intelligence is the ability to adapt to change.” ~ Stephen Hawking 

Yes, this is another step in dissolving the ego stories. We used to think our circumstances were a given, but as it turns out, they were just stories. Stories can change. Remember that. Being stubbornly fixed will no longer serve you. It’s time to expand our ideas of normal, in every aspect of our lives. Try to live, as much as you can, in awe of the possibilities. Instead of “why didn’t it work out like I planned?” use “this will be better than I had planned.” Your Higher Self has way better plans than your human mind could imagine.

So, for now, just let the awareness seep in. Let it move inside your body, and make organic changes. As always, the awareness may be of a psychological nature, but it is also stored physically. Detox is just part of the process. Drink lots of water, as you allow yourself to change. Be gentle in your awareness.

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First, I want to tell you a story about how the Universe is always conspiring in your favor, even when it seems otherwise.

Last week, I was bringing in wood for the fire, when a poorly stacked piece jumped off the pile, and landed directly on my foot. I could feel the injury growing, so I screamed to dissipate the energy (yes, it really works). Even after that, I had the nauseating feeling of a broken bone. This wasn’t good.

I already struggle with walking due to a neurological issue, and a broken foot would seriously complicate my life. I quickly went through blame and anger, then onto options for living with a break. It didn’t take long to reach the only reasonable solution: healing is the only option.

This all happened quickly, maybe 20 minutes. I got my ice pack, hobbled to the couch, and took off my slipper to reveal the already black, blue, and spreading bruise. I applied the cold, and spent the next 30 minutes mentally repeating with every single breath ‘healing is the only option‘. When I was done, the pain had stopped, the bruise was smaller, and I could wiggle all my toes.

Then the epiphany hit… this was the answer, not just for my foot, but my whole life. And not just for me, but for each individual, as well as the collective. Healing is the only option.

Then the symbology started… we spend so much time and energy “trying” to manifest something, that we’ve missed the simplicity. We think manifesting takes great effort and emotion, and usually ends up looking like a toddler having a tantrum (I want!). In reality, it’s more like driving a car. You have to be aware of where you want to go, and make the appropriate turns to get there, but it isn’t an emotional effort. You don’t plead, or demand the can turn left – you just turn. Same thing. Healing is the only option.

When life happens, and you get a flat tire or run out of gas, it may be inconvenient, but you address the issue and keep driving. Both driving and living require awareness to get you to your destination. When you notice your awareness slipping, just get your focus back on track.

For yogis, the goal is to be aware of every breath. My goal is to be aware of every thought. I’m sure those two are linked… complete awareness. It’s good to have a goal. Something to strive for.

So for yourself, and the collective, always return your wandering mind to one thought: healing is the only option. Love heals all, so really, love is the only option. Find a personal mantra that resonates with you, and we will all benefit.

See? The Universe is always leaving a trail of bread crumbs, even when it looks like misfortune. With everything that happens, know it’s happening for you, not to you. Let’s do this… together. Healing is the only option.

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This energy just isn’t messing around. So strong! I’m going to just mention a few tips, and include some links that may be helpful.

Consume lightly – Not just food, but also entertainment and interactions. Put off anything heavy or dramatic until next week.

Stay grounded & rested – Spend time outside & take a nap. This is a time of integration, not pushing the boundaries.

Let go of the past – New timelines are starting up, and the past will be popping in to see if you really want something different. It’s just checking, and it’s ok to be different now. Let yourself evolve.

The ego likes to stay in known territory, even when you would rather let go of old patterns. Let go anyway. This mass awakening will bring many insights and possibilities. Take a chance. Remember to stay in your power. You have more than you think. Always seek balance within. It’s a moving target, so keep moving. And above all, keep questioning your beliefs. Know Thyself.

Be kind to yourself, others, and mostly your body. This is a physical ascension process, and it isn’t an easy thing for any of us. Exciting, but not easy. Please feel free to look over some of my pages on this site. Not the archived posts (more time sensitive), but the pages at the top. The pages have more broad subject matter. It’s free, and my hope is that it will inspire (or at least ease) your journey. We’re all in this together. Here we go!

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Integrity happens when your thoughts, words and deeds are in agreement. When we take this one step further, we get alignment. The catch is you can be aligned with your ego or your soul. This is the heaven and hell polarity split. Many people are pretty good about their integrity, meaning their thoughts, words, and actions agree, but the question becomes: Who are they agreeing with?

The ego is an illusory fraction of ourselves, and illusions are fading fast. Quite rightly, the ego is afraid of its own destruction. Fears are running really high at the moment, as the ego constructs are falling. The ego simply isn’t being supported anymore. That game has run its course. Letting it go will be much less painful than hanging on. Really.

How do you identify the ego? It’s the one that acts from fear. My ego prefers anger to fear, but it’s a derivative. There are really only two basic platforms to operate from: fear or love. Every emotion we have can be traced back to one of those two states. Fear always contracts, and love always expands. When you think of something, feel how your body reacts… think of a loved one, and feel the relaxing and expanding sensation. Then think of politics, and feel the physical contraction. Hierarchy is an ego power construct, and will always cause discomfort, on some level.

Ego death is never a fun process, and grieving is appropriate. Sometimes it is a series of small deaths (of beliefs), sometimes it’s all at once. You just don’t know you’re living in a house of cards until they fall. Just know it is part of the journey, and many have gone before you, and lived to tell the tale. That said, it is indeed a necessary process for human evolution. Plus, it really is pretty amazing on the other side of it.

The soul is always love-based and expansive. The goal isn’t to ignore the ego, but to integrate it, as you align with your soul. Yes, you need to vote, and be as involved with politics as you are called to be, but keep checking to be sure you’re aligned within. If you can’t just do your civic duty and recenter yourself, it may be time to meditate or take a walk. Everyone gets caught up in the world from time to time. That’s totally normal. Just don’t live there. Always take time to align with your eternal self.

Why? Because your Higher Self is descending into your body. If you are full to the top with ego, there is going to be a mess when that ego gets displaced. If you are consciously (and constantly) making room, your Higher Self can fit into your life more easily. I wouldn’t say it’s “easy” for any of us, but it will be decidedly more difficult for the ego-bound. It’s happening either way… evolution happens to us all. Just know you can make it easier on yourself by aligning on a soul level.

Let your thoughts change. Let your beliefs soften. For goodness sake, turn off the TV news. Look within. Spend more time with wonder than judgment. Be in the world, not of it. Still function here, but always return your gaze inward. The outer illusion is crumbling, while the inner reality is blooming. Align with the future. Align with your own soul.

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I wrote this piece for my next book, but it keeps ringing in my head. Apparently, it wants to be shared now. Please note that ALL the chakras are equal, and need to be open for proper health and functioning. This is just my observation of the extreme emphasis some put on the sacral (2nd).

When we think about creativity, we automatically envision painting or singing or dancing or some other form of art. The word “creation” might smack with Divinity, or some origin story. In the spiritual community, creativity is generally associated with the sacral (2nd) chakra, along with sex, and some muddy darkness that can’t quite be defined. I want to take you on a journey of possibility, to reconsider these ideas. As usual, take what’s helpful, and leave the rest.

Unconscious creation is how nature exists. Growing a baby doesn’t take conscious thought, it just happens. Plants grow. Animals procreate. Nature happens. What if the second chakra is just about creation of physical life? That energy would control the hormones and genetic expression, with the primary goal of keeping the cycle of life going. It is a vital function not to be understated, but it is a subconscious physical process. Karma and childhood conditioning are stored as cellular information, therefore also part of the subconscious.

The art we associate with “creativity” is always a conscious expression, because it requires a conscious decision to share it. I’m not saying all art is high vibration, just that it doesn’t enter the world without our applied will. People make art from both Light (Higher Mind) and Dark (ego) inspirations, but it requires conscious effort either way. This is a throat (5th) chakra function. The energy of creation may flow through the 2nd, but human creativity flows through the 5th.

Physical creation is essential, both for new life, and for healing. It requires our support only in giving it an environment to flourish, not it any direction of how to complete a process. The body has its own wisdom. In fact, the subconscious system runs best if we don’t try to consciously dictate and control its workings. Shadow (ego) work brings subconscious beliefs into the light of consciousness to be reevaluated, and that bit is necessary for spiritual evolution, but the body is fully capable of healing itself, given the opportunity.

So if the physical has its very own system of creation, that frees the conscious mind to explore creativity. Every word you speak, every step you dance, every piece of music you sing or play, every kind of art, even every interaction, flows through your 5th chakra of expression. Being fully aware of this fact lets your creative energy flow freely out to the world. Creativity isn’t limited to art; your very energy changes the world around you.

Think about this a bit… What if we really are creators in training? This doesn’t have anything to do with the 2nd chakra (or sex), because nature has that one covered. What if people are looking to creation (2nd chakra) for their connection to creativity (5th chakra)? What if fulfillment is only found in our own expression of creativity? What if the only part of our very life force we are responsible for is our unique expression? Humans are unique to nature because we aren’t just animals; we also have access to the Higher Mind. Combining those two results in the ego, which takes some management, but our focus needs to be on integrating the Higher Mind, not playing as the animal.

Another thing this brings up for me is how strange people’s energy becomes when their lifestyle centers on sex. This would include sex addiction, promiscuity, pornography, and various sex-based systems. Is the constant emphasis on the 2nd chakra also empowering the subconscious ego? Is the obsession with the 2nd chakra an attempt to touch the power of creation (nature)? Is it to avoid their own power of conscious creativity? I imagine it’s different for everyone. Please don’t misunderstand, sex is perfectly normal, and an open 2nd chakra is essential to health, but all of that can be done within reasonable boundaries, and without special emphasis. Some folks are just spending a whole lot of time there, and I’m exploring the possible reasons.

It seems to me, the happiest people are those who are creating something. We all need to spend more time creating. I don’t mean do it for a living; I mean do it for a life. Be it a painting or a community garden, when people let creative energy flow through them into the world, everyone wins. Divinity flows through us as creativity. Creativity is a 5th charka thing. Our throat chakra gives us our conscious expression, which is how creators learn how to create.

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